rawr ;D 500+

It seemed the healing process of her body had finally completed. When she woke up she twisted her body in various ways and found no linger shots of pain. Gently she pressed against her ribs and felt no need to suck in air to deal with pain. Some of her fur that had been pulled out by the beam of Old Red still needed to grow back, but she couldn't worry about vanity, because she was better! A smile on her face she stood up and gathered a handful of seeds and placed them into Enzo's food cup at the bottom of his cage. Once he had started to fly again she had found a cage for him, seeing as the box she had used no longer suited him. It was a nice, large cage, but even so most of the time she left the door to it open. She trusted the mourning dove and did not think he would try to escape or anything of the sort. Cambi gave him a rub on the chest before exiting her room and heading down the stairs.

The Marino practically skipped up to Mati's room. The door was ajar, and she slowly pushed it open. "Mati?" Sea foam eyes searched the large, open room, but saw no sign of the Church wolfess. Cambria was about to shut the door again and just come back later when an idea struck her. Why not surprise Mati and be here when she got back? The idea made her smile bloom even brighter and immediately her mind was set on it. The slender girl walked into the room and shut the door behind her. It was so pretty in here, with all of Mati's paintings and drawings all over the place. The large windows letting the sun in added to this beauty. The light warmed her body as she daintily walked over to one of the tables and shuffled through some of the drawings. The earthen hued woman had such a talent. A sudden guilt came over her though. Maybe Mati wouldn't want her looking through her work. She couldn't imagine why not, but she would rather be safe than sorry so she moved away from the table.

Cambria walked over to the large bed and sat down upon it. The mattress and sheets were warm with the late morning sun. It was so inviting that the girl couldn't help but give into it's siren call and lay down upon it. She curled up on the bed, laying her head on one of the pillows and her nose was assaulted with the wonderful scent of the female that had stolen her heart. Oh, she wished Mati were here right now. Being in Mati's bed with the overpowering combination of her scent made a heat rise up in the girl's blood. Her eyes closed and she sighed. It happened seamlessly and suddenly, but her conscious mind fell out of control and urges took over. One of her hands roamed lightly over her body before coming to rest upon one of her breasts. A finger rubbed against her nipple and it became erect, the heat in her veins flaring even higher and urging her hands lower. Her fingers tickled down over her stomach and came to hover at that place that rested between her legs. Cambi hesitated for a moment, but then rubbed against the hot folds and moaned softly against the pillow.

Her fingers continued to work and while she was doing this all to herself, that wasn't what she was picturing in her mind. No, behind her closed eyes, it was Mati who was touching her, it was Mati who was making her pulse race. Unoccupied hand grasped at the sheets as she slipped a finger inside of her warmth. "Oh Mati..." she sighed softly, completely swept away in her self-made fantasy.

AHMAGAWD D: 500+

Reality had faded away from her. She couldn't think. All she could focus on was the movement of her fingers and the images that played behind her eyelids. This was the desire she had had when Mati visited her up in her room. She hadn't consciously recognized it, knowing that in her state she wasn't able to fulfill it, but such thoughts had lingered in the back of her mind since then. Her attraction to Mati went far beyond the realm of just the emotional. Anu had told her, that what had been done to her in the city that day, that was what people who were in love with one another did together. Cambria wasn't sure if she could label what she felt for Mati love just yet, but it was teetering to that definition. The girl wanted to do that with Mati. Wanted to touch her like that and be touched like that. She wanted to experience that the way that she was supposed to. It wasn't that she necessarily regretted what had happened with Lolita, but she wanted it to mean more. With the Church fey, she knew it would.

But would Mati want to? Cambria didn't know, and she was far too self conscious about it to ask. How would she even go about asking such a thing? Her fantasies, up until this point, had been confined to her dreams. Unintentionally it had spilled out into some form of reality though. Knowing she was laying in Mati's bed, and being surrounded by her scent and her aura, it had triggered something inside of her and the Marino simply hadn't been able to help herself. She wanted so badly to feel that way again and with someone who cared for her, the desire had finally been too much to contain. After all, this was better than embarrassing herself by asking Mati to, right? It would happen when it was mean to. Until then, there was no harm in her doing this to keep those urges sated.

