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For Salena!

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Months had seemed to just fly by within a blink of a second. The woman brought her palm up to her brow, squinting in pain as the flash of yet another headache roared through her head. The whole summer had been a blur, but Kadir had been thankful for the German woman that taken her in and helped her with what they could only piece together was a head injury. Svanja had found her strapped to a horse. The only reason she had not fallen was because her leg got wound into the ropes of the saddle. What she had explained was that her head was nearly smashed open, but it had been difficult to tell whether she was even alive with how mattered her face and hair was with the blood from that day.

Flashes of memory hit her at the most inopportune times it seemed like right at that very moment. All she could picture were intense, pale blue eyes looking back at her, chiseled within a dark face. A wave of nausea overtook the woman and she felt herself heaving up what little she managed to keep down for breakfast over the fallen, rotted tree she had to take an abrupt seat in. Well, guess there was no hunting that she could do today like this. Kadir felt a warm hand on her shoulder and quickly turned around, only to be met with another wave of nausea.

"'Ere drink zhis," spoke the smaller woman as she brought a cup of warm, honeyed liquid that had hints of ginger root and mint. After Kadir was sure she would not heave again she took a small sip of the warmed beverage, looking up at the other woman with grateful eyes. A cool cloth was quickly placed on her head, obscuring her vision as the woman attempted to help Kadir ease her mind. This had been an ongoing battle, although, it was getting a bit better, she still felt like she had a long way to go.

"Thank you," she managed to choke out, take another much longer drink from the small mug. The nausea began to settle, lifting her hand up to take the cloth off her face, her olive green eyes refocusing on the chestnut haired woman crouching before her.

"May-bee, you save da hunting for anudder day, jah? I have stew ready," the woman grinned, taking the cloth back from the raven-haired woman. She stood up before her, reaching a hand down to help up the larger warrioress to her feet. Leading her back away from the edge of the wood to the small cabin where she secluded herself within the woods. They had been undisturbed for so long, it was hard to imagine that they could keep their small cabin a secret for much longer, yet here they were, entering into the third... maybe fourth season since Svanja found her? Kadir could not help but shake her head again, trying to push back the dull ache that thundered within her own mind.

"Just let me go and rest, I will be okay in a bit," she mumbled half-heartedly, turning towards her small cot in the corner of the quaint little cabin. Settling quietly, she watched Svanja tend the fire in the small fireplace nearby as she expertly added herbs and spices to the pot that hung over the licking flames. Her eyes watched the flickers of embers dance wildly below, letting it dull her senses, and drift off into a deep uneventful sleep.

Three weeks later.

At least she felt well enough to ride again.

Sitting atop Darcy, who she only just remembered the name of in the most recent last few days, felt like the most natural thing in the world at that moment. Clutching the reins, the horse trotted through the wood at a steady pace, as Kadir fell in with the rhythmic movements of each hoof beat. Her memories were slowly coming back, but she had a hard time remember the names of the faces she saw in her dreams. A haunting sense of longing made her heart ache each and every night. It was starting to become difficult to cope with the intense feelings and mood swings she was experiencing. Something told her that she had never really dealt with her emotions all that well prior to the huge gash on her head.

With her hood pulled up, covering her head from the rain that sprinkled down on the pair, Kadir urged the horse forward, trying to ignore the thoughts that seemed to cloud her own mind. Darcy picked up the pace, and soon they were galloping down through a marshy landscape, breaking through the small open space before trotting back up into the safe cover of a copse of trees. This was no good, no animal would be out here getting soaked in the late evening rain showers. Grumbling to herself, Kadir turned the reins and prepared to set back for home. At least the only home she could remember.

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POSTED: Thu Oct 24, 2019 5:32 pm

The mountain of things that I still regret
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget

OOC: +400 words.

There were days when he wanted to give up, no matter how much he told himself not to. Even Kalypso, arguably his best friend, would tell him not to give up on her. He couldn't be more thankful for her support, and it were such small words that kept him going. He had not forgotten about her, there was no way that he could. Kadir had meant so much to him, and having gotten her back... only to lose her again...

It felt like some kind of curse was on him, if he were to believe in such things. Maybe this was some kind of payback for the sins he had committed. All he wanted out of his own life was happiness. It was not by his own fault that removing his parents from his life was what it took to seize that for himself. Shaamah was not dead, but the fact that even he was creeping back up, targeting members of his now extended family, made the hairs on his body stand with anger.

