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The morning had been spent wandering the southern portions of the territory, and as Anu refused to stray to far from the homelands she did more then just wander. Eyes worked in search of anything that might be out of place, nose took all smells it could reach and deciphered if there might be one that did not belong. All that might raise her hackles were dead, cold, and so the lithe Dreamer walked past them. First she traveled south, hitting them most southeastern corner and then turned her nose north along the eastern borders. The path was well marked, worm by her paws and the paws of many others and Anu remembered each dip in the earth and visible root that might wish to trip her delicate paws.

Even though Anu hoped to focus on her job, it was hard not to allow her mind to wander just as her body did. It was as a familiar a task as following the path before her, and the blue eyes fey no longer wondering if another be passing by or if a stay leaf on the soft snow smelt of a Dahlian. The sight came and the smells drifted into her keen nostrils but Anu thought about Colibri. A warmth came to her chest, blossoming as she remembered the nights they had spent together. It was the sort of thought for a wintry day, and Anu no longer felt the cold of the late noon’s air.

It did not take her long to reach the edge of the large lake. Its shore was bleak with the lack of foliage surrounding it, though with the silhouette of tall bare branches made the body of water a beautiful picture. The female skirted the shore, four paws moving slowly and slowing as her eyes gazed out onto the water until the stopped all together. The wind rustled her longer cold-season coat, and the Dreamer let her mind grow blank, simply allowing herself a moment of pure peace.

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     The winter world was starting to melt away and she was confident that when her new litter was born its traces would be gone nearly completely. That suited her perfectly, for she saw no better time to bring new life into the world than the spring when everything else in the world was being reborn as well. Savina thought back to the conversation she had had with her son all those months ago, where they had decided that with the leadership of the moles, the small animals the world helped to replant the world as the Earth warmed. It made her smile and she wondered if Gotham would wish to share their theories with his younger siblings when they were born. She knew that she wanted to share it with them, but she thought it would be a nice bonding moment if Gotham would. Besides, the ideas were just as much his concoction as her own, if not more.


     The Commander had been lying out on the front porch of the mansion but slowly rose to her feet and shook out her ebony pelt. Being a little over a moon into her pregnancy now her condition was clearly announced by her swollen belly that curved off her normally svelte form. Emeralds peering out at the lands she called home with compassion she descended the stairs and moved off in the direction of the lake. A nice cool drink of water sounded wonderful and thankfully now the lake wasn't so encrusted with ice. It wouldn't be long before trips outside the mansion would halt and she needed to take advantage of her ability to do so now. That also meant that she needed to reestablish her den in one of the main level rooms. Sure footed as she was, she wouldn't take a risk with her pups' lives by chancing a fall on the stairs.


     Soon the glistening, still water came into view and with it a familiar and comforting scent. A smile curved the femme's lips as she searched around for the body of her Lt. General to go with her smell. There she was, next to the water. Savina walked carefully up to Anu and nudged her shoulder with her snout. "Nice day for a walk, yes?"

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There was a small bit a fatigue felt in her form, her body just not as spry as it once was. The long walk was not something that she would have normally felt a burden, but Anu was no longer two or three years of age. Her form was healthy as ever, and her muzzle not quite a silver tone, but she could feel the difference in her joints. Even if it was slight. Anu let her gaze filter over the lake’s surface, a thick sigh draining her lungs and allowing as much clean air to fill them as she could take. The land around the lake felt as homey as inside her manor room. It was a staple of their territory, even if they only claimed a portion of the shore.

In the daze that her thoughts and the lake held her in Anu did not even notice the approach of her friend until she felt the touch against her shoulder. The scent of Savina did not bring her into a state of alarm, and the wolfess turned her head to face her friend as she spoke. “It is.” Anu answered, her body moving to face the Commander. Eyes glanced over the form of the slight ebony wolf, and nothing was left unnoticed.

