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- Iskata Sadira - 09-05-2008 She was beginning to become somewhat of a recluse, dropping the letters and running, but then again she didn't want to think about the past, she didn't want to talk about the past.. and she didn't want to see their reactions. Iskata had moved across the lands quickly since she'd left the home of Ember and Khaden. She was heading to the mansion in the lands her daughter's pack resided. Luckily this time she didn't come across any other members of the pack as she walked down the path to the large door to the mansion. She took the steps one at at a time as she stared up at the massive door before her. Her hands shook as she raised her hand to slide the letter through the opening of the door, not wanting to be caught in these lands even though she knew she was welcome by more than one who lived there. She shook her head and closed her eyes as she let the written words drop to the steps as a tear ran down her face. The words of her mate stared up at her as she caught sight of her son's name, she turned her eyes away and sighed, hoping that her children would have better dealings than she would with the words of their father. To my son, Kansas: I want you to know that I am proud of you, and always will be. I know you had doubts about yourself, but then so did I at your age, and so does everyone. But you were always a good boy, and I have no doubt that you’ve grown up into a fine adult. I’m honored to be your father, and I hope to one day meet the man you’ve grown into. I hope you will forgive me for not being there for you. Your brother and I have been taken against our will to a far-off land where wolves think they can own other wolves and make them work and fight for their pleasure. I was put into a pit to fight in such a way, but instead I convinced the other gladiators to help me fight for our freedom. We’ve gathered a number of slaves and formed an army, but these wolves still hold the advantage over us in numbers and weapons. One thing you should know was that I learned the identity of our kidnapper… he was my father, your grandfather. And now he fights on the side of the enemy. But you know me, Kansas. I have survived greater dangers, and I will survive this, I promise you. But you must be the man for our family until my return. Protect your mother and your sisters for me. I know you can do it. Your father, Phoenix She shook her head once more and turned her eyes away from the door and the letter she'd dropped as she took the steps one by one away from the mansion and towards the world outside. She hated to leave like that but she didn't want to face anyone at the moment, last of all her own children. - Kansas Sadira - 09-22-2008 [html]<style type="text/css"> .kansastemplate strong {font:9pt Georgia; font-weight:bold; line-height:1.0em; letter-spacing:-1px;} .lyrics {font:9pt Georgia; line-height:1.0em; font-weight:bold; letter-spacing:-1px; text-transform:lowercase;} </style> http://img223.imageshack.us/img223/324/ ... atedu5.png) #260a19 top no-repeat;"> [/html]
[ooc] i can't be stopped, i've got to take that fool's life [ic] i'm outta bullets so fuck it, i use my knife - Iskata Sadira - 09-26-2008 Iskata was just out of sight when the sound of the massive front door opening caught her attention. She paused and turned around, peering out from behind the bushes at the figure standing on the old porch. She felt her shoulders sag and her ears pin back as she caught sight of her son. She hadn't seen Kansas since he'd gone off to join Naniko in Twilight Vale and now here was her chance and she was hiding in the shadows as though she was nowhere near. The silver and gold woman watched him as he read and reread the words from his father, her mate. She could tell that the words of the man affected him just as much as they had her, if not in the same manner atleast in one just as heartwretching. She sighed softly and closed her eyes, she didn't want to see her boy like this.. and she almost hated Phoenix for laying words of responsibilities on shoulders as though it mattered. When she had opened her sun shot orbs again Kansas was gone, she knew she should have just turned about and walked away but she couldn't. She was angry at her mate and she didn't want to see the softspoken boy hurt, though it was obvious that he already was. She growled softly and stepped out of the cover and made herway towards the manson. She didn't even stop to call for her son, she just pushed herway through the door and walked through. Following the scent of her son she made herway up the stairs and towards the room where his scent seemed to overpower the area. Iskata stood outside the door and called softly to the creamy silver boy of her's that was hiding within. "Kansas..." - Kansas Sadira - 09-27-2008 [html]<style type="text/css"> .kansastemplate strong {font:9pt Georgia; font-weight:bold; line-height:1.0em; letter-spacing:-1px;} .lyrics {font:9pt Georgia; line-height:1.0em; font-weight:bold; letter-spacing:-1px; text-transform:lowercase;} </style> http://img223.imageshack.us/img223/324/ ... atedu5.png) #260a19 top no-repeat;"> [/html]
