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- Robert Frost Collins - 08-06-2012 [html] (384) Let's thank our lucky stars because I have both of our posts for this entire thread ;u;[/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-06-2012 [html] WC:302 OOC: Found the saved! <3 She had not left her house all the day before or yesterday, her emotions were running high and she was again sick, mostly from the crying and dispair she felt. It wasn’t that Aro didn’t want to be a father, it was that it clashed with their own lives, but her thoughts went to.... how was she going to take care of … PUPPIES!? The thought again brought her into sobbing fits just as she heard the soft knock, she wasn’t a wailing cryer, so it wasn’t hard to hear his voice. Two more emotions ran through her, panic and happiness, she was panicking because she was wonderhing what he would think, and happy because... of all the people she would rather see him the most, she saw him as her best friend right now, not her only friend, for she had many here in the pack, ones she knew she could rely on, but Robert, he was the one she felt she could count on. “I-in here” She said sniffling, trying her best to look like she was ok, but that was impossible, her fur was pulled out of her scarf in a mess and her cheeks and eyes were blotted with the tears she cried, dried and spiked in the fashion of any wet dog. She was sitting straight up, and didn’t look down the hall where he would come down, she was sitting in her living room, kitchen, the most used spot she had, and yet the ashes in the fireplace was cold. She hadn’t eaten for a day or so, feeling worse for wear just for that, but she knew it would all come up again. Well better he saw her miserable like this than others, he wouldn’t make such a big deal out of it at least. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-06-2012 [html] [/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-06-2012 [html] WC: 302 OOC: She was doing what she could, her composure was already down and out just from him surprising her like this. It wasn’t unwelcome but it was unexpected. He sat down by her without hesitation and if she were in more of a position to notice she would know something changed about him, but she was too distraught with her own worries than to figure him out. She did what she could to suppress anything that showed she was crying even the stuffy nose that it caused. She looked away as he stated she was crying and of course she denied it loudly and forcefully, he’s already seen her weak once before and now... well what would he think of her, she wasn’t even mated to the other man... and she was now going to have his puppies. Things couldn’t work out for her and Aro and she knew it, though if she told Robert or anyone else about her feelings about that night, would they think her a harlot? His immidiate question made her rejections stop suddenly and she sighed; “I am... I am going to be the worst mother in the world.” She felt another hideous sob come on but she held it down, making it choke her down close to her stomach, close to the children whose lives she would destroy; “I... i’m going to have babies....” She finally stated after a soft thought at her other answer... it was as distant as the one she gave Aro and he had mistook what she said and she had to repeat herself, it was best to ge it over with it was best to hope for a good reaction Aro had surprised her in a way perhaps Robert wouldnt leave... not right away at least. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-06-2012 [html] [/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-06-2012 [html] WC: 287 OOC: She felt a little relieved when she spoke but it seemed that she somehow froze him in place as he was quiet as he did not say anything for a while and she was quite conscience where his eyes were headed, of course he wasn’t going to see any difference, she knew that it was far too early in the pregnancy, well Hotaru had told her this but she didn’t have to say that to anyone else. When he finally found his voice she found that anger surged through her, not particularly at him. well some of it maybe just for his inability to comfort her, “I didn’t mean for it to happen... it.... it just DID! I know how it happens too but... but everything just came together.”She started talking really fast some of what she said after was far too incoherent for Robert to even hear and she was envisioning Aro, who had been so sweet, even when she came to him to give him the bad news that he would be a father and her a mother, …. a mother for crying out loud! She would probably ditch them just like her own ditched her, yes she would be a horrible mother and she was convinced of it. How many had she had, and did any of them teach her how to be one? Jace... she did give her advice on them, but it was mostly about pregnancy and even some of that she’d forgotten. She was still pacing about the room in a fury that was not hers, an anger that was towards herself and her stupidity, and she felt like she needed to hit something and hard. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-06-2012 [html] (396)[/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-06-2012 [html] WC: 238 OOC: She really didn’t know what she was saying because if she didn’t she wouldn’t admit all this to him, but her emotions were running on high. She let out a few more random words fly about her own stupidity. She saw him move towards her and speak, his words silently consoling her. They were what she needed, her anger was abated, but she hated herself, she let her own fists unclenched and her tense body went limp and she sat down suddenly, as though she just suddenly went into shock and she stared at her floor, which was made of refurbished wood. She blinked away the tears, she was trying to calm down, trying not to cry and she couldn’t look at him now. “You probably think me some idiot cry baby now...” She said sourly, the sourness was directed more at herself, for how could she be angry with the man that helped her so much so far without even knowing it? Or did he know it and was just still playing her for a fool? She didn’t believe the latter thought but her paranoid self kept it in the back of her mind as she rubbed at an arm with the other, and just not moving other than that, her words finally spent and now feeling foolish, depressed, sad and who knew what other emotion. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-09-2012 [html] (447) hmm who sucks. oh yeah, i do. /flails in any matter, this is now my favorite Rob/Ec thread.