There was something to say about the reaction that came form the second in command. The older female took a small smooth step backward, aiding in the turn to face Savi and she smiled. If her scent did not allow Anu to understand the changes that had gone through her good friend then the shape of her abdomen did. It seemed as if Kansas had taken her advice all those months ago to sweep the leader up and take her away, and Anu thought fondly of the conversation.

Surprised was not something that Anu felt, it was a more of a pleasant awareness. Surprise would suggest that Anu did not believe that Savina would become pregnant again, and such a thought had never gone through her mind. “And how are you feeling?” She asked, her smile broadening.

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     Savina smiled warmly at her friend as her presence was finally noticed. Anu moved to face her better and she could see her eyes look over her form and knew what the first thing she noticed must be. Ever since she had found out she was with pups again she had been taking things fairly easy and hadn't really seen her second in command. There was some guilt she felt at not informing her friend earlier, but hopefully Anu would understand. She had been busy informing the family and making sure that her children were dealing with the news alright. They had taken it pretty well when she and Kansas had told them, but she knew it could be a tough thing to digest and there was the chance that they felt replaced. The mother had wanted to make sure that none of her brood felt like she loved them any less just because she was having another litter.


     Still, she should have made more of an effort to let Anu know. Not only because their friendship was so close and so dear, but also because once the pups were born and right before the Commander would be out of commission and the daily leadership tasks would have to fall upon the Lt. General's shoulders. Thankfully though she didn't see any hurt or resentment in her friend's gaze and her tail waved in the air behind her. "I'm feeling quite well, thank you. It's easier the second time around, I think," the fey said with a slight chuckle. Even if you heard what pregnancy entailed you didn't really know what it was like or what to expect until you went through it yourself. This time she had experience to draw upon and things had been progressing smoothly. Hopefully that meant that this litter would be just as healthy as her last had been. "Carrying this big belly around can be awkward though," she joked. Savina knew she probably looked awfully silly with her tiny frame and her over-sized abdomen.


     "How is Colibri doing? I met her a little while ago. She's a sweet girl." The woman hoped that the ex-Dahlian was beginning to see that she was safe here and no one would cause her any problems. If they did, they would be answering to her.

It was simply the normal turn of the tide within a wolf pack. To believe that their alpha female would not wish to be the one to carry the pack’s litter was slightly foolish, and to think that parents as wonderful as Kansas and Savina would not look forward to the next litter after their previous one was just wonderful was twice as foolish. Anu felt no resentment only knowing now, she was simply glad to know that her friend was healthy and just as important, happy. “Good” She responded simply. The tawny fey’s tail waved behind her as the thoughts of brand new pup rolled through her mind. Her daughter needed to know as well, being the pack’s Nanny. Anu was sure that her own grown-pup would find as much delight in the pending arrival. Anu smiled and laugh softly and silently as Savina spoke, “The look suits you.” Anu teased the younger she-wolf with a smile. It was not the normal form that the second in command saw her leader, but Anu found nothing unnatural about it.

The turn of conversation made her smile turn to something a bit deeper, the thought of Coli making her heart grow warm and the compliment that Savina gave made her heart flutter. “You did?" Anu asked, her voice turning into a sound that was not her proper calm and soft. A bit of excitement running through her. “She’s good, settled in.” Anu commented, remembering to answer the question that had been given first. Of course her thought of the chocolate wolfess were always mixed with a bit of worry and anxiety. She always hoped and wished that Coli would feel comfortable here, and tell her if she had any problem. Their relationship was one filled with love and commitment and had been questioned and tested, though Anu wondered if the female thought of herself as still and outsider here. She had done everything she could to make it the opposite. Still Anu only melted at the thought of her, “I’m glad you think that. I feel she is happy here, I know I’m happier with her here.”