Though the very thing that had aroused her, being in Mati's bed, was something that could bring her the embarrassment she was trying to avoid. Cambi wasn't in the safety and security of her own room. There was nothing to stop Mati from entering the room. Any such worries were smothered by her arousal though, buried underneath the thrill her fingers were creating in her lower regions. Her lips were parted, panting softly as another finger slipped in to join the first. Her body instinctively helped the process, slicking her fingers and making the motions fluid and extreme. The girl's heart beat heavily in her chest. Yes Mati, please, more, faster, she said to herself in her head. Her hand complied, but then the unthinkable happened.

Faintly she heard the door open, but it took a few moments for her overloaded synapses to process the noise and its implications. When she did though, her whole body froze, including the beating of her heart. Oh no...oh no... This couldn't have happened. She was so stupid! Eyes wide she looked up and over her shoulder, and saw Mati staring straight at her. In a flurry she was scrambling, grabbing sheets and cover her body and her indiscretion. Her cheeks burned so hot that she was certain the bright redness could be seen even beneath her dark fur. Gaze burned into mattress, unable to look at the older female anymore. Her hands held the sheets up around her neck, twisting them nervously. "Mati! I'm sorry, I...I..." Cambi didn't know what to say, how to excuse her actions. She was tongue-tied and frozen in place. This was horrible.

sooooo awkward 500+

She had never been so embarrassed in her entire life. She had also never felt so ashamed. What had she been thinking? Well, she hadn't been thinking and that was part of the problem. Her unfulfilled desires had gotten the better of her and she had done something incredibly out of character and now she was certain she had messed things up beyond repair. What could Mati possibly think of her now? Cambria knew this looked bad, very bad, and she hadn't the slightest idea on how to make it better. It made her want to cry, to run from the room and hide herself away so she wouldn't have to face the accusing looks and judgmental stares. She didn't do either of those things however. Surely the tears were welling up behind her eyes, but they didn't leave to stain her cheeks. Mati spoke briefly, before turning her back and closing the door. The sounds were thunderous in her ears and the cream tipped aurals folded back against her head.

The moment seemed as long to Cambria as it did to Mati. She was sickened by her, wasn't she? She supposed that the older Dreamer had every right to be, but that didn't make her feel any better. Had everything been so great for her to just blow it with one lapse in judgment? One stupid mistake. The girl couldn't help it as a soft whine came from her throat as her knees came up beneath the covers and she pressed her forehead against them, hand covering her eyes. Why did she have to do that? What made her think that it was even slightly alright? Her intention to surprise Mati when she came back to her room had been purely innocent, and now it had degraded into this horrible, uncomfortable mess. Cambria wanted to just disappear, to be invisible. She had messed up bad and she didn't think she could do anything to fix it.

The question Mati asked made her distressed face show itself again, though her eyes couldn't raise to the level of the other female's face, still too ashamed to look her in the eye. "No! If anyone should leave it should be me...I'm sorry...I don't know...this is your room, and I-" a startled hiccup interrupted her speech. "Maybe I should go...I'm sorry..." She couldn't stop apologizing. It was all she knew that could possible fix this messed up situation. Cambi whine again, burying her face in her hands. This was so awful, she felt so awful. "No, I shouldn't have...I just wanted to surprise you--but not like this!" she added quickly, not wanting Mati to get the wrong impression. "It just...I just...I..." She didn't know what to say. I want to be with you like that but didn't know how to ask? I was thinking of you the whole time? None of that sounded that good and she doubted her shakey voice would allow her to say anything of the sort even if it did sound alright. Slender arms just hugged her legs against her and she rocked back and forth, shaking her head. Why had she done that?