[/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-09-2012 [html] WC: 464 OOC: She felt numb and his words were doing their best to reassure her no matter how awkward they sounded, he was doing his best and she knew it and this was enough to make her feel just slightly better but she didn’t know what to do anymore. She leaned back and over wanting more than just words to comfort her, but she was tense and still not trusting her own self. She still leaned in on him so her head could rest on his shoulder, still keeping her own eyes from his purple. If she looked at him she would cry again and she didn’t know why. “I know I am a grown woman now... I just didn’t think it would be so fast and so surprising... I thought i would have some kind of sign saying it was just a bad time... but my whole body told me it was the perfect time....” She said her words sliding out of her mouth. She had no issues telling him this and she didn’t know why but she did stop herself, he definitely didn’t want to hear about it; “I’m sorry, I just... there’s so much and these new feelings all jumbled I don’t know what to do with them...” She said sniffing a little but not feeling the onrush of tears anymore, she felt comfortable and a peace of sorts seemed to come over her as she touched her cheek to Robert’s shoulder; “I don’t think I want to leave Cercatori for a while, or my home for that matter... How do they do it? The parents?” She asked she remembered her parents loved her but that was short lived at least in her mind it was because after she turned three months... or was it four, whatever the case, they were gone and she was alone. That was all she really knew but not everyone’s parents were like that she learned after she found a temporary mother... many of them until she was able to take care of herself and live on her own. Robert’s last word “okay” seemed to repeat in her head as she thought, it sunk in and in a way she felt better as though he forgave her even though she didn’t need to ask forgiveness from the man. They were in no way mates, and she flushed at the thought, she may like him, but she doubted he liked her, not after her actions, and she didn’t know what it was and what it meant either, love like that of a brother or more, maybe it really was more, she thought, but tried to push it away, she would end up hurting herself if she played with anymore emotions. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-09-2012 [html] (566)[/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-10-2012 [html] WC: 416 OOC: SO MUCH THINKING ECLIPSE JUST JUMP HIM ALREADY.... err i mean P It was nice. Nice to sit there and lay her head on his shoulder, though so many thoughts still ran through her mind, she almost didn’t hear anything he said. Finally she looked up to meet his eyes but did not leave contact of him; “You will?” She asked in a surprise that seemed as though someone said they would do anything even kill just to have a liver from a rabbit. This made questions swim through her head even more. Her eyes lingered for a moment before looking back down, but not with as much sullen haste. His next words made her mind nearly explode with thoughts, it all just depends...depends on what, how? She knew so little of parenting that this whole situation was not good for her and she knew it, so why did she put herself into it? She couldn’t kill her own puppies, but what good was she as a parent, they would resent her if she gave them up and she would resent herself. Forever. “What do you mean? What would it all depend on? I... I just don’t want to be like mine. I want to be with them, I don’t want to abandon them, but I wouldn’t know what to do with them.” She said absently. She quieted and snuggled a little closer, his arm feeling like a protective shield against anything bad anywhere around him. It comforted her in so many ways she couldn’t explain. It felt good, and in her mind.. better than being in Aro’s arms when he comforted her about the news. The question shocked her,she sat up enough to feel the pull on his arm, though she knew he wasn’t trying to keep her there, it just reminded her she was safe. She settled down again before speaking, playing with her claws; “He is charming, that’s what attracted me I guess, his words, he is nice and told me he would take responsibility, he would visit and everything. But do I like him more than just a friend? I don’t know.... I don’t think so. We came to the conclusion that we were not meant to be together. I belong here... he belongs there....” She said. She wondered if they were in the same pack, would they become mates? She wasn’t sure they would be. She liked his charming attitude but there was something that made her feel they didn’t belong together. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-11-2012 [html] (536) /feels spill everywhere[/html] - Eclipse Soulstorm - 08-12-2012 [html] WC: 463 OOC: LAHV! Those were the words she needed, and of course they were said by Aro, but for some reason they felt far better to her than Aro’s had... her mind went into a small fighitng match with itself thinking about Robert and needing him, she shouldn’t need him and she couldn’t afford to get too attached, not like she had with her parents, but he seemed far more stable than she remembered her parents but then again maybe she ws being too harsh on them. He spoke about not being like them and she shook her head, he didn’t seem to understand; “That’s all I knew... after they left, i ran away, then I never stayed, I didn’t want to love anyone, or get close to anyone for so long, I broke so many hearts just by running off from them. It was Saul that made me see what I was doing... I might do the same thing to my children.” She said. This was the first time she spoke to anyone about it. It was always bottled up inside her that she knew how bad of a wolf she was but she couldn’t help it, she had to make him understand her situation. She would more than likely abandon her children. Not because she thought she was like her parents. But because she knew she was like them. Though when he said “We” she felt her heart flutter, “we will figure it out.” not “you will figure it out.” He truly was there to help her, and she couldn’t help let another bout of tears crawl down her sheeks, but she did not sob like she thought she would. The silence that followed was nice though, she let herself compose before she felt movement, he wasn’t trying to leave but was looking for something. Then he showed it to eclipse and her eyes widened and a smile, the first one in a few days, spread across her face; “Oh Robert it is lovely! You did such a good job!” She said she sat up and took it, looking at the points and imagined the nights sky. She looked at him, not many gave her things, she’d gotten something from her aunt and her cousin, and a random wolf and she cherished them with all her heart. She threw her arms around him in appreciation and hugged him; “Thank you, maybe you can help me find a place to hang it. Well, I suppose I will have to find a frame for it though, but wow, you did this?” She sat back and looked back at the paper, her smile still etched on her face, though it deminished in her depression, she still had it. .freetable1 b {font-weight:bold; color:#fff;} .freetable1 p {text-indent:0px; padding:5px 15px; margin:0px;} .freetable1 {margin:0 auto; width:500px; background-color:#7BB675; background-image:url(http://i.imgur.com/AeAfO.png); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border:1px solid #1F571A; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; padding: 130px 0px 7px 0px; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size:12px; color:#3B7835; letter-spacing:.6px; word-spacing:.9x; line-height:13px; text-align:justify;} </style> [/html] - Robert Frost Collins - 08-12-2012 [html] (366) these two, my heart can't take it[/html] |