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Isa had so much on her mind lately. She wanted to fix things with Selene, wanted to apologize and try to explain what had happened but the brown coydog had apparently left Casa. Isa felt horrible for being the reason she had left. She had considered Selene a friend at one point, and she went and hurt her like that. She never meant to and she still couldn’t explain really what happened. Her memory might have come back, but only bits and pieces.

Having caused a pack member such pain filled Isa with hate towards herself the more she thought about it. And then there were her feelings for Hadley. She liked him and cared about him a lot but she didn’t think he felt the same. She also felt disgusted with herself for the feelings she had when she had unintentionally “stolen” Hadley from Selene.

Isa couldn’t take it any more. She sat beneath a tree and tried to clear her mind. All the stress and confusion was slowly wearing her down. Isa didn’t seem to smile much anymore unless she was with Adelle. She hadn’t ever really gotten very close to the other pack members yet, even though she had been there for quite a while. Isa knew she needed to spend more time within the border instead of spending so much time in that little house. She closed her eyes and tried to relax.

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Isa was trying to calm down and relax when she heard footsteps coming closer. She looked up and saw a large black and white male standing there. For a moment, she didn’t recognize him until she thought back to the raid. He had been there fighting with Jazper’s group. When asked if she was Ismeme, she gave him a confused look. Why was he looking for her? Yes, I’m Isa. Did you need something from me?

Isa stood up and looked the man over. She couldn’t place a name on him for some reason. She hadn’t seen him around much and this was their first actual meeting though so it was possible for her to not know his name. He seemed polite enough but there was still a bit of a cold tone to it.

OOC Sorry it’s so long. She had lots to say.

He was friends with Selene? Did that mean he wanted to get revenge because she hurt Selene? He wanted to know what happened but she must have told him something. Then he mentioned he wanted to help her and know Isa’s side of the story. He was clearly tense, just as her father had always been before she received a beating. After a little while, he introduced himself as Fritz. Isa nodded, storing the name away.

Isa stood, taking up a submissive position. I’m sorry. I never meant for anything to happen. I didn’t want to hurt Selene. She was the one who I had first met when I came here. She called for Jazper so I could join. Isa looked down, trying to keep tears from forming. I thought of her as a friend, I never wanted to hurt her.

She didn’t know how to explain what happened between her and Hadley, or if Fritz would even believe her. She knew she had to try though. I ran into Hadley one day, well he tripped over me actually, and he asked if I wanted to help find materials for repairs. We went into a house that was in a small town south of Casa and he found the supplies he needed. The next part was difficult for her to talk about and she looked up at Fritz, unsure if he would believe her or think she was crazy. M..my father’s ghost showed up and I don’t exactly have a good history with him. Hadley ended up retreating within himself like he used to do with his…master. I ended up doing the same, unable to handle being around my father again. He told Hadley to do something and..um…we..we had sex. Hadley said Selene’s name and I started to snap out of it. I ran out of the house and when I came back, my father was gone and Hadley was himself again too but neither of us remembered what happened. She looked down, ashamed of herself. I had just recently gotten my memory back. I didn’t mean to hurt her. I didn’t. The tears started to fall down her face and she was unable to meet his eyes. It was my first time. I had just met him and that happened and I hurt Selene. I never wanted to break them up.

Isa looked up at Fritz with tears still streaming down her face. Go ahead, beat me, cut me, do whatever you want. I know I deserve it.

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Fritz didn’t seem to believe her. She expected it though, most wouldn’t believe her, she knew that. She opened her mouth to speak until she noticed something standing behind Fritz. As if to answer his question, her father’s ghost showed up. She sat there, wide eyed as she stared behind the dog, terrified. She wasn’t even listening when Fritz spoke again. Isa was slowly loosing it like she had when she was with Hadley.

It’s rather simple to break down such a weak, pathetic being like that worthless pile of shit. Isa knew Fritz would be able to see her father just as Hadley had. She still couldn’t stop herself from retreating within herself though, leaving her body an empty shell with a blank look on her face, eyes dull and lifeless. See? Already gone, and much easier to control. Her father stood behind Isa and ordered her to cut herself. She took out the dagger at her hip and made a fairly deep cut from her shoulder to her chest. The ghost chuckled and spoke again before disappearing into the shadows. Easy to break, hard to fix. Just how I trained her to be.