It's Not Goodbye Forever
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Bye bye for now; I'll be back in April >:3 MWAHAHAHA! >Big Grin

Today was the day, and Noss was a little bit of happy and a ton of anxious nerves. Him. Nervous.


Ralla and the other white wolf--who he still hadn't deigned to address by direct name normally yet--would be coming to get him soon, and they would be on their way. The snow had finally melted around the Halycon Mountains enough that they could manage with only mild difficulty to cross it and not disturb the Anathemians. I swear, if they ever come near Ralla again... Polite words couldn't describe the macabre image that painted Noss's mind. Instead he paced outside of the Chien Hotel, awaiting the howl that would alert him to his sister's arrival. He knew that she was the most anxious of them all, since she had run away in the first place, but he was there to support her. Because now, he, too, would be leaving the tribe.


Granted, convincing Strel to keep him--if it were even that--had been difficult, Noss saw it all as worth it. Despite the tailor's protests and refusals, Noss persisted, if only because he felt like he hadn't been properly snubbed as of yet and thus still had a chance. For the sake of both their prides, he didn't bring up the drunken episode that they had weathered not so long ago. Strel knew that he was leaving, but Noss didn't know what to make of the rest of the pack. He remembered Anaan, Vigilante, and Anatoliy, but he had come into contact with very few others. They probably wouldn't even remember him until he returned, and then how would they react to know that he planned to request to join the pack? How would the king react? It would all come to a crux when it did and not before. Thus, he remained outside the Chien Hotel, a slave to his poor navigational skills, forcing him to wait.


Warrior walks. "Warrior talks." Warrior thinks.


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Well here I is.

So it was time. Noss had told him earlier that day that it was going to be today. Strel had been hard for the entire time leading up to when the man headed downstairs and out of the hotel to meet his sister before they disappeared out of the redhead's life for a month or more. He bet strongly on the more if it were not permanent. There had been no howl yet and the redhead still did not bother leaving his studio, and he refrained from even looking out the window so he would not have to see Noss outside, doing that pacing thing. But when the tailor started going over the same stitch for the third time in a row, he put down the testing material and set aside his needles. It was frustrating enough to be distracted, but to be distracted with the reason outside the house was something else entirely. It truly was, and he could not concentrate like this.


Enough was enough, the redhead left his studio, shutting the double doors and knotting the doors shut to keep out curious kiddies. Stealing himself, the man left the Hotel, feeling the bite of the winter bite. It was getting weaker, but it was still strong enough to make him clench his teeth in the annoyance of it. Noss was still here, pacing as he was wont to do. "She's still not here, is she?" he asked, rather redundantly, arms crossed over his chest as his lavender eyes watching the other man rather coldly to hide the fear behind them. What if the man chose to not return? What if he just never made it back? And there was the ever constant fear of his being left alone, abandoned. It was not pleasant, but he tried his best to keep it back from sight.


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There you is indeed! Big Grin

Noss's stride faltered when Strel nonchalantly came down from inside his workshop and appeared outside, reclining leisurly in place, watching him. Noss sighed and nodded, his pacing stopping since he then had something else to occupy him. He walked nearer the man and leaned against the porch railing, the old metal creaking slightly under his weight. Things just seemed to have a habit of doing that around him. "She said she'd be here early. Snow must be deeper than we thought." Noss looked up to Strel and was unperturbed by the look he was given. He had far grown used to those spiteful stares and seemingly uncaring gestures; he was as steadfast as a rock (dense as one, too). At the very least he had learned that Strel wasn't as dispassionate as he had once feared.


The sour look on Strel's face reminded Noss of lemons; a fruit trying to be sweet but that ended up being tart; a pretender. Not that Strel himself was the pretender, but his current facial expression was, mayhap. In a moment of weakness Strelein had expressed his concern for Noss from a corner of his mind that he perhaps had not wanted to share. But Noss had seen it, and so he substituted that admission for any time that Strel took on the facade that he was pulling at the moment. He smirked broadly and leant forward a little, deciding that he could tease the redhead a little more before he left. It's always fun, he thought affectionatly. "Gonna miss me?" He remembered having asked something similar a while ago, but he just upped and left so often that he supposed it was the only taunt he could muster in his mind for the last moment leavings. Every other joke or comment was easy to come up with, but leaving was a tad more serious matter. When it came down to it, maybe he actually did worry Strel, and was insensitive in doing so. But, at the same time, he really couldn't help what was and had to be.


