01-07-2010, 10:27 PM
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Her jaw parted slightly as if she were going to say something but Vieira did not understand. It was a game? And it was a game he did not explain. For a moment longer, her eyes rested on the shape of the cloud and tried to figure it out herself. Her imagination remained in the back of her mind, untouched and packed away and ultimately unable to find something. Her ears twitched at the conflict in her mind and she lowered her gaze, staring at the ground and offering a distraught sigh. The life in the clan was not for her and she felt out of place. He did not speak further and she dropped it just as well. Vieira imagined there would be peace after this, or perhaps Anselm will go. It was not necessarily what she wanted but she felt silenced on what information he needed to understand and she could not find it in herself to tell him unless he asked.
When he spoke, she tapped her fingers on her arm awkwardly with the need to do something with them. "I am okay," she said blankly and without emotion. She did not have any other response for him, she could not tell him how she really felt when she was so disconnected from her own emotions. She had never been able to let them out to begin with and it was always about how her owners felt. If they were happy, so was she. At least in a weird and twisted sense. She was not being violently punished for something if they were happy but that did not go as far as saying she was not abused. "I think Kaena is upset," she said. Vieira had been told of the problem a few weeks ago but she did not know whether or not it was why she was off today.
Vieira knew well enough about the abuse Kaena might have gone through but she was not able to compare. Kaena was a free woman when Vieira had not. Vieira had no choice to fight back or no right to feel violated when she was toughed, she had no reason to deny whatever happened to her. Kaena, on the other hand, had every right as a luperci to feel as she did. Perhaps it was easier for the slave to be forced out of these emotions when Kaena had it to eat her up and was not used to such a thing Vieira had been exposed to before.
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Her jaw parted slightly as if she were going to say something but Vieira did not understand. It was a game? And it was a game he did not explain. For a moment longer, her eyes rested on the shape of the cloud and tried to figure it out herself. Her imagination remained in the back of her mind, untouched and packed away and ultimately unable to find something. Her ears twitched at the conflict in her mind and she lowered her gaze, staring at the ground and offering a distraught sigh. The life in the clan was not for her and she felt out of place. He did not speak further and she dropped it just as well. Vieira imagined there would be peace after this, or perhaps Anselm will go. It was not necessarily what she wanted but she felt silenced on what information he needed to understand and she could not find it in herself to tell him unless he asked.
When he spoke, she tapped her fingers on her arm awkwardly with the need to do something with them. "I am okay," she said blankly and without emotion. She did not have any other response for him, she could not tell him how she really felt when she was so disconnected from her own emotions. She had never been able to let them out to begin with and it was always about how her owners felt. If they were happy, so was she. At least in a weird and twisted sense. She was not being violently punished for something if they were happy but that did not go as far as saying she was not abused. "I think Kaena is upset," she said. Vieira had been told of the problem a few weeks ago but she did not know whether or not it was why she was off today.
Vieira knew well enough about the abuse Kaena might have gone through but she was not able to compare. Kaena was a free woman when Vieira had not. Vieira had no choice to fight back or no right to feel violated when she was toughed, she had no reason to deny whatever happened to her. Kaena, on the other hand, had every right as a luperci to feel as she did. Perhaps it was easier for the slave to be forced out of these emotions when Kaena had it to eat her up and was not used to such a thing Vieira had been exposed to before.
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