The man had never cared about any of them, and now that he was no longer bound to the laws of Sapient, it seemed whatever sense of morals he did have had been thrown out the window.

It had been some time since the dark male had taken his own horse out. It didn't help that his skills were still rusty, if at all just having the basic understanding of how to do such a thing, but he couldn't just neglect the things around him because of either his own feelings or those that lived around him. Gathering Soot, he did his best with the saddle and reins, soon leading him outside to get on the animal's back. He swore he wouldn't go out too far, but he had to do something to ease his mind.

All the searches he had done had turned up with either nothing, or not enough of a lead to figure out where she might have gone. They were cut away from each other during the battle, and with that being buried in the past, there was no trail for him to follow anymore. Hibiki lowered his head, that feeling of defeat weighing over his head again.

Rain began to pour down from the sky, and with little to cover his head, he would need to find some kind of shelter with how far out they were. Better to just wait out the storm than risking something else happening. Turning Soot, he began to head for the trees. At least even in fall they would be able to keep them somewhat dry.

His head lifted up to see another caught in the rain, though moving faster than he was. The figure was hooded, but called out anyways, "Hey, you looking for somewhere to stay?"

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I MISSED THESE TWO SO MUCH.

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The sound of another calling out caught Kadir's attention as she broke into the copse of trees on the hillside before turnign around to see who it was that was calling out. A figure in the distance caught her eye and must have been where the voice carried from. They were also on horse back, but it was hard to make out in the hazy, drizzle that fell from the sky, and with dusk setting in the figure was a smudge of a shadow through the copse of trees that had eased the fall from the heavens on her own head.

"Just trying to get back before it really starts coming down," she called out, holding her position so that he may catch up to her. The voice was distinctly masculine, the woman could not help but feel a sense of familiarity overcome her. Her ears felt like they were burning, and a high pitched sound screeched through her head as her brain tried to make the connections. Placing her fingers on her temple, trying to urge the pain not to come forth, not now. There was a sense of anxiety that over swept her in that moment, but she attempted to remain poised, and not appear weak to the other. There was no way she could defend herself like this if he were looking to give her a little shakedown at the moment. The only thing that help was that Darcy was snorting, ready to chase away any trouble before her.

The woman kept her face mostly covered with the dark hood that was pulled up over her head, attempting to keep the rain out of her eyes, she pulled it around her body tighter as well to keep the chill in the autumn air off as she awaited him to come closer. He had almost reached her when she got another ungodly static feeling through her body as the tiny synapses in her brain attempted to reforge old connections she had lost unknowingly. Well, not unknowingly, it felt as if her whole slate had been wiped clean after she had received a huge blow to her head. The scars across the left side of her face were still ugly, and her left eye was nothing but a blur of light and shadows, but thankfully, her dominant eye made up for everything that she had lost vision wise.

"What brings you out on such a wet day?" she asked, attempting to be polite and friendly to the stranger as she also attempted to regain her bearings as the heat burned through her skull. A wave of nausea built up like bile in the back of her throat, but she held strong, and steadfast. Although, the strange before her might have noticed her shaking under her thick cloak if he was watching close enough.

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POSTED: Sat Nov 02, 2019 7:01 pm

The mountain of things that I still regret
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget

OOC: SO HAVE I. +300 words.

At first, he wasn't sure if the figure had heard his call, but when he noticed it move on the back of the horse, he knew he had been heard. Her voice had rung out to him. For a moment, he couldn't help but stay where he was, gazing ahead at the one he had come across. He couldn't be too sure if it was who he recognized, or if it was just something in his head. He had been searching for Kadir, he wondered if maybe the rain or some other higher power was playing a trick on him.

Taking a breath, he gave Soot a kick, granting the horse the speed needed to catch up with the other and its rider.

The hood she wore covered most of her, so there wasn't too much to go off of. Hibiki gave a gentle sigh. It would only seem strange of him to ask a stranger to removed her clothing, especially when it was beginning to rain. He would not allow his search for her to overrule his own morals. He couldn't stoop down to levels that would put him on par with his parents, even if such a simple request was nothing quite like what they would do.

