11-28-2009, 07:34 AM
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| http://sleepyglow.net/rp/kae/epidemic.gif); background-position:top center; background-repeat:no-repeat; background-position:fixed; padding-top:226px; padding-left:25px; padding-right:25px; padding-bottom:10px;"> Sie R dumb. XD The coyote wished Samael had been there for her. Samael would have torn Haku's eyes and his heart out and pissed on his corpse for so much as looking at Kaena the wrong way. Samael would have protected her, he could have and he would have made Kaena sick with glee to see Haku's blood run across the floor. It was too late now, and the hybrid woman could hardly fault anyone but herself for what had happened to her. She was squarely to blame for everything; she had placed herself in a situation where the demon could access her easily, cut off from communication and alone in the night. Her fault, her fault, her stupid fucking fault and nothing more. More than anything Kaena lamented the fact that she had chosen this fate. Maybe it would have been better to struggle and fight to the bitter end; maybe it would have been better to die in that rank library at Haku's hand. She figured letting him fuck her was better than dying, but now in the aftermath she did not know if that was true. His question penetrated the swirling thoughts and at once Kaena wanted to sew her lips shut forever and scream everything out to him, howling it for anyone and everyone to hear. She chose the former. "Just..." she said, taking a breath and holding it for a moment to steady herself. "Old devils rattling the bars of their cages," she said, trying a smile. She did not know how it looked; she could not tell from the feeling. Her face felt numb, her feelings disjointed and fragmented at best. Even if she had spoken to him of what had happened, where would she start? How could she say those horrible things over once more, and live through them again? The hybrid didn't know, and so she kept quiet, feigning health and wholeness. |