Mati makes it better :3 500+

Cambria didn't deal with crisis well, not when her skills as a healer weren't needed. The girl crumbled quickly and became jittery. Usually she wasn't this self deprecating, but this was her fault, so how else could she possibly react? This was the first time that she had been the cause of such a problem and the guilt was practically unbearable. It didn't help that it was Mati. Mati meant so much to her, and if she had messed things up with this...well, she would never be able to forgive herself. Already she didn't want to, in fact couldn't, imagine herself feeling this way for anyone else. Couldn't think of being with anyone aside from the Church fey. She was all the Marino wanted and her unruly hormones might have driven a wedge between them. It was really a miracle she wasn't already crying. She couldn't say what it was that held the tears back, but it certainly wasn't her own self control. It was long gone, gone the moment she had been so captivated by the other female's scent.

She hadn't expected Mati to come to her, to sit next to her and comfort her. Cambria had figured she would want to stay away, keep her distance. It took all her control not to cling to the larger wolf when she came and put a firm arm upon her shoulder. She wanted to sob, to beg for her forgiveness, do whatever she needed to to make it okay again. The girl sniffled pathetically, still not able to look at Mati until she said that she didn't want her to leave. She didn't? Slowly she revealed her face, her eyes hesitantly looking up into those bright violets that so illuminated her world. "Y-You don't?" If their first short embrace had made her feel awkward, Cambria was certain this was enough to make Mati want to run to the hills and never want to be alone with her again, if even around her at all. Her calmness was unexpected, along with her comfort and kind words. She had been preparing for the worst and now that she was faced with something else she wasn't sure how to act. Some of the tension did leak from her body though, and she couldn't help but lean against Mati's stronger form, drawing in all the comfort that was offered through that contact.

The softly spoken words almost made her want to laugh, but she was still too worked up to be able to dissolve into any sort of humorous mood. She took a deep breath and let it out, trying to still her nerves. "This isn't what I meant to happen..." she said sadly. It really hadn't been. This wasn't what she had pictured happening at all. "I just wanted to be here, when you got back. I laid down on your bed though, and I...I don't know...how to explain..." Her mind scrambled to put together a semi-decent explanation though. Mati deserved to have at least some insight into how this had all come about. "You make me feel something special...and I just sort of...lost myself in that..." It was weak, but she didn't know how else to say it without making things more awkward than they already were.

:o! 500+

She was so thankful for the way that Mati was acting right now. Cambria knew it couldn't be easy, after walking in and seeing that. But she had pushed that aside and come to her to comfort her regardless. It made her feel good, it also made her feel like she hadn't wrecked things which was what she desperately needed. She didn't want to think of her life without Mati in it. This time it was she that needed the reassurance and the shoulder to lean on. What had been exposed wasn't a part of her that she knew well, or really understood. It hadn't really shown up again until that morning after the barn incident. The larger female had made her pulse race in a different way, but one that she wasn't wholly unfamiliar with. Ever since then she had wanted to explore that with Mati, but she didn't know how. How to bring it up and talk about it had been a daunting task and she hadn't thought she could tackle it. Inadvertently, though, it seemed she had brought that conversation to the forefront here today.

The Church fey confirmed that she didn't want her to leave, and the girl couldn't help but sigh in relief. Embarrassment was still heavy in her chest, but at least she hadn't scared Mati off this time. She leaned into the other femme more, the soft fingers rubbing the fur on her arm soothing her. "Thank you," she said softly. It would have been easy, and understandable for Mati to want her to leave. She was taking the more difficult path of working and talking through this though, and while it was awkward, Cambi was grateful. She couldn't stand to have any space put between them anymore. She wanted them to grow closer, not farther apart.

Mati let her speak, and seemed to take in the words thoughtfully. Cambria didn't feel she was doing all that good a job of explaining herself, but she wasn't sure how to do so in the first place. It was really something that could be defined by words. It was all raw feelings and emotions that raged inside of her and needed to be expressed in a different manner than words. The girl though, with some of her excitement still lingering far in the background, that it would be much easier to show Mati than to tell her. She had no idea if Mati wanted that though, or if she felt the same things that Cambi did. Maybe she was only feeling them because of what had happened in the city with the pale Dahlian woman. Maybe that had changed something in her that just wasn't there in Mati. SHe had no idea, and was honestly afraid to ask. She didn't want to take a step backwards.