Warrior walks. "Warrior talks." Warrior thinks.


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Strelein huffed, crossing his arms over his chest as he watched the man before him come toward him. For a moment, he thought that Noss was going to do something dramatic, trying to literally sweep him off his feet for the last time until he returned. Not that Strel would let him do it now, or then. No way, not like he wanted it. No, no such thought in his little red head. "Well, I hope she knows what kind of position she's putting me in, keeping you here pacing outside. You'll wear out a dirt path if you keep that up, and where will we plant things in the spring, then?" he complained rolling his eyes as he flamboyantly pointed to the path that the other man had been taking over the snow. "Don't make me tie your sorry ass to the fence surrounding the hotel for Ralla to come untie," he threatened, his mind taking that image to a dirty place he did not want to visit.


The man asked that question again, and Strel almost shuffled uncomfortably at it. Noss was leaving for a good month or two, probably more. He could not be bitter and resentful in the last few moments of their time together. Miss him? he asked himself, silence reigning even as the other man's taunt lingered. "Miss you?" he mirrored back, eyebrows rising. He opened his mouth for a witty retort back. "Who would miss a broody lump?" "Why would I?" "Don't be so full of yourself." But they all seemed so cruel, so unfair, so not like Strel to say. "Sure, I'd definitely miss my little punching bag. And I never did get to try you out as my mobile pin cushion," he joked in return, thinking that was more appropriate. But eyes cast down suddenly, the redhead turned away. "Maybe I'd miss you," he said in a very low voice, almost too quiet to hear. The whole world didn't need to know, after all.


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Awwwww Strel's such a cutie-wootie! XD *runs for fear of projectile pins*


"I weep for the loss of your cabbage patch," Noss said back, his own eye roll present as their familiar speech patterns took hold. He would miss it dearly, their bantering. It felt distinctly of comfort and home. His eyebrows raised high, though, when Strel threatened to tie him to the fence. "Kinky," he said, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. "You trying to tell me you want a parting gift?"


Noss's first impression of where the conversation was going to turn was that it would be as it always had been when they spoke. He didn't expect Strel to take his time to measure his words instead of firing a comeback, although he did expect to be made fun of just a little. He grimaced at the thought of being used as a pin cushion. "'Little'? And I don't care how small those needles are; no," he intoned, a light chuckle in his voice. And then Strel completely took him by surprise. He admitted to his own feelings without Noss having to prod or force it out of him. For a moment Noss thought that perhaps he was being played with, but then realized that Strel wasn't like that; wasn't as cruel as to play cat and mouse at such a time. He was so startled into shock that, after a moment of standing with his ears straight up, he gently turned Strel by the shoulder and very quickly leaned forward, stealing a kiss, the tips of theirs noses brushing. Strel and he had been far more intimate than such a simple gesture, but it was just the opposite for Noss. He had deliberatly refrained from kissing Strel their first night because he was a virtual stranger; because their feelings had meant nothing to one another. But after that night--a chance encounter in a crumbling city--everything had changed. Even Noss's actions seemed almost dictated by Strel's words and proceedings; he was always pulled into that pace. And so it happened again, then, when Noss leaned in for that kiss, admittedly taking advantage of a rare moment of openness. He couldn't explain it to himself or anyone else, nor did he care to. It just was.


