Eclipse was nervous, she had learned about her situation, and she nearly blew up with shame, fear, and unhappiness, though as she thought of it, she was getting slightly excited but worried. She told herself she wouldn’t procreate and here she was a few weeks into a pregnancy she knew was from a night’s fling with Aro. She fought with herself on telling him or not, she decided to knowing that if she didn’t she would feel guilty the whole of her pregnancy.

She was not showing yet but she was starting to understand she was pregnant her scent changed from her hormones and she was sure she could feel the movements, but then that could just be her imagination inside her. She was still slightly ill, though she could tell she was getting over it. She was glad because it could hurt the puppies that were growing... GROWING inside of her. She couldn’t believe she had little beings inside, being protected by her and were a part of her, taking from her what they needed. She knew little about what happened when a puppy grew inside its mother, but just the thought was entirely overwhelming.

The trip Eclipse took didn’t take long for her. In fact it was as though Grace raced there, but she had been at a canter, and it only took her a short while just from that. Grace was sweating and Eclipse knew the mare would need a rest so as the invisible odor of the borders of Casa came within smelling distance she let the mare go to find something to drink and graze while she worked up the courage. She took nearly half an hour before she let her howl pierce the sky requesting for Aro with news. She didn’t know how he would react to her pregnancy. In a way she did not regret the charming man and that night together, but somehow she didn’t see herslf moving to Casa nor him going ot Cercatori, a mateship would be out of the question, but a father should know he would be having puppies.

Eclipse took many deep and well harbored breaths, trying to clear the catch her heart kept having when she thought she saw Aro coming. He did come though and it didn’t take him long, and she hadn’t thought of exactly what to say. He could even tell her nervousness too, she could see it in his eyes and now his speech as he asked if she was well. She shook her head for a moment, almost unable to talk. When she did try she didn’t know what to say and her mouth hung open for a few seconds then she would close it again.

It took her a few minutes before she could finally get something out and she could barely look into his eyes as she said it but she did; “N... no, um I mean yes.... I don’t know how to tell you this;” Her fingers intertwined in between each other as she spoke, trying to keep a hold of her onw hand; “It came to a shock to me and I want you to understand, I like you, I really do and I don’t,” Her voice caught for a second and she had to clear it; “I don’t regret at all what we did together but it seems to have caused a stirring within me.” She said her words becoming lower but she made sure to try and let him hear them, oh how it would be to have to repeat that.... she closed her eyes taking a deep breath and this time holding it waiting for his reaction. She didn’t think he would get angry, and it was true she had no regrets, but whatever he thought.... he might regret it all, especially because of this outcome. She didn’t expect anything out of him, and she would let him know that but right now she still had to catch herself and she wanted to hear his reaction.

His touch was nice, and she didn’t pull away, it was soothing ,he was soothing and she shook her head as he seemed to misinterpret what she said. She again tried to explain, letting herself slow down, and his last words made her catch herself again... he was relieved, and she was good with other characters to know what he was relieved about it. She took a second thinking perhaps she shouldn’t tell him.... but she would feel so guilty. Her head shook again; “N... no, I like you well enough but.... I know we can’t work out, we have our lives in our own packs, but I came to say... well” She bit her lip and told herself to be out with it and let the words slip from her mouth; “I’m pregnant... with your puppies.” She said, her worry wrinkles creased along her forehead. Since he had taken her hands she could not play with them and she looked down, not in shame just not sure she wanted to see his expression change to anger, or even the fear she felt inside her.

“You don’t have to do anything, we aren’t moving with one another, but you ought to know. I would not like it if I had children i knew nothing about... I am sure we can figure something out when they are born...” She said all at once, she didn’t want him feeling obligated to do anything because she was pregnant, perhaps they could figure some kind of custody thing for the pups when they were weaned or something, but that was thinking far into the future...

She felt as if she were going to cry again, she cried in private after she left Hotaru, who gave her the news of her pregnancy, and then again before she decided to go to Aro about it. Now it seemed she was going to cry again but she squeezed her eyes shut, him pulling away almost hurt even more but his words were kind, soft and those helped her more as she listened to him. She nodded, she would never expect him to come to her pack because of this, but he was at least willing to take responsibility; then the thought of the darkness came to her and she did burst into tears and all she could do was move to bury her head in her face; “I wasn’t suppose to be a mother, i wasn’t” She said, now feeling as young as she really was, she was still very young, still had many years on her life, and her own vows were broken by herself. She hated herself right now but she did not blame the man, nor the puppies growing inside of her. She was distressed and unhappy.