After some time, Mati spoke, and the Marino listened carefully to her words. The smile faded from her face, but it didn't seem to be from any displeasure. It looked like she was just trying to work through things too, and was finding it as difficult as Cambria had. When she said she had never felt this way, the chocolate girl wasn't sure if she meant that she had those same desires or if it was simply their emotional connection to one another. Maybe it was both. It was the two combined that had made Cambria's inhibitions drop and caused the thing to spark this conversation. She looked expectantly up at the older fey, drinking her words in, hanging from every syllable. There was no judgment in her face. Honestly she was just as lost in this situation. She had had that one experience, but it was nothing like this. Then she hadn't known what was happening or what it meant, and there had been no deeper emotion attached to it. This was so different, and Cambria was stumbling to find the answers as well.

As the larger fey pulled her closer, and said that she wanted her, Cambi's heart stalled for a moment. Mati wanted her too. Her slender arms wrapped around the other wolfess and hugged her close. That admission meant so much to her, perhaps even more than she had anticipated. It seemed to amplify their connection and dull everything else that surrounded them. Mati repeated the words that she had spoken before, admitting she didn't know how to put it into words either. Their eyes connected, and she knew they were feeling the same thing. Unlike her though, Mati had never had such contact with another. She didn't know what to do with those feelings. Cambria was no expert, but she had an idea. The heat she had felt before returned to her slowly, but she didn't want to move things too fast. Slowly, tentatively, she leaned her face up, her lips searching for Mati's. They could just start with a kiss, and see where it took them.

*squee* 300+

There was no hesitation from Mati, and soon their lips were locked and her eyes fluttered closed, losing herself completely in their connection. This was what she wanted. To always have the other woman's taste upon her lips, to always have her strong hands holding her close. Those little touches were all that was require for her earlier heat to come back full force. Her body was flushed with the intense need, but still she didn't move to take things faster. Cambria wanted to go slow, to explore this to its full potential. This wasn't something that could or should be rushed. This was important, for the both of them, for them as a couple. They still had never said if they were a couple or not, but Cambi had a hard time imagining them as anything less. She certainly didn't want them to be less. She wanted to be with Mati. She wanted the world to see who her heart belonged to and she didn't care what anyone thought. With feelings like these, nothing else mattered.

Mati gave her a grounding while at the same time sweeping her off her feet. It gave the Marino something to focus on, something to hold onto. Yet at the same time she felt weightless whenever they were together and her stomach did excited somersaults. It was a paradox, the way the Church fey made her feel, but maybe that was what love was. You could give it all the definitions and explanations you wanted, but you couldn't truly understand it until you finally felt it yourself. It was more than words, more than any voice could give credence to. It was wholly different than familial love, of which the girl had bountiful amounts of. That was easier to give a definition to, something she had known from her earliest days. This was a completely different entity though. It was vast and deep and mysterious as the ocean. It was raging and calm at the same time. It was wonderful.

She felt the need flowing into her through their connected lips. She wasn't the only one who felt that enormous desire. Cambria kissed Mati back just as passionately, moving her body as close to the other female's as she possibly could. One of her hands also moved to Mati's neck, gently holding onto the soft fur, rubbing it between her fingers. Even that wasn't enough though. She wanted to be closer, to intertwine their bodies until they were indistinguishable from one another. Her mouth opened for breath, but after grasping that precious air her tongue moved out to lick at the other fey's lips. Cambria's other hand came to rest on Mati's side, softly running her fingers up her ribs.

I should watch the L Word for some inspiration XD 300+

Her heart thundered like a drum, vibrating her whole body and beating against her ribcage. Her body wasn't the only thing that wanted to connect more with Mati, it was the organ that kept her alive as well. The Marino's heart was beating for the older girl, wholly and completely. No one else could excite it to such frantic rhythms. No one else could take her breath away like this. The two had barely started to do anything and already it was so much better than what she had experienced before, and that had not been bad. This was beyond it though, on a whole other level, a whole other plane of existence. This was what it was supposed to be like, she knew instantly. This was what this was meant for. For expressing the feelings that couldn't be expressed in other means. Their bodies knew the language of love better than their voices and brains did. It was why their words fell short. It was why they were here, doing this now.