"And 'maybe' I'd miss you, too," Noss said, humor heavy in his voice. He had no doubt that Strel knew just how strong Noss's own resolve was, and that his words were far more solid that he let them on to be. He looked into the lavender eyes of Strel, imprinting their color to memory so that he may have incentive to hurry their trip all the more. Love was such a strange, cruel thing. It messed one up inside--turned them upside down and all around--and left them like a storm leaves a disaster in its wake. It made one feel things that they never wanted or thought they would. It made one weak, strong, or even impossibly happy. It was often accounted for differently by each wolf in ways that made it almost impossible to understand. Such frivolous descriptions Noss had once jeered and scoffed at; he was a warrior, not to be trifled with. And then he met Strelein. There was always the 'and then'. But did he mind? Not in the least, once he'd gotten used to the idea. Because it was that simple.


Warrior walks. "Warrior talks." Warrior thinks.


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xD he's about as cute and cuddly as an octopus.

Strel rolled his eyes, shaking his head and scoffing at the thought of tying the other man to anything and then having his way with him. Granted, it did seem like a really fun idea for a lazy evening. But, was it really appropriate for something like this, for a moment like this? No, not really. He refrained from adding more ideas to that scenario, choosing to drop this topic like a rock while he could. It would be even more painful after Noss left to think about what they could have gotten up to as a parting gift. "Don't flatter yourself, pretty boy," he retorted back into the other man's face, with another accompanying eye roll. "And yes, little, darlin'. Big punching bags fight back more ferouciously," he countered, his words sweetly cooed.


Noss somehow decided it was okay to just out of the blue kiss him like that. Strel did not mind, ignoring the conflicting desires beneath the surface of his eyes. Part of him wanted to shove the man away and tell him to go jump in a ditch for abandoning him for some time. The other part wanted to keep him there, to just talk of things on the steps while waiting for Ralla to arrive, while both wished they would not have to wait to see each other again after that. Not that the redhead would admit to such emasculating thoughts. So the tailor simply looked at Noss after with no comment on their quick peck. "Well "maybe" I won't be waiting for you when you come back," he retorted back at Noss, a grin playing at the corner of his lips.


Pulling on the other man's arm, he dragged him down to sit on the steps or the ground, whichever he wanted. "Tell me how you plan to get back, what you're going to do." He wanted the details now, and he could get the true happenings after the man came home. Came home to him. Strel rested his chin on his hands, loo.king intently on Noss.


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Awww, but those ARE cuddly <3 They're so cuddly that they never wanna let you go Tongue

He might've been wounded at the 'fighting back more ferociously' comment had it not been true. He usually relented to Strel's willfulness, although he might force his way on certain subjects. He actually wondered if Strel would ever resist him more than his light beatings; for example, if Noss would really have to worry about moving all projectile objects out of Strel's reach during an argument. He was safe thus far, but the returning thought obviously stated that he wasn't ruling anything out yet...


Noss played a glare at Strel, although he supposed he had that comment coming. "And 'maybe' I think you're bluffing. You're not so cruel as to deny me after I travel across an ocean just to come back here, are you?" he said, puffing his chest out and placing a hand on it, pretending to pose in an offended manner. The pose was lacking in the drama that was required, not to mention it just looked plain silly for someone of Noss's build to try and play the wounded party. Secretly, such a thing would truly hurt Noss if he really did come back and found Strel gone. That would be enough to prove that Strel indeed didn't want him, and Noss would likely emerge from the ordeal more hardened than before. Rejection...well, he had been rejected on more than one occasion for various things, but he had never loved anyone like he loved Strel, and thence he was scared of what such a rejection would feel like.


