The things that she saw in the female were all beautiful, they all held a certain fragility such as a petal on a flower. Half of what she had been born of had come from her father, but none of who she had become held any essence of the male. She was not him, and Anu would never see that monster in the soft coated woman, she saw too much light in her eyes, she saw the dawn of morning as the god rose to break away the cold and shatter the hold that night had placed. Colibri’s words rang in her ears, and Anu was surprised by them. She did not jump in shock, but they made her think quietly with a withdrawn gaze. Thinking about how it was the sadness Haku had instilled in Coli that had brought her to the lake that day, it could not make Anu grateful for what he had done. It could have turned out so very different, it could have been another way. They could have run into one another in a patch of wild flowers, picking those that they wanted in their gardens. On one of her trips to visit Dahlia they may have bumped into the other. But… that had not happened, and fate had played out the very way it had. There was not way to go back and there was no way that it would have turned out differently. If she was grateful, it would be like she was forgiving him. And maybe if she forgave him Anu would be granting him the right to hurt her again. But Colibri was right, and even if she had forgiven her father Anu saw the quality that she possessed to simply state those words as rare as gold, but far more beautiful. And something Anu did not possess, she spoke in a whisper, “It was fate.”
Anu had not been proud, just minutes before enter the room, about how she had acted. Speaking with Savina had opened her secrets, they had spoken of the things Anu had found forbidden and the truth had been told. She had said the same thing to the Commander, if Coli had died, Anu would have been killed as well. There would have been no running from her death. Anu looked down at the face that spoke those surprised words. She hadn’t wished to upset her, there was just no letting her go, and there was no walking away. Anu was too deeply set to give in at the onset of disaster. “My children are grown, and what is a home, what is a life without a place to rest my heart?” She asked, lightly and not upset. It was not a thing to argue, for Anu could see the happenings of that day, and she held the out come. The hand that came to her neck brought her own to the pouting face and the milky hued cheek. At her words and expression Anu smiled, her chest becoming light with a soft bit of laughter. She didn’t want a ghost, she didn’t want to be haunted, but if she needed it, there was no other ghost that Anu could ever wish for.
Her palm rested on her cheek, fingers curling in the soft tuffs of fur behind her ear. Anu smiled, feeling the warmth of Coli once more. The past melted away, the cold of those memories nothing but the watery remnants of a thawed Spring. Between them the snowy silence was gone, “I could not do this to a ghost.” Anu commented, her smile growing. She kissed her, holding her face and feeling the static jolt that resonated through her heart.
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