Mati's hand on her neck and head sent ripples of electric current down her spine, making her hair stand on end. Her fingers tangled in her dark chocolate mane and even that felt sublime. As she breathed in so deeply her chest rose dramatically, pressing against Mati's own. It made the girl sigh, already her mind was being clouded by the pleasure they were creating for each other. And this was only the tip of the iceberg, Cambria already knew that much. It thrilled her even more. Their tongues touched and it was another jolt of electricity. Her slender form shivered momentarily from the sudden intensity of it. Her tongue pushed back greedily, wanting more, needing more.

Cambria felt it too, the soft yet resounding recognition of what their feelings truly were. There was no question in her mind now. How could it possibly be anything less? It couldn't be. This was it, it was the real thing, and Cambi knew that she could never let go of it. Never. Mati's lips moved, kissing along her muzzle. The hand on her side moved up, rubbing through the fur on her back, fingers pressing in to the muscle that lay beneath the earthen fur. Mati was beautiful and strong and wonderful and she simply wanted to fold herself up into the larger form. Once her hand reached up between the other's shoulder blades her hand drew back down, claws ever so lightly scratching against her skin.

lol X3 300+

The world outside had become meaningless. There was nothing that existed for the girl outside of them and what was happening between them. The world wasn't big enough to hold more than the sudden and intense passion that was quickly consuming the both of them. As Mati's tongue licked the curve of her jaw she sighed heavily, her skin tingling with the sensation of tiny pinpricks. Cambi buried her nose into the lush fur on the side of the other woman's face, breathing her scent in deeply until it was the only thing that she could smell at all. There was a new spice to her scent, an erotic aroma and she knew the same thing must be present in her own personal scent. It was born of the heat that was growing steadily in both the girl's cores, the fire that drove them to learn about each other in the most intimate way possible.

As her fingers drew through Mati's fur and the other paused Cambria hesitated, worried she might have harmed her in some way. She thought she was being careful, but maybe her light scratching hadn't been as light as she perceived. A split second later though she felt the slight tug upon her head and she knew that no harm had been done. The girl obliged her lover's wishes, leaning her head back to give her access to her gracefully curved neck. Mati's nose pressed against her neck and her jaws parted, eyes still blissfully closed. This was nothing like what she had experienced before. That had been mostly one sided, and while physically intense, it had had little emotional meaning to it. This was equal parts physical and emotional. It was a dance between the two and the intensity increased with every move either of them made.

The moan that came from her heart's captor lit a spark. The noise thrummed in her erect ears and urged her movements to be more bold. As Mati kissed her neck where her lifeblood flowed, the hand that had been on her neck slid down to feel the other woman's heart. Her palm took in the beat, rapid as her own. It was crying out for more as much as Mati's moan had. The hand moved again, sliding over the curve of one of the larger femme's breasts. Her fingers applied some pressure, squeezing the soft flesh. Slim digits massaged the area slowly, wanting Mati to feel the pleasure that was possible from receiving attention there.

more :o!!! 500+

Her first time, fingertips were the only things that had touched and stimulated her flesh. She had no idea how wonderful it felt to have soft lips and ivory teeth press against her skin. The thrill that filled her every time Mati's tongue brushed against her neck made the girl shiver in delight. Cambria was glad that Lolita hadn't done everything she could to her. Her first time may have not been with someone who loved her, but at least the Dahlian hadn't made it so nothing would be a surprise anymore. Even if this time technically wasn't her first, it certainly felt like it. Mati would always be her first kiss, and as far as she was concerned, she would be her first in this as well. Already that day with the other woman was dimmed to a mere pinprick of memory. It didn't matter compared to this. It didn't matter at all. Her one hand continued to rub up and down Mati's strong back, loving every inch of her fur and skin.