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     Honestly, Savina hadn't been expecting or planning on having a new litter so soon. Well, she supposed soon wasn't exactly the right term. It seemed like a short time between when her pups had been born and now, but in reality it was nearly a whole year that had passed. This was a fact that the mother was still having difficulty wrapping her mind around. Had the time passed so quickly for Anu as well? She thought it must have. Children grew up so quickly, and the tempo seemed even faster when they were your own. The night that the pups she now carried had been conceived though had been one of the best nights of her life. She wondered if, later on, it would be too awkward to take them to that place. Of course she wouldn't tell them its true significance, but surely there was no harm in showing them the strange and beautiful lake. "Perhaps," Savina said, humor still coloring her voice. Pregnancy was hardly all sunshine and butterflies, but it was a burden she gladly bore.


     She sensed the shift in her friend as she brought up her new love and Savina couldn't help but be so excited and happy for the pair, though of course she was most happy for Anu. The tawny fey hadn't been the most lucky in love and it was wholly unfair. If anyone deserved to have that gift then it was her dear friend. Savina only smiled brighter and nodded her head in confirmation to Anu's question. "Good, I'm glad to hear it." The Commander saw the same tenderness in her companion while speaking of Colibri that she was certain she exhibited whenever she spoke of Kansas. The Italian hoped with all her heart that this romance would last and the two females would be together for the rest of their days. The both of them deserved such deep love and companionship. "I don't see how I could think anything else. Honestly she reminds me a bit of Cambria, their demeanors are very similar." That fact had nearly instantly bonded her to the Haki girl in a way. "Good. You deserve to be happy. You know that I want nothing less for you."

Time always seemed to slip away from the woman’s grasp. There was so little that she could do to control it, and Anu had begun to accept the fact that she would always just watch it pass. Even watching the pups she called her own as well as Savina’s litter grow seemed more like a blur then a full year, almost two for her own. As they stood together the time was filtering away and they were all getting a bit older, gaining experience, living life, and coming closer to the day that would be their last. It was simply the way of the world, and Anu was beginning to find happiness in just letting it move without fighting.

An yet, in her world, Colibri stopped time. There was no worry that there wouldn’t be enough, there was no pressure and no thought that time was being wasted. It was something that the young female brought her that Anu could so easily relish. The sense of youth, the energy of one only a few years into their life. It was different, time and years changed a wolf, and it was hard to think that it ever would when younger, but it did.

The night that she and Savina had spoken Anu had left uneasy. But she had not doubted her friend’s acceptance of Coli, and it was not long after their meeting that Anu ended her doubt in Coli’s acceptance of Anu and their relationship. There had been so much that went unsaid, but now the fey had no questions surrounding their bond. The female nodded at Savina’s comparison and Anu thought of something else, and yet she did not bring up another similarity that the two she-wolves seemed to posses.

She had promised to keep that to herself. “They are very much alike.” Anu agreed. Though she did not feel the need to reassure her friend, Anu still did, “I have always been happy here, Savi. It’s a different sort of happiness.” She had felt sorrow in her time in Crimson Dreams, but it did not mean she had been unhappy. The smile did not waver, but her eyes looked away from her friends face and out onto the wintry lake. “I am looking forward to spring,” She mentioned as she looked over the white cold landscape. “I miss the days of gardening, of flowers and fruits.” She missed when she had something that always relied on her, something to tend to and nurture.“Coli is a gardener as well.” Anu added, her mind running and her mouth getting away from her as she looked back at the Commander. It was something that had brought the two females together, and a passion they both shared.

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     The phrase that time flew by was no eggazeration. It wasn't only the growth of her children that had zoomed past her, but so many other things. She could hardly believe that this was her second winter in these lands. That Crimson Dreams had been together for over a year now, and the same with her mateship with Kansas. Also, when spring was in full swing, she would be four years old. The woman didn't feel as if she were that old, but she could believe it easily. Perhaps if she had never become a leader it would have been harder to wrap her mind around, but taking on so much responsibility did age her substantially. Not that she ever had been this way, but being the Commander and the Lt. General before had made it so that she couldn't ever consider just her own wishes, she had to think and work for the betterment of the entire pack. Her packmates and family were always placed before herself and with that kind of responsibility came wisdom that she might not have gained otherwise. Still, she knew she was far from knowing everything, which was one of the reasons she was so glad to have Anu by her side. The elder femme knew so much more than she and her strength made the pack's success possible.


