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She was walking unknowing or caring of where she was going, only holding enough sense of her surrounding environment that she didn't walk into any trees, her stance was slouched and depressed and her body language unhappy and filled with something akin to dread. She knew now that her feelings had been true and that what was done could not be undone, something she wished could be with every fiber of her being. She shivered as she walked the world seemed so cold to her now, even her love for the snow had dissipated into nothingness.
As the sad multi colored traveled across the landscape she wondered what she had done to displease the gods so thoroughly. She hadn't gone back to her and Temo's den for several days and no doubt the midnight black male would be worrying himself sick about her but it was not that she did not care about him it was that she couldn't bring herself to think about him. Somewhere inside she felt as though she had failed him and even though the rational part of her brain knew that it wasn't in any way her fault she still placed the blame upon herself.
Now she could no longer hide herself from it as the evidence showed, the stomach that bulged ever so slightly below her betraying the unmistakable fact that it held new life within it. New life that may or may not be fathered by the sick twisted demon that had raped her, there was no way to tell until they were born and she feared what Temo would do should they prove to belong to Lucifer, she wasn't even sure what she would do. She debated simply killing them now while they grew within her, it would not be too hard to force her body to miscarry or abort but she knew that she could never bring herself to harm a child much less a child of her own flesh and blood.
No. She shook her head, she would not kill them, she could not kill them. Even if they did belong to Lucifer, they would be innocent and not guilty of the crimes of their father. She continued on her lonely, lonesome walk. Taking herself ever further out of the way of the main part of Phoenix Valley. Her sadness was like a virulent disease taking over her entire body until it had a noticeable smell that clung to her and followed in her paw prints. With a sigh she settled herself into the snow, curling up into a ball of fur.
She circled her tail around herself, hiding her head from the world and the sky and the sun. It had no place in her dark life now, it did not belong. She wished it was raining with dark clouds to block out the cheery sun and lightning bolts, it would match her depressed mood. A soft whine came from her lips, The long claw marks that extended down her back stood out red against her white and tan fur. Not for the first time in her life she wished she was all white like her mother and birth pack, then she could blend into the snow instead of standing out like some half completed freak.
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Jace "talks", 'thinks', and walks.
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