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- Bane Kiles - 12-16-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 12-17-2008 Iskata had been in a bitter mood the past few days, not because of her own choice in demoting herself from the ranks of the pack council but because of the truths that seemed to come with losing one's whole world. She'd paced back and forth in the cottage, barely touching down on her broken hindleg as she could hear Skylar's soft whines of concern for the actions of her grandmother. Instead of settle down to make the child feel better the Whilom had shuffled to the front door and pulled the door open, forcing the young DaVinci lookalike to have to follow her into the wintery air. The silver and gold woman should have stayed within the confinements of her home, let the stitches heal together her wounds and gain strength but it was almost like she had a death wish, that she didn't want to get better. It was drawing near for Deuce to remove the stitches, her skin having healed as well as it was going to, the brilliant red welts across her pelt telling tales that seemed to raise questions everywhere she went. She knew there was nothing that could have been done for her leg and she didn't even try and care. She still had three that would get her where she could go, though slower and not so steady. The woman gritted her teeth together as she ambled down the red dirt trail towards the borders. She could hear Skylar's soft grumbles but she chose to ignore them. She didn't ask for the guardian and she sure wasn't going to be easy on the child for appointing herself to such a position. The scarred face and unseeing eyes turned towards the long trek beside the salty ponds that lay at their borders. She could feel Skylar ease along the side where the water's edge fell as she moved into the general routine she'd once known so well. The scent of another pricked at her senses as she growled softly, still awkward about not knowing who or what was near when it was apparent by scent, but not sight. She paused as she raised her head and called out. "Hello..." the winds whistling softly, making her feel as though ghosts were lurking in the darkness that was now her life. - Bane Kiles - 12-19-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 12-24-2008 Skylar took her tail off the base of her grandmother's back as the strange male spoke. She nodded her head to the male but let Iskata had word, she had been the matriarch and these were more her packlands than Skylar's. Her beige eyes seemed to sparkle and smile as she curled her tail around her paws and steal glances at both the figures before her, not knowing the male but rather curious as to why he was wondering the edge of their lands and yet just the same she was more concerned for her grandmother, not wanting to leave her with this male who's scent smelled like none of those she knew from the territories. The silver and gold lady flicked her ears back a moment at the scent and sound of the voice when he spoke. His response seemed friendly enough but she couldn't see what was right before her and a voice wasn't enough to rely on. She knew that Skylar was resting close by and she hoped the other was watching the stranger but it really didn't matter in the end she guessed. She was already dead in most aspects, barely a shadow of what she once was. "No, we're just out for a walk.." she said as she shook her head. She almost had said they were enjoying the sights but that would have been bitter and sarcastic words on her half. Instead she tilted her head along the border of the lands and asked. "Care to join us stranger?" She would learn his name if he wished to give it, if not like everything that occurred in her life that was lived day by day, it would really matter that much. She turned her sightless eyes towards Skylar as she introduced themselves. "This is my granddaughter Skylar Nasphrite, and I'm Iskata Sadira.. you've found Phoenix Valley, if you were wondering." she said with a slight smirk. Such a strong force the pack presented with a cripple and a half grown child roaming the borders. - Bane Kiles - 12-29-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 12-30-2008 "Company, new and old is always welcome.." she admitted. The woman's life had changed quite a bit lately and she was trying to find some sort of happiness to cling to. Something to live for. She wouldn't admit that she enjoyed the gossip and the news of the outside world that she no longer belonged to. The stories and images that came from the visitors were what she lived for.. but even that wasn't enough to the woman who'd had so much just yesterday and in the blink of an eye it had all disappeared. She smiled softly at the male as his voice graced her ears, one of the few things about her that still worked, granted they were tattered and torn just like the rest of the woman. She lowered her head slightly as he admitted that he'd met one of her children and yet before she could even open her maw to explain the relation he dropped a bomb on her heart. Bane, the long lost child of Phasma who they'd mourned over and had believed him dead. She'd never learned the fates of her friends two other child and she'd never been there who her friend needed her most but this blast from the past brought more than just stories.. he was ghosts and memories as well. Her sightless eyes turned away a moment before out of habit returned to gaze at the child who was no kid anymore. You're Phasma's boy.." she said softly. - Bane Kiles - 01-01-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-02-2009 The silver and gold woman nodded her head slightly at the words that the male made, her sightless eyes lowered as she admitted it all. "You and Tsunami were swept out to sea.." He knew that of course, why was she repeating things he already knew. She swollowed the memories as she tried to continue on with their stroll, feeling the soft touch of Skylar next to her as she turned towards the voice of Bane. "Your mother was one of my