     Savina was unaware of the recent changes her daughter had been going through, and unaware that Anu knew more than she did. Cambria could be a very secretive girl and you couldn't force information out of her if she did not want to share it. While she knew that things had been bothering her, for she could see it in her body language and her eyes, she hadn't pressed the girl into speaking with her. Of course she wanted her to, she wanted to be able to help with whatever bothered her child, but she knew that Cambria would come to her when she was ready to talk of it with her. Savina nodded and smiled as Anu agreed with her comparison of the two chocolate-coated females. No doubt her friend felt a need to protect the one she loved and it was no mystery as to why she had wanted her away from Dahlia. "I know. The world is brighter when you have someone to love and to share it with." The Italian fey understood well the kind of happiness having a lover brought. It was unlike any other kind of happiness, and could not be duplicated. She had never felt that Anu wasn't happy here, but she understood what her friend meant.


     Following her friend's gaze out onto the lake she once again nodded her sleek, dark head. "Me too. I wasn't built for this cold weather. It's always better when the sun is in the sky and the air is warm." No, the dullness of winter did not suit the ebony wolf. Gardening and planting flowers wasn't something she necessarily understood, but she knew that it brought Anu joy and she couldn't argue with it even if she had had the urge to. It didn't surprise her to learn that her lady love shared a similar passion. "That's great! With both your skills I'm sure the garden will be looking lovelier than ever this year." Then a though came to her. She wasn't sure where it had sprung from or why and she didn't know if she should say anything, but before she could stop herself the words were rolling off her tongue. "Anu, have you ever thought of having pups of your own?" Ears folded back tentatively as the words floated in the air, afraid they might offend or upset her friend in someway. Still, Anu would (and had) been a wonderful mother, and she was certain that Colibri would be as well. She wasn't certain how they could make such a thing happen, but if they could then it would surely bring them both joy.

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There had been moment where Anu thought that being a wanderer was easier. At times being alone was just much easier on the heart and soul then battling against those that she had wished to love, and couldn’t. But Anu could not look back on the rocky and unhappy times she had spent in the ‘Souls region with regret. Each had born something new, something wonderful from each upset. Her world would always be brighter now that Colibri had entered her life, and if she exited as others had Anu would not forget the happiness that they shared. Still the wolfess did not think long on the other consequences such a departure would bring. The older fey had known that hurt, and her mind refused to even skirt the fringes of them. Instead she simply agreed, “A brighter world indeed.”

But spring would bring another sort of uplifting. Anu had never found it to be a trying season while tending the blossoms and the other small plants. It was not always easy, but there was something to be said when she could bring to life something as beautiful as the flowers that came forth from the plain colored earth. Together she and their new Dreamer could expand and bring the beauty of spring and bounty into the home of all the other members. “I think spring will bring many beautiful things.” Anu spoke, smiling as she looked at her friend and thought about the new gifts that her leader and companion would give them all.

At the sound of her name she perked, the question coming from Savina something that was not entirely expected. The female did not seemed shocked, though no one had ever asked her such a thing. Perhaps it was the topic of caring and growing, the idea that both she and Colibri were nurturing attendants that made Savina think of them, of Anu, as a mother. But, it was something she thought of and thought of more often then she thought appropriate. “At times.” She said honestly. It was something that she secretly desired, and yet her other choices had set her path in a different direction. She had always thought that it was a permanent and unmoving one. “I just don’t know…” Anu admitted, her voice not sorrowful or laden with confusion but slightly energized. There were so much that was unknown about such a thing, and Anu felt it more like a dream or a fantasy then something purely impossible.