As Cambi's slim fingers touched her lover's breast, once again Mati paused. The younger girl knew what it felt like. The surprise and shock of what it felt like to be touched there for the first time. She understood now what those momentary pauses meant. It meant that Mati was losing herself in the feelings the touch of her fingers elicited and that almost more than anything filled Cambria with excitement. She wanted to show Mati what it felt like to be touched in all those special places. How good it could feel. She wanted to make her feel the pleasure and all of her emotion for her. Honestly she didn't even care how much attention she received in return. She just wanted to lavish all her love and attention on the Church fey. She wanted to make her feel better than she'd ever felt before. Cambria's fingers continued to rub against the sensitive flesh, but they were paused as she felt the tug on her hair. "Oooh," she moaned softly. The kiss sent a ripple through her and she was reclined back onto the bed, Mati's body following close behind.

Mati hovered over her, looking deep into her eyes. Cambria looked back into her, a hand reaching to cup her face. Her lips were so tantalizing, her exposed tongue calling to her and she almost leaned up to catch them with her own lips when Mati's voice cut through the thick air. The girl almost replied with she already had. At least she had in her fantasies. But now that fantasy was coming true and her slender form trembled with the anticipation of it. In those violet eyes though, she could see that Mati didn't know what to do, and that was quickly confirmed by her words. Cambi only smiled up at her, breathing in deeply as the other woman's hand ran down her front. "I'll show you," she said warmly. "Lay down next to me." It was true, she could probably tell her what felt good, but she wanted to show her. She wanted to run her hands over Mati's body, to make Mati feel like she felt in her dreams.

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Someday, and probably soon, she would have to tell Mati about Lolita and what had happened between them in the city. Cambria feared how Mati would react, and hoped that it wouldn't hurt her. Even more so, she hoped that it wouldn't degrade her in the other female's eyes at all. What had happened hadn't been intentional on her part, she hadn't known what was going on. That didn't change the fact that it had happened though. Didn't change the fact that she hadn't been pure and untouched when her heart had grown to care for the Church wolfess. This knowledge that she had, her lover would want to know where it came from. Cambi wouldn't lie to her, would never lie to her, but she was scared of what the truth might cause. In this moment though, she couldn't be afraid. She supposed she could have played ignorant, as if she were just as lost as Mati was when it came to this. It wouldn't have worked though. What Mati had seen already said that much, but even if she hadn't seen that, Cambria wouldn't be able to hold in her knowledge. She wanted to share it with the other fey, and could not keep it to herself.

She wondered, briefly, if Mati would ask now how she knew those things. The girl hoped not, she didn't want to ruin this moment, and thankfully the questions did not come yet. The other female's larger form moved gracefully to lay beside her, a hand reaching out to bring her close. Of course Cambria obliged, propping herself up on her own side and snuggling in close to the lighter fey. Mati's fingers tickled her sides anxiously and it made the girl's skin prickle beautifully. Her face leaned forward again, connecting their lips, sighing gratefully for the taste of her once more. For a moment she just lost herself in the kiss, reveling in the connection that had become so strong so fast. Cambi wanted to be able to kiss these lips whenever she wanted. She wanted to be Mati's, and Mati's only. Her heart could never be unfaithful to the artist that painted her world in the most beautiful shades of happiness.

Her lips moved, kissing along her jaw just as Mati had done to her. Fingers brushed up lightly through the fur of her abdomen until they once again reached her perfectly rounded breast. The dark fingers traced along the curve, memorizing it with her touch. They then brushed up to the peak, a single fingertip rubbing gently against the nipple that hid beneath the richly colored fur. Cambi's kisses reached the top of Mati's neck and then her tongue drew down it, reaching the prominent collarbone. Ivory teeth nibbled delicately against the skin that covered the bone, drowning in the wonderful taste of her skin. The nipple beneath her fignertips had become hard with her loving stimulation and she pinched it lightly. The heat in her loins was becoming more and more prominent, and she wedged one of her legs between Mati's, locking their lower limbs together.