Letting a soft smile move over his lips, light blue gaze moved around the area. There wasn't too much around them, and it might take a bit of a ride to return to the Petite Cour's lands. Instead, he had another idea, "There's a place called Halifax that shouldn't be too far from here. We could head there and get into some shelter while the storm passes."

Turning in the direction, the dark male turned his head over his shoulder, both to make sure she was following him, but also to her words. His smile faded softly, but only for a moment, "Oh, I came out here looking for someone. I haven't seen her for some time. We got separated a while back, but I haven't given up on looking for her."

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IS THIS FOR REAL-REALS? 8D

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The rain was starting to soak through the thick cloak that shadowed her figure atop of the monochromatic horse. Her green eyes flashed at the sound of the stranger's voice again as it carried a pleasant and calming quality that made the burning in her skull simmer down a little. The high pitched ringing in her ears began to threaten to topple the large warrior woman, but she concentrated enough to steel herself against the tempest within her brain as well as the storm that threatened them overhead.

The male spoke of a place called Halifax that was nearby, either way, she did not care at this moment as it was probably closer than where Svanja was waiting for her back at their small cabin in the woods. She had ventured much farther than she had originally thought in the day wanting to drown out the thoughts that raced through her mind and unknown familiarities that threatened to overtake her like a wave. If only she could pull all the strings together of each of her memories and connect them back to where they belonged.

The woman nodded, giving a light tap of her heel to get Darcy to follow after the other and their own mount. His eyes flashed back at her as he seemed to make sure she was following him. He mentioned that he was looking for someone and for a moment she wondered if it was her. She quickly brushed the thought from her mind as it was a silly notion because she had been out here searching for herself too it seemed. Either way, this was merely a coincidence, there was no way this man would know who she was. She could not have been that particularly important of a person as no one had really searched for her since Svanja had found her bloodied and banged up in the woods. The scent of blood and war was on her, but as for the memories they had been wiped clean from her mind.

"I'm sorry to hear that, I wish you luck in finding her," she barked out over the howling winds that were beginning to pick up louder as the rain whipped against her face and tugged at her hood, but not enough to reveal the face hidden beneath the shadows. The raced through the woods as fast as they dared to travel and Kadir was beginning to hope that they would find shelter soon as she was not sure how much more of this storm she could take. If it was not for the fact she still felt so tired all the time she probably could have handled it, but her strength was only just beginning to return once again.

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POSTED: Wed Dec 18, 2019 7:27 pm

The mountain of things that I still regret
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget

OOC: +300 words.

The rain pelted against his fur at the higher speed. He was sure that he and Soot were moving carefully along the ground as the two of them, along with the companion he had come across, were making their way to Halfiax. He was still not where near enough to call himself a confident rider, and the last thing he needed was to fall off his horse or have something happen to them before he could make it back to his own home.

Hibiki turned his head over his shoulder, catching the words of the cloaked woman, having raised her own voice to make sure he would be able to hear it over the wind and the rain. It brought him some comfort in this stranger wishing him luck with finding the one that he was looking for. There were times when he felt like he should give up, that looking for her would be nothing but a lost cause, but then what would that say about him?

He had already gone and made that mistake once, and he wasn't about to do it again.

He offered her a smile before turning his head back along their path.

It wasn't long before the earth beneath them began to turn into cracked and ruined pavement. The open streets didn't provide them with much protection from the pouring rain, but thankfully there were still buildings nearby that still had solid roofs that could shelter them until the rain died down.

Rounding one of the streets, he guided the both of them to one of the larger buildings, leaving not only an opening for them, but also some covering for their mounts. The horses were just alive as them, and it would make no sense to leave them to the elements while they took shelter for themselves. It didn't take him long to dismount from Soot, making his way into the decaying building. Arms moved up along his arms, running his hands along them before he stepped a bit closer to the opening, "Do you need any help?"

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The rain pounding both her and Darcy continuously and now they were both absolutely soaked through to the bone. A chill ran up her spine causing the ache in her head to increase even farther, the long wisps of raven hair were stuck to her face, but she did not dare let go of the reins in order to move them out of the way, it was more important that she kept focused on her riding. The hood was drenched and now stuck to her hair and face, but it did not fall and still shielded her eyes somewhat from the deluge.