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     Having someone to share such a special relationship with was a wonderful thing. Even thinking of them for the most fleeting moment or hearing their name uttered could bring the biggest smile to your face. Such a thing was true of her, and it was clear that it was true for Anu as well. She hadn't faced the hardships of love that the elder fey had, but she had had to wait a very long time before she had first felt the excitement that came with new love. Kansas had been her first, and she was confident that there would never be anyone else for her but him. The Italian woman couldn't picture herself with anyone but him. She had yet to see her friend and the ex-Dahlian with one another, but it wasn't hard to imagine what they must look like. Happy was the word that sprung to her mind. They both deserved that happiness.


     The Commander couldn't wait to see how full and lovely the garden this year would be with the talents of both Anu and Colibri tending to it. The garden had been a favorite spot for her pups, she knew. They could find their favorite insect friends there. Butterflies for her two girls and dragonflies for her handsome son. Would her next litter have a similar affinity for the flying bugs of spring and summer? So many questions buzzed through her head about what the lives growing inside her would be like, but she knew that only time would reveal those answers. Savina would be happy to wait and watch and hope that time slowed down so she could catch every second. "I think it will, yes," the sable fey said with a smile, her tail wagging happily. Despite all the turmoil they had endured and that loomed right outside their borders there was an undeniable feeling of promise for the new season.


     Savina waited with baited breath for Anu's reaction. The question she had asked was delicate and very personal and she feared she might have overstepped her bounds with it. She and Anu were dear friends, as close as friends got, but still it could be a dangerous question to ask. The last thing she wanted was to bring up something that caused the elder woman any bit of pain or trepidation. Thankfully the Lt. General didn't seem upset, only thoughtful. The pregnant fey nodded her head, following Anu's ques, not wanting to push the topic any further than her friend wanted it to go. As the sorrowful words trailed off though she couldn't help but press a little further. "Don't know what?" she queried kindly. She didn't know either, but maybe they could figure it out together.

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Couldn’t she have this as well?

The question was one that Anu thought selfish to ask. There were simply some things that others were blessed with that she was not. It was not anyone’s fault, other then her own for the choices that she had made. But then, was this her free will that drew her towards another female rather then the arms of a male? This was not something that had simply happened the moment she had met Coli, no this was how she had been for some time. Never had Anu had a relationship with a male that ran as deep as the ones she had with her past mates, and now Colibri. Still, even if this was written in her some where, a place Anu could not change, what gave her the right to want such a gift as a litter of pups would be? Maybe she deserved it, maybe she could bring them to life and be the sort of mother that she always wished to be, but Anu could not see those paths clearly. Instead she saw a dream, with doubt lased around it.

Savina questioned her, and Anu felt her smile fade slightly. Her friend had not brought this to her, for Anu had been holding it for some time. She realized that she needed to say it aloud, and though she didn’t wish to place any uneasy topics on her friend Anu could use her help in understanding if these feelings were wrongly placed. Was she simply yearning from something that she could never have, or did her greatest friend believe that she could have this as well. A true family, a family that she brought into the world alongside another she loved so dearly. “How, I guess.” She paused, a breath coming as she thought of it. “I sort of thought that it was something I had to give up. Haven and the rest were already in the cooking process when I met their mother, “ recalled, not wishing to think much of the woman she had loved once, long ago. Her voice was still light, there was no reason to speak heavily when talking of dreams.

“I want to be a mother, and I would like to share that with Colibri.” She confessed. Having never said the words before, but thinking of them often Anu felt a weight lift from her. Yes, those were her wants and her wishes.

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     Before coming here she had never been exposed to the possibilities of same sex relationships. Surely even if there had been any in Monti Sabini of that persuasion they would have forced it down for it would not have been "proper" for them to live that way. So many things had been "improper" back where she came from. Savina loved Italy and hoped that she would see it again, but never would she return to where she was born. Living here had opened her eyes and she know found that place even more deplorable than she already had. While the idea of two females loving each other in that way had surprised her, nothing about it had struck her as wrong. Perhaps it was because she saw love as a pure entity and it didn't matter who it was between. Anu's love towards Colibri was just as pure as her own love for Kansas. It was just as real and none of it was contrived. If love was true then it couldn't be wrong.


