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The young male had found most things in his life difficult. They had been things that others would likely find average, even easy and nothing to bat an eye at. Traveling outside the pack lands, venturing to places he had yet to explore with another, going off on his own for a few hours. They were all very scary for the masked boy. Alder saw them as a mountain to climb. But this was certainly the tallest of mountains he had ever faced. It was setting a deep crack in his heart, and he felt his chest weigh heavily with this realization and decision. The moment seemed to slow, ticking by as the world's turn can to a snail's pace. But his mind was blank, no racing thoughts, no yelling conscious. His breath could be heard in his ears, his heart beating like a pounding drum in his stomach. It hurt, and he knew that the tears that he felt would soon fall to his black accented cheeks.
His brother spoke, no doubt seeing the hurt and sadness in Alder's face. They were so encouraging and filled with understanding. He felt better knowing that he had someone who felt the same as he did, someone that could relate to the feelings that were swimming within him. Haven was stronger, he was full of courage and Alder had once heard that what did not kill you made you stronger. Could he mend? Could he be strengthened by this painful decision?
Blue eyes looked up at the orange tinged male, his brother and the only one that knew how Alder really felt about his life. The offer that was given was the life raft that Alder was searching for. He could stay here. The boy knew that he would lean on the mated pair as he would his mother. They had a life all their own, and with pups on the way. Alder couldn't interfere with the new growing family. He would have to find his own way. But for the moment he could rest and not have to search for a new place to live in a world he knew nothing about.
It took him many moments until Alder nodded his head. He would need to go tell her, but for now Alder needed to rest and he needed to let his emotions settle, let the truth of this move sink in. Thank you Haven. Alder wouldn't be here long, he would move out of their home as soon as he knew where to go. The thought that he was no longer a Dreamer had not yet come to pass in his now cluttered mind, but in time it would. Alder looked up, speaking the words quickly I won't be a burden. He would make his way, pull his weight and do his best. He just had to.
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