Vieira wondered if she would be able to do something like Snake was proposing. The idea seemed so foreign to her when all Astaroth did was make sure she could not hurt anyone else around her. It started with her mentality first, enforcing that she was nothing and lower than the omega. She lived to serve and to make him happy and to bear his children that she could not bare for whatever the reason. The slave never tried to hurt her owners before aside from fighting back when she was younger but it had been quickly beaten out of her until she learned and then beaten out of her some more. It was well enforced, reinforced, and done all over again just to get the point across. Vieira had never dared to fight back before with her owners after that, or anyone else, and perhaps why she did not fight back any harder with the wolf that attacked her and gave her the wound on her back.
She did not say anything on the matter, unsure of whether or not Snake would bring it up when he saw her or if she should. Vieira did not know if she wanted to bring it up, afraid she might want to do the same as Astaroth and make sure there was no way she could turn on Kaena (not that she ever really would, but surely Kaena would find some sort of paranoia) and make sure she stayed incapable of being able to take care of herself. That was another reason she never tried to get away form Astaroth, why she had gone to Eris when Sivaro died; they made sure she was incapable of survival without them, making her solely dependent on needing someone to take care of her. Eris had caused the most neglect, often times forgetting about her, but enough so that she survived long enough to make it to Inferni under Kaena's rule now. It was an easier life style in ways, but perhaps just as stressful as any other.
With the silence lingering between them, it did not feel as comfortable as it used to. She wondered if it was because of his suggestion but she tried to pin it on something else. She was awkward to be around, she knew, and hoped it would resolve itself sometime soon. "It looks like a deer," she said as she picked up her toy and rotated it to face her. It was an empty statement just to fill the silence and she did not feel strange saying something without him speaking first. "There was a blue bear where we were," she pointed out and wondered if he had seen it. A blue bear was comical just as this reindeer was with a red nose. It was something that did not make sense her to but nothing she questioned. She had wanted to bring the bear home but she was on a trip for things the two women needed rather than things they wanted. She did had not wanted to risk bringing home something Kaena would not approve of.
Her jaw parted to say something about the bear again but she snapped her teeth shut with an inaudible click after deciding against it. The next time she went to the city, she would have to find something for Snake instead of finding that bear again to bring for herself. Vieira was not a selfish girl, she knew not how to take a minute for herself when she had everyone else to consider, everyone else to make happy so she could find contentment. It was all she had to go on and all she had to survive on. If they were not happy, neither were she, and Snake had done something nice for her and in return, she had to find something for him in hopes she could make him just as happy with something that was more than her fondness for the reindeer with the red nose.