     Her friend's smile faded and Savina felt her own face take on a more serious tone. It was a serious subject that the two were breaching. When Anu spoke again the mother began to truly realize what it was that would need to be done for the two females to have children. With this realization came another one: how lucky she was to be able to create life with the person she loved. Even if Anu had children, they would have no blood ties to Colibri. Not that blood ties mattered in the long run, but there was something magical in knowing that you had created something with your partner. Her dear friend would never be able to experience that particular emotion, and it saddened her. If she were in the other wolfess' place, she wasn't sure what she would do. If she would be able to let someone else be with her just so she could have children. It was difficult decision, and one that had to made for yourself, no one else could make it for you.


     Though at her Lt. General's last statements she felt her spirits life again. "If that is what you want, then you should try. I know it can't be easy...but it could be worth it." Thinking of her own pups, born and unborn, she knew that she would do anything to have them. She would climb the highest mountain and swim to the depths of the sea. Anu would just have to decide if she were comfortable doing what would have to be done. Finding a male willing to do the act and then not want the pups wouldn't be hard, she thought somewhat bitterly. Hell, they could call her own father up and surely he would be more than happy to do so. Still, she didn't like the idea of Anu in the paws of some crass and filthy man. Hopefully, if she did this, she could find someone with some sense of honor and compassion.

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Anu couldn’t find where it hid inside, what made her think and feel the way she did. Her only male lover had been nameless, and as she thought back to that night (on those rare occasions) he was faceless as well. But that was all he had been, and Anu had not found the deep desire, the gravity defying uplifting emotion that was brought to her with the mate she had in the past in a male. There was a connection there that could not be redirected, a comfort that was felt that could not be placed on another. Why she desired to have a litter of her own, and why she wished to feel the fright and the excitement and the joy of childbirth Anu didn’t know. Where it came from was a mystery as well. There had been a time where she thought that she wouldn’t be able conceive at all, but that thought had only quelled the desire and gave her an excuse for her not to try.

Savina’s words were true, oh so very true. It wouldn’t be easy; nothing about it would Anu figured. It would take time, something that she feared that she was loosing without restraint. It would take her being unfaithful to a wolfess that she never wished to hurt; it would take finding someone that she could trust just as much as she trusted the woman that had stolen her heart. Anu didn’t know who that was, and though she had a small list of names that she had gathered in her quiet stolen thoughts on the subject she wouldn’t know how to ask or what to say to them. Would any understand? Would someone wish this for her as much as her close friend did? Everything matter whether Coli approved, and though there might be disappointment felt if she did not wish to ever have pups Anu would respect the decision. And move on, then perhaps she could move on from the thoughts.

“No, I don’t think it would be easy.” She spoke, her smile back. She didn’t want to feel depressed, or ungrateful for the woman that had left her home to live with her. She was happier now then she had been in seasons, and it was Colibri that had given that to her. Though the woman could not give Anu children, she did not feel as if her love lacked in anyway.

“It would be exciting though.” She said with a smile.

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     She really couldn't imagine what it would be like to be in such a position. Desiring children but knowing that the person you loved and were with couldn't give them to you. From her discussion with Colibri, it seemed that the girl had her own soft spot for pups, and that gave her hope that perhaps this could be done despite the difficulties. It would be hard, unbelievably hard, to agree to let someone else be with your partner, even for a second of time, but the result could give them such joy as to erase that pain. Savina knew from her own experience that seeing the newly born forms of your children made every wrong in the world disappear, because nothing was so important or beautiful as those little lives you had brought into the world. That had been the case with Naniko. No matter what evils Conri had done, those four little miracles had shone forth and banished all of that other stuff to the background. She wanted that for Colibri, but mostly she wanted that for Anu.