Her ears twitched as the sound of the hooves on the ground began to change, as more solid clip-clops on harder terrain announced their arrival closer into the city. Her eyes shot around at the taller buildings that began to become more numerous, and the space between the decaying monuments were becoming less and less. Unable to lookup very long as she was soon soaked, the woman dropped her head again, concentrating on just following the male at his quick pace. Although she was an experienced rider, she was tiring fast.

When it was just beginning to feel like they had been riding forever the male that lead them into Halifax slowed his mount and Kadir came up beside him and did the same. Her thighs were burning from the long ride she was no longer used to as she had been deconditioned due to her long recovery with Svanja. Her eyes flickered over to him and she shook her head, not wanting to fully rely on someone else to get herself down. She slid over the side of the saddle, lazily letting herself drop to the ground. It was not her best dismount, but who could blame her, she patted the horse on the shoulder before drawing herself up to Darcy's face to grab the reins and lead her towards the entrance. The door had been shattered by something allowing a large enough entrance for them to lead the horses through so not just they would be sheltered from the pounding elements outside.

"What are the chances we would be able to light a fire of some sort in here?" she asked, unsure if she would even be able to light one herself. Ripping the cloak from her shoulders, and throwing it over the nearest spot that would possibly help it dry a bit she turned to the male, raven hair soaked through and looking like a half drowned rat, she was sure she was a sight to behold. She ran her fingertips through her mane, trying to shake some of the water from it unaware if the male had finally taken a good look at her or not with the scars that draped the right side of her face from a nasty headblow she had taken earlier in the year.

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POSTED: Fri Jan 10, 2020 2:00 pm

The mountain of things that I still regret
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget

OOC: +400 words.

Hibiki could tell the rain was taking its toll on both of them. While it was more so the ride that was doing him in, the lack of some proper protection was not doing him any favors. At least the one thing the female had was the cloak to protect her. Granted, it didn't do much better as the weight of the water would be gathering on it, ending up soaking her underneath the piece of clothing, but it was still better than having most of her body open to the elements like he had.

The dark male had come with his offer, though she had not been one to take it. Part of him couldn't help but offer himself to others, even though they didn't always want his help. The same had been true when it came to Kalypso. He had always been there in case she needed some kind of shoulder to lean on, but that didn't mean she always needed him. She was such a strong woman.

Kadir was too.

Able to get their animals inside and even finding themselves in a much more relaxed state, now it was just a matter of seeing if they could get themselves warmed up. Fire might be a bit hard to make with the lack of resources, but it was better to look around than to just assume such a thing would not be possible to accomplish.

Hibiki's head turned to the sound of something being tossed aside. His gaze shifted to the cloak that now lay along the ground, and then back to the one that was now standing by him. He couldn't believe his eyes. Even in the darkness from the rain clouds above them and with the building they had ducked into, he could see her clear as day. It was her.

But then why did she not remember who he was?

Eyes drifted to the scars along her head, specifically being somewhere further up along her head. Maybe that had something to do with it. It only made him wish he had found her sooner, made sure that something like this wouldn't have happened. Part of him wanted to race over to her, embrace her, and tell her how sorry he was for losing her again in the first place... but then there was another voice in his head. She didn't know who he was anymore, and there was no telling if she might remember in time.

It would only make things more complicated if he gave in to his impulses. Giving a sigh, he stretched out his arms, running one hand along his right shoulder before he moved about the room, "We maybe be able to find some spare, dry pieces of debris we could burn to make a fire."

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The Nemain woman could not help but feel like his intense gaze was on her and it made her fur prickle for many reasons. Something in her body responded to the way he looked at her, but she could not tell why that was exactly. It did not help that she had spent nearly the whole season tucked away in a small cabin in the woods healing with no one to keep her company other than the German woman who found her and attempt to bring her back from almost certain death. Perhaps it was the hormones of another male finally being near in god knows how long and she attempted to push the feelings of excitement and familiarity back down, but they just seemed to bubble and rise inside her.

Kadir's green eyes slowly lifted up to the other's face as he traced the scars over her own with his eyes and she could not help but balk under the scrutiny of his gaze and awkwardly, ran her fingers over the scar on her head not being able to hide it now. His suggestions that maybe they could find some dry debris and wood to start a fire were dismal at best as most of it had appeared to have rotted around them. They may just have to wait out the storm. Her eyes burned intensely as she could not help but feel that sense of familiarity overwhelm her again and her brows knit together in a moment of confusion.