She wished she could just curl up and die, but then that would kill the puppies and she now didn’t want that. they were alive and she was going to bring more into the world that would have the darkness in them, any of them could end up like her grandfather, as she figured was what happened to her own father. That was what worried her most, but such things had never left her lips and she would not consult in this man... after all if she did he’d probably try to kill her for the sake of everyone else.she sniffled feeling her nose stuffing up from the congestion of crying. She would get over this but she didn’t know it herself and right now this was not as embarrassing as it looked.

He held her and said soothing words to her, and she closed her eyes tight, glad to be where she was at the moment, but knew she couldn’t get too comfortable. She knew they wouldn’t work out as a couple... and it hurt because he was so nice, but there were other complications that she couldn’t understand. She hated herself right now for letting her guard down though she was an adult and should have known what was going to happen if she let him mate with her. She took a deep breath trying to calm the crying which it did a bit. but what really made her stop in a choke, was the question he asked her and her hands gripped on his shoulder where they rested when she threw herself on him. She couldn’t answer him. How could she? To tell him the other half of his children would be great grandchildren of the horrible haku? The thought made her shudder.

His words were reassuring and she could only nod as he told her he would visit her, but she didn’t blame him, she let him, she could have said no; “it takes two... I wanted to with you.... I- I just never expected this, it wasn’t like we did it every day.” She sniffled. Her composure coming back a little now that she was on top guard. She knew that her fears were far more secret than anything else, but she didn’t move, she felt comforted and wanted and she wasn’t sure if she should stay, but what could he do to her that he had not already done “I did ride Grace here, she can bring me back it’s not a problem...” She said pointing to where the mare was grazing.

She almost felt like crying again, but she refused to, she wanted to stay strong. She nodded at him, yes she would stay the night, it would probably be for the best and they could decide what to do when the pups were born, or what will happen when she has them. The future was a hard prospect for the young woman right now, but after he gave her a final squeeze she let go of him, feelign chilled from his fur and she was glad he took this well, especially after she shot him down; “I honestly wish things could be different really I do, but I will stay here the night and go home tomorrow.” She said softly. It was a little in the afternoon. She hadn’t even brought her bow with her and she felt too exposed to go home.

He brought up the subject again, and she swallowed; “maybe I’ll tell you later... maybe... it is hard for me. I just know I wasn’t meant to be a mother, for reasons that I feel shouldn’t be …. public.” She said and moved closer to the border but stopped waiting for him to lead her. Grace saw Eclipse had moved and the horse came up behind her and nudged her affectionately nickering at the girl. She put her hand on the nose of the mare and smiled sadly. Her hormones were out of balance and her moods jumped all over as she experienced this new sensation of being pregnant.

His words were harsh enough to make her cringe in a little fear but also in the thought of having to tell him. She then looked him in the eyes as they moved along the packlands, “... My bloodline does not have the best path.” She said, she wouldn’t know if he heard of Haku, though many had and anyone who had heard of what he did to the women and men he disliked. These were from roamers though, and she even believed the rumors, she had to have something to go by and she knew her grandfather was a ruthless murderer.

The horse following behind lifted her ears at the offer and took it with happiness. The pack she lived in didn’t have any apples, though Eclipse tried to make sure to feed her some fruits and vegetables, it was hard with an enormous animal such as her. Eclipse patted the mare on the shoulder at the mares insistence on eating the apple as soon as possible. “She is a big sweetheart especially with offerings of food.” She said silently giving a smile for the first time, though it was a sad one. Her mind was still reeling with the thoughts of what she was going to do... and what she should do. The smile wore away slowly as she tried to think about it, on a happy note, on anything that would be good... but she could see nothing good, they made children whose mother was a horrible one because she didn’t want them... because she didn’t and she knew it, she was not ready for this, and she had fantasies that she would become the old lady with no kids. Her line would end with her, at least Conor’s line. For all she knew she was his only child.

She shook her head, but then again he probably wouldn’t understand what she was meaning. He never saw her dreams, in fact the only one who knew about it was Robert, and she let it slip through fear of going into the dark void. She wasn’t about to tell Aro though, she’ll just change her mind and nod to let him know he could be right, and that would hopefully keep him quiet. Her face was now a mask as she wiped away the last of her tears, she wanted to cry more, but she needed to stay strong. She just nodded when he spoke of not caring who their family or friends were.

“Yes that sounds good, rest would be welcoming.” She said quietly, she would enjoy his company as well and wish as they walked closer to his home that they could be together but fate didn’t seem like they would ever be with one another and her thoughts went to Robert and never seeing him again. Well she didn’t love him but he was the closest thing to a best friend she had. No she would socialize with Aro, and talk, but nothing about her family or past, but she would still talk and they could figure things out. Then she would go home and panic in her own home.