     The Commander couldn't offer any answers as to who would be willing to do that for the two females, or how to ask them. Such things were well beyond her area of knowledge. Still, surely there had to be someone out there who could and who would be respectable. She had to believe that, because the more she thought of it the more she wanted this for her friend. Anu deserved to have her own pups, just as almost any and every female did. Still, Anu agreed that it wouldn't be easy. "Yes," Savina said. "But what things in life worth having ever come easy?" Anu had already fought to be with Colibri and she knew that her friend wouldn't go back and change that. It hadn't been easy for her sister to face another pregnancy, but she had, and now she had a wonderful daughter and son. Gods knew that she and Kansas' had face their hardships, but their love and bond was always more important than anything that ever tried to come between them.


     "You should talk to Colibri. Maybe not today, maybe not this season, but sometime. I have a feeling she'd love to be the mother of your pups." If Anu never talked about it she knew that she would never stop asking the questions of herself.

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Anything that was good came with a price, as nothing in the world was free. Just as Anu thought the idea Savina spoke, her question one Anu could easily answer. She nodded and replied with a small sigh of agreement. She was right; nothing in the world that had ever been meaningful had come easily. She had fought to live here, leaving another pack and shedding many tears in the process. She had also battled to return to a place where her heart was able to love again, and though Anu was rarely lost to love it had not been easy repairing the damage her heart had suffered. And then she had warred against Haku for the woman she loved now. Savina was not without her own experiences, fighting her own battles and winning many. Though, as Anu stood beside her she was glad to say, “But after, when it’s all over its easy to forget how hard it was. And you still appreciate it more.” Anu could look at Colibri and forget the fighting and the wounds, she could live in the moment that those hard times had brought them but Anu did not have to live in that past. Maybe this could be the same, and maybe it wouldn’t be as hard as she thought. Hopeful, Anu could smile.

The two sat together, eyes lingering on one another or the lake that stood before them. Their home, the place that they loved. Her Commander was someone that she would always listen to, but she was also her friend that she would always seek advice form. Anu believed Savina, cherished the relationship that they held and never wanted them to be apart. It had taken her most of her life to become to close to the pack members she had, and to gain the trust and status she held. Anu was not a born leader, and in the end she would only sit beside Savi and hold such a rank. Her words were something that hit so close to her heart that Anu felt a wave of emotion wash over her. That was what she wanted, she wanted that so badly that it ached. “I should.” She said, her words slightly choked. What it would take was obvious, and yet there were so many questions that went right along with it. But it was worth a simple conversation.

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     This wasn't a fact of life that was hard to see, and of course Anu already knew it. But sometimes you just needed to hear it out loud to remind yourself of it. They both lead busy lives and it could be hard to stay grounded and logical at times. Her ears dipped slightly at her friend's sigh, knowing that despite this truth it still would be no easy decision. Savina was glad that she would never have to choose between having the pups she wanted or staying completely loyal to her love. In this case though it wouldn't be the same sort of disloyalty that could destroy a relationship. It could cause problems, but it wasn't disloyalty out of pleasure seeking but to have something more that both partners could share.


     The smile returned to her face as Anu spoke her own sentiments, glad that her more experienced friend saw things in the same light. "Exactly," she agreed. No one would ever claim that childbirth was easy. It was painful, and it could be incredibly dangerous to the mother, but when you saw the newborn forms of your pups all of the pain and the worry and the struggle melted away. When you saw them, alive and well, that was all that mattered. Savina had no doubt that pups would heal whatever tribulations that would trouble the couple in their conception. Just as Anu had loved the children not born unto her, so too would Colibri. At least the mother saw no other outcome to such a thing. The Commander had seen that adoration for pups and that caring nature in the girl.


     Silence settled comfortably between the two friends for some moments before the Lt. General spoke again, her voice strained and thick with the emotions that flooded her chest. Savina leaned close to the tawny woman, lightly resting her muzzle against her shoulder. There was really nothing more she could say. She could only be supportive, and be there for Anu, and that was what the contact signified. It was a quiet admission that she would always be there for her no matter what. Savina would never abandon her or be uncaring of her problems.