"Argh," she choked, raising her hand to her face as she winced in pain from the sudden head-splitting jolt that tore through her brain. Clamping her eyes shut, she tried to breathe through it, attempting to massage the area around her forehead where the pain radiated to as she tried to ride out the wave of it until it would come to an end once again. The 'attacks' seemed to be fewer and farther between, but sometimes certain smells or sights seemed to send the roaring pain through her head once again and she could not understand why until later when little memories would begin to creep back up. Her legs began to buckle beneath her and she attempted to stumble backward to catch herself against a wall behind her, reaching out blindly with her free hand that was not clasped to the front of her face, she slowly lowered herself onto the cool cement floor. Behind her, Darcy knickered lightly in concern, but could not make it closer to her master due to the debris around them.

"I have been getting headaches a lot recently, sorry, it will pass," she grunted out, barely able to make the words sound comprehensible to the other. Gritting her teeth, her head swam as her brain tugged at old strings damaged from the blow she received, attempting to reconnect them with her present self. Perhaps things that had been long forgotten, perhaps something more recent, whatever it was her body was resisting it. Trying to relax and take a few deep breaths, the pain slowly began to subside to a dull roar in her head. Her dark muzzle raised back up, trying to peel her eyes open to look at who she thought was a stranger quite possibly looking very worried above her.

She pushed her raven mane away from her face, trying to look somewhat normal in the heap of nerves she appeared to be on the floor. Her eyes searched his face for a moment, once again something about him... She could not stop the words from pouring from her mouth, "Do... do we know each other?" she asked, her head tilting to the side as her half bent, doggish ears attempt to perk up at the question she asked of him. "I feel like I know you, but perhaps its a mistake, my brain is a muddied mess of half-remembered things and lost memories," she said, wincing once more as her head fell into her hands. She hoped that maybe he would remember who she was, all she had was her name, and her horse's name, and a few details from Svanja who had known her from a pack named Sapient that felt like a long-forgotten dream. The few details were not very personal, as Svanja and her had not been close - apparently - they could have been complete enemies for all the Ahearne woman knew, but why would she have helped her?

"My name is Kadir Ahearne, and I am afraid my knowledge of my past is very limited at the moment due to some heavy blow I received earlier this summer," she mumbled, hoping she did not overload her new acquaintance, or perhaps old friend with too much information all at once sending him scurrying away from her and testing his lucky better in the deluge outside.

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POSTED: Fri Jan 24, 2020 12:54 am

The mountain of things that I still regret
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OOC: +400 words.

It was not hard to see that she had spotted his gaze lingering on her, probably for far longer than she would have liked. It wasn't his fault that the person he had been searching for all this time was standing in front of him, but had no memory of any time they had spent together. That was probably the thing that stung more than anything.

Instead of letting it hang there for too long, he had turned his attention on the task that was at hand, looking for something to start a fire with. It wasn't looking too good, with either anything he came across either being rotted too far, or that it was wet from the storm. They could probably pull off pieces of wood from the inside, but that might be too much work. He would offer that they just sit together and keep each other warm, but that was once again that impulse of feeling her touch again.

He couldn't do it.. not yet.

Light blue gaze snapped over to her once he heard her voice. She had grunted, then moved her hands to her face. It was as if she had felt a sudden wave of pain, something that was not helping to make the dark male feel any better about this whole situation. Was it an after effect of the hit she had taken to her head? That seemed the most logical, "Are you alright?"

He didn't get too much of an answer before she explained that she had been getting a lot of headaches, ones that would pass in time. Guess that only confirmed what he had thought previously, "It's alright. I'm glad it's nothing too serious." It could have been something much worse.. well, at least worse physically.

Hibiki had moved to once again turn his head away from her, but her words made him stand still. She had a feeling, like she knew him, but she just wasn't too sure. Part of him was hoping that she would ask him that, but now it was a matter of seeing if she would at all remember him. He turned his head back around, smile coming back to his muzzle, "Yes, we do know each other. My name is Hibiki."

She spoke her name, something he already knew, but made it clear that much of her knowledge and memories were nothing more than a blur. Finding the best place he could along the ground, he sat, taking off his wet kimono to set it at his side, "I can guess how you got that blow to the head. I don't know everything, but I can try and fill in any gaps or answer any questions you might have for me."

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