[ooc] i can't be stopped, i've got to take that fool's life [ic] i'm outta bullets so fuck it, i use my knife - Iskata Sadira - 10-01-2008 Iskata's heart was breaking as she heard the soft sobs of her baby boy from within the room. She had know that her children would take the news differently, she could probably see Firefly burning the words with anger flaring in her eyes, she thought perhaps Ember would have taken the words to heart and they would have pained her the most.. but she should have known that Kansas had grown close to his dad in her absence. When the door was opened and she was met face to face with the young Sadira boy she tried to keep the tears from misting her eyes as he apologized and then asked, gesturing towards the words of his father. The silver and gold Matriarch was silent for a moment, gazing down at those scripty words before she pushed the letter away from her and out of sight. She didn't need to see them to know what they said, she didn't want to see them to even imagine it all. Shaking her head she spoke bitterly as she admitted. "Too long.. and yet not long enough." She wasn't for certain if she could hate her mate for the betrayal he'd dropped like a bombshell upon his family. She wondered if he knew the state he was leaving them in now, the pain and sorrow come back fresh now, though not from believing him dead, but realizing he was more than alive.. but not coming home. Iskata moved closer to her son and brushed her muzzle and cheek up against his own as she sighed softly. "I'm sorry Kansas.. Perhaps I should have just burned them all when I got them.." She wiped away another tear from his face as she gazed down into orbs that matched her own brilliant ones. - Kansas Sadira - 10-04-2008 [html]<style type="text/css"> .kansastemplate strong {font:9pt Georgia; font-weight:bold; line-height:1.0em; letter-spacing:-1px;} .lyrics {font:9pt Georgia; line-height:1.0em; font-weight:bold; letter-spacing:-1px; text-transform:lowercase;} </style> http://img223.imageshack.us/img223/324/ ... atedu5.png) #260a19 top no-repeat;"> [/html]
[ooc] i can't be stopped, i've got to take that fool's life [ic] i'm outta bullets so fuck it, i use my knife - Iskata Sadira - 10-10-2008 Iskata's heart ached with the words that her young son asked, the questions he should feel he needed to and the answers she shouldn't have to give. She sighed, her breath catching in her throat as she tried to speak firmly, yet trying to keep the anger from her tone (but failing miserably). "I'm sorry because he doesn't know what a strong man you've turned into. He hasn't been here to see you grow, to see you stand firm in your own pack and to care for those you care about. You know better than I do that the women your sisters have become are stubborn fiercy and loyal. They don't need someone to watch after them, and if they still believe they do I should only lay the blame at your father's paws for making them believe that they need a man to hide them in the shadows." Iskata had never exactly talked bad about her mate, though she knew there were many flaws in his character. He tended to allow her to be a fierce thing but she'd watched him coddle and hold back their children with notions of knights and princesses. She'd let him play for so long at the idea and she knew she should have stopped it early, but he'd been her mate and their alpha and she'd let him walk all over them. When Kansas had pulled away and asked the final question that broken the last bit of willpower she had she growled softly and shook her head. "I don't know.. he might.." She ran her fingers through her young boy's mane as she said bitterly. "But I don't think he'll be as welcome as he would believe." She hadn't exactl mentioned it to anyone but the Matriarch had no notion of allowing the father of her children back in her life. Each and every one of her children could make their own choices but she'd made her's the day she'd been delivered a letter of pain and sorrow. - Kansas Sadira - 10-14-2008 [html]<style type="text/css"> .kansastemplate strong {font:9pt Georgia; font-weight:bold; line-height:1.0em; letter-spacing:-1px;} .lyrics {font:9pt Georgia; line-height:1.0em; font-weight:bold; letter-spacing:-1px; text-transform:lowercase;} </style> http://img223.imageshack.us/img223/324/ ... atedu5.png) #260a19 top no-repeat;"> [/html]
[ooc] i can't be stopped, i've got to take that fool's life [ic] i'm outta bullets so fuck it, i use my knife - Iskata Sadira - 10-18-2008 Iskata couldn't have believed that her son had felt ashamed because of the things his father expected out of him. Kansas was not the leader of a pack with a million worries in his head, he was a young boy who still had to find his place in the world. He could worry about families and being the man later when he needed to. She wrapped her arms around him when he embraced her and she smiled softly. She hadn't spent enough time with her children when they'd started to set off and wander the world and now she missed it all. The words he spoke made her sad that he felt like he had to devote time to the girls and her. She laughed sadly as she shook her head and looked down at him, shaking his shoulders lightly as she spoke. "No, you do what you need to.. and what you want to. We know you haven't forgotten about us.." She chuckled softly as she admitted. "I don't think Firefly would let you forget anyways.." She could almost see the girl bickering at her soft hued twin for having been gone so long and how she'd almost sent a search party out after him.. It was the nature of the girl, but she knew that Kansas could take anything the fierce woman could dish out, they were like ying and yang and when they were together everything seemed at peace, if only for a moment. - Kansas Sadira - 10-20-2008 [html]<style type="text/css"> .kansastemplate strong {font:9pt Georgia; font-weight:bold; line-height:1.0em; letter-spacing:-1px;} .lyrics {font:9pt Georgia; line-height:1.0em; font-weight:bold; letter-spacing:-1px; text-transform:lowercase;} </style> http://img223.imageshack.us/img223/324/ ... atedu5.png) #260a19 top no-repeat;"> [/html]
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