best friends.." she said softly, one of the sure regrets she would ever admit to was the fact that she'd never been there when Phasma needed her. Iskata had always been off saving the day, making things right and generally keeping busy and watching over her family. So carried away with her blood family she'd forgotten the special bond between the few woman she'd known so closely. She slowed as she said softly. "She died before the fires.." her face turned away as she stumbled over the next words. "I should have been with her.." Phasma had always been there for her and Iskata had tried to do right by the dark hued woman.. yet she'd never been good enough to her friends, she'd never given them the devotion and loyalty they needed when they needed it most. She'd carried the guilt along forever and yet she knew she'd never be free of the burden because unlike her, they were all gone now. No one to forgive her, not even ghosts on the winds. - Bane Kiles - 01-03-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-04-2009 The gentle motion of their movements seemed to play along with the changes taking place in her mind, the fading memories of her past taking over the fading faces she knew so well. She shook her head sadly as she tried to push them from creating visions that she knew were not real, not that it mattered, there were no real visions for her anymore. Her ears flattened against her skull as that thought did happen to flush the rest from her mind, the harsh truths of reality were a powerful poison. When the voice of Bane seemed to carry on the winds she released the muscles that pinned her ears back as she sighed. She knew that he was speaking the truth but when it seemed that everyone you ever knew was beginning to disappear from your world in more ways than one, you tended to climg to weak moments more than the strength of truths. She turned her face to the male as she smiled, "My soul's long since been claimed.." she shook her head at the thought. She didn't want to think of what might have claimed her soul but she doubted regret would be the one to win that battle. Clearing her throat as she tried to find a new beginning for a whole new conversation she asked, "How did you survive the sea?" She couldn't even remember how she'd survived the harsh wonders of the woman but she had.. perhaps Bane's story was more interesting. - Bane Kiles - 01-05-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-06-2009 Iskata had been many things in her lifetime, the current state was just one she would have to move through to get along further down the line. Though she hadn't found the path she was to follow to get there she would eventually. Always with the pain and sorrow came the helping hand to lead her out of darkness and onto the next step. The guiding tail of her granddaughter disappeared for a moment as she began to realize that they were on their way along the old red road that lead further into the packlands, the scents of the farm and her own home were lingering on the breeze as she began to relax around the lost soul beside her who never seemed to be lost in the first place. When his voice rang up she should have realized how stupid her question had been but he didn't make a big deal of it. He spoke of Tsunami and the places they'd been after the storm had taken them offshore. She listened silently as she steadily paced her way down the road. When he'd mentioned that her grey friend had returned to the lands at one point she shook her head sadly. "It would have been nice to have seen him again.." she said wistfully, yet she knew he'd already past from the lands, she would have found him by now or heard from him in someway if he was still here. "What was it like, your journey?" she asked suddenly. She'd given up her travels long ago but she still loved to hear of distant lands and strange far off places. - Bane Kiles - 01-06-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-10-2009 Iskata had been many things, she'd been a princess, a packmate, a loner, a lover, mate, mother, wanderer and a leader. How she'd managed so much and still was alive was beyond her. Though her spirit had been broken and rehealed many times this last time it seemed all the pieces that had been broken before were harder to piece together than times before. She flicked her ears back as she thought of all the things she'd done in her life and the places she'd been, wondering just how Tsunami had taken to his life before disappearing again, he'd been one of the few that she'd always enjoyed just relaxing and speaking with. It was saddening to think that all she knew had disappeared into the darkness and she would never know if they'd return or were gone forever. When the dark hued male spoke she couldn't help but chuckle at his words. She shook her head as he spoke of Tsunami's want to get back so much and of everyone and the world he'd come from. "And yet he disappeared so quickly again once he made it here.." she said softly, in wonder of why. Had there been no one here for him when he'd returned, had Laruku changed so much, was Phasma already gone.. she herself had been long absent in the time he'd returned and she wished for once that she hadn't gone after her children.. but she couldn't change that now. She just shook her head in disappointment at the words he'd spoken. She almost stumbled in a hole hidden by the snow as Skylar stopped and leapt back to her side to examine the elder Sadira. Iskata just nosed her away and bared her teeth slightly to show that she was alive, just irritated with the fact that she knew she wouldn't have done that if she'd been whole. She frowned with determination as she picked herself up again and moved on, ignoring what she'd just done as she answered his question. "Yes, but never so far. I've wandered to the coastal cities before.. where everyone lives in the homes and they take the ships out to sea like the humans once did... I've never went much farther than that... though once I wished to.." Now there was no way she could. She'd