Noss was surprised to find Strel initiating contact that time, taking his arm to sit next to him. Settling with one knee upraised and the other leg stretched outwards, Noss could feel Strel's stare as he thought about what would transpire. He would stash all his fears aside, for they were useless without much other proof to give them grounds, and would only cloud and burden him. It was not like him to even think of such terrible scenarios. But, he supposed that was what came with the package. He had certainly seen his father and mother fret over younger Ralla more often than not; she might've been a sensible youngster, but she had a habit of inadvertantly getting into sticky situations. Even now she still does, he thought with a snort. "After Ralla, the white one," he said in reference to Kemo, "and I finish talking with our chiefs--or whatever the white one wants to do--we're going to take the next caravan here. The nomads we're going to travel with come up once every month, so we're going to have only very short stays in the Moon Tribe. We'll all be back early in the fourth month, and thank the moon that they're dropping us off closer to here and farther from that Anathema place," he said with contempt. With a rising humor he realized he had made himself quite the despiser of two packs in the land already, and he not even a part of their packs yet. "But it's not like we're going to be kept there. They won't deny two former chief-to-be's and a Shaman. Bad luck keeping an angry one," he commented with almost no thought, the superstition having been drilled into his tribal raising. He looked back to Strel and contemplated him for a moment, a pleasant silence filling the void. "If I can survive a snowstorm I can survive the ocean and my father's scorn. But I promise to tell you all about the adventure when I get back. You know, 'if you're still here'," he said with a lightness in his voice. He didn't want to leave somberly or without good graces with Strel, because he really couldn't guarantee the notions that nature and the moon had; they were, after all, higher than he, and they needn't always concern themselves with his wishes, he realized.


Moon walks. "Moon talks." Moon thinks.


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this should disappear soon since Noss is already back :|

Strel looked at his hands, listening to what Noss said. None of it needed an answer from him, so he kept his stupid mouth shut before saying something ignorant. He did not know tribe life, he did not know anything about it. He knew the traditional pack life and this new age, new kind of pack with liberal views, but a traditional tribe life? It was nothing familiar to him and what he knew he had heard off of friends and off of Hemming before the man left the lands, probably to go to the Greater Tribe that AniWaya stemmed from. It was probably similar to them, since Ralla had fit right in.


He gave a light smile at the comment about keeping an agree leader to be. It made him laugh. Noss would probably stubbornly leave the tribe and never come back, but even that seemed too much for the man. He would probably moan, complain, and brood until they had to let him leave or else he'd poison their water supplies from his moping. "Of course not.. it's not wise," he nodded along, cooing out his words in good humor. It was nice to talk like this now and then, even though the impending moment was coming, when the man would have to leave and be absent for so very long. Strel's face fell as he thought about it, and he knew he was coming off as sad and despondent.


Noss was strong, that was clear. The redhead knew it well. He looked up with lavender eyes at the golden ones of the other man and sighed. "I'm not worried about you coming back in one piece. I'm worried about..," he faltered and looked away, not wanting to voice his concerns. They were silly and he would have to reveal to Noss openly what he felt. And that was a no no. "Besides.. I'll be here.. I have no where else to go.. This is my home."


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Yeah >.> I'll close it up now >.< You notice how our threads with these two tend to drive on? It's cuz Noss doesn't talk enough...or we're both really just into our charries...or both <3

Just as Strel was fumbling out his words--which was unlike him, Noss knew--they both heard a howl that was distinctly feminine; short staccato at the beginning, drawn out at the end. But in spite of it and knowing that it was time, Noss only turned his head for a moment before returning his attention to Strel. Noss had seen him despondent before, but now it was directly because of him...or had the other times been because of him as well? Was this time? He would not speculate. With sympathy Noss knew what Strel was talking about. At one time he would have never imagined another home outside of his pack in the Moon Tribe; would never have considered permanently leaving it, much less going on the venture he was on now. But by the strange twist of fate that the moon had led his sister on, it had also led him to meet Strel that night in Halifax. 'There are no coincidences,' he could almost hear Ralla say.


"That's what I'm counting on. Cuz you know, I already searched this whole blasted place once for my sister; searching all over again for you would take ages," he said with mock exasperation. Without warning he surprised Strel again, hugging him about the shoulders tightly before standing, a faint blush oh-so-barely visible on his gray and white cheeks. He would return, and never forget that the reason he was doing so was because he loved the man on the porch step, and that he wanted to share his home with him. "But you know..." he added as almost an afterthought, "home can be anywhere. And remember; I promised." With a final look at Strelein von Rosnete, Noss went towards the origin of the sound, not daring to look back for fear that he would crumble at Strel's expression and refuse to leave at all.


That was just how good Strel had him.


Warrior walks. "Warrior talks." Warrior thinks.


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