never be able to see all the wonders that the world said were out there, she was just locked away in the dark country of her mind. - Bane Kiles - 01-12-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-14-2009 The woman's path had come to two dark roads and she was puttering on empty as to which road to take. She would balk at the crossway until someone gave her a push and yet while everyone was ready to help her along herway no one was willing to give her the final push she needed. The woman was a coward, she knew she had to take that first step and yet she'd wallow in her misery and despair, growing depressed and hateful instead of doing what was needed. She'd wait though, til she ran out of time or until someone came along strong enough to make her will burn strong once more. Iskata had no way of telling time anymore once the sun had set, and even then all she knew was that there was warmth on her back, even then the sun wasn't always a guarantee to the woman. While the two companions still stayed with her it seemed that the words Bane was to give were more than just passing conversation. She stopped and flicked her ears towards his voice as she frowned slightly. "But there's always someplace you've never been.. some sight you've never seen.." she paused suddenly, realizing what she'd said before sighing. "You're right. I'm NOT missing much." There was nothing to miss now with no eyes to see it all. She'd just have to remain a dreamer with an imaginary world whirling around in her silver and gold head while the rest lived in the real time of here and now. She turned her nose towards the male asking suddenly. "So what made you return?" If he'd abandoned his father along the trail but yet he'd still returned.. she wondered why. - Bane Kiles - 01-21-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-23-2009 Iskata knew nothing of light or dark anymore, there was just the nothing that she was surrounded by. An echo of a world she once knew and now she wondered just what was out there in the nothing she resided within. She thought slightly on the idea of if she could ever find her way out of the strange place she was stuck but she didn't believe so, she was blind and wouldn't be able to see the world anymore, but perhaps she would be able to belong again atleast. Over time perhaps her pack would forget the pain and the sorrow of what happened to her and the events of her downward spiral.. but for now she would just have to wait. She ducked her head slightly when the male spoke of things to be seen without the eyes. She wasn't for certain what he meant but she was a stubborn bitch with a one track mind and that mind wasn't open to new ways if thinking so soon after the accident. She tilted her head to the side and asked. "Do you say that from experience, or just trying to make me feel better?" She wouldn't admit that a spark of hope at the words he'd said had come into being but she knew the likelyhood of it was was short lived. She flicked her ears as she thought about it again and was quiet as he spoke of why he'd come. The silver and gold wolf walked softly on the path she knew so well as she listened. He didn't seem to care for his father but yet he'd come all along. She lifted her nose to the winds, the scent of the beach, the hickory wood burning on the fire in the cottage, cattle in the barn.. all things she knew,the place she belonged, her home. She was quiet a moment longer before asking. "What are you looking for?" Everyone roamed and wandered for their own reasons, she had no real clue what his passion that drove him on had been or even what his past had consisted of except the path he spoke of currently. She turned her face towards the dark hued male, she heard Skylar moving away towards the cottage, she knew they were close enough that she could find her own way home and that if anything Skylar would probably keep herself awake until her grandmother returned, but the act touched the elder woman who sometimes felt like she was being babied. "Have you come any closer to find it.." she asked as her head moved to follow the sounds of her grandchild making her way towards the cottage. She could almost hear the nails of the young girl clicking on the porch even from this distance. After a moment she looked without seeing the male by her side as she waited. - Bane Kiles - 01-25-2009 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 01-27-2009 She just smiled in her own world of darkness and nodded silently to his answer. Perhaps honesty was what she needed. Jefferson had given her a good dose of honesty blunt and truthful even though she hadn't taken it in like she should of she still knew it was there and had been given to her. Now if the rest of the world would just do the same perhaps she'd find her way back to her feet again and the whole of it all wouldn't seem so bad. Somewhere deep inside though she knew that she would forever dwell on how the accident had played out, how the man had almost got his wish and yet she'd been ironically lucky enough to live.. though she'd wished she'd just died. Flicking her ears back she laid out the truth for the other. "I had wished that I'd died that day. Do you think that's wrong?" She was unsure why she even shared the truth with him, perhaps because he'd been truthful to her.. but she hadn't spoken that honest bit to anyone but the ebony male who she couldn't even see before her. When he spoke of finding peace of mind and the search for the what one never seemed to be able to find she just shook her head, knowing in some way he was correct and yet wishing that he wasn't. She wondered if she had passed on if she would have found what she'd been looking for in the everlasting peace of death but she doubted that. One ear twitched as she thought on that before laughing softly. "Do we even know what it is we crave so desperately.." she asked. She wasn't forcertain she knew what it was she'd been chasing this long. Perhaps she'd found it long ago and had never realized it, that would have been a laugh. |