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p tayui; borders

POSTED: Wed Dec 04, 2013 9:13 pm


Attila Aston

she knows these special places well,

I think she rides the Subway too


Attila caved to his own pressure, he wanted comfort and not feeling confident enough to return to AniWaya, he opted to find Vinatta. Like last time he greeted his mother, he was in his four legged form. It was easier to traverse terrain in it, easy to look lowly an pathetic too. The inability to grasp the many bottles of alcohol he hoarded was also a reason. The snowy male had no wish to show up on his mother's doorstep intoxicated.

He called out to her, sitting down in the thin snow blanket while he waited. Blue eyes fidgeted, scanning the horizon for Tayui. The male sighed, taking a deep breath. This ideally wasn't a conversation he wanted to be having. He was so nearly cured before...

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POSTED: Wed Dec 04, 2013 9:49 pm

The winter had been kind to Tayui so far. Her bones craved the snow and now that the temperatures had dropped and hunting was plentiful, she felt alive and warm again. Ice and wind cradled her like a mother would a child and Tayui relished every moment of it. She could still remember the first time Auguste had seen snow and even though he was much older now--nearly a year old!--the memory still brought a smile to her lips.

She was outside scenting for prey when she heard her son's call. It startled her so much that she nearly tripped. Her steps faltered and then once she realized who it was, a wide grin spread across her face. She had not seen Attila since the summer, so this was a welcome surprise.

The journey from the vineyard was short, so she was able to bound to the borders in good time. She arrived with a skip in her step and her tongue lolling out. Attila's hunched stance and his unkempt expression made her pause and she toned down her body language before barking out a greeting.

"Attila! How are you doing, sweetie?" she asked.
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POSTED: Thu Dec 05, 2013 7:05 pm

we need a Claudi-Til thread in Jan or something so he can make frowny faces at Attila's bad life choices XD

He shrugged. A simple, vague gesture. Though he pulled a face at his mother's term of endearment. Some things were less likely to change than others of course. He gave a vague answer too, a simple 'Hmm...' His tail flickered, he crept closer to her, huffing icy clouds. 'AniWaya moved', Attila lamented softly, 'I went to Anathema instead'. How could Claudius be so selfish, the pale creature wondered. He wasn't cruel in reality, Attila just had an unfortunate problem with putting the needs of many before the needs to the few. He said nothing about Tiva, mostly because he didn't see the point in mentioning it. It was a one time thing, and it wasn't as if his sexual misdemeanors were the go to topic when he spoke with his close family.

'I feel like everything's getting worse again...' he admitted quietly.
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POSTED: Thu Dec 05, 2013 7:13 pm

When Attila revealed the source of his distress (or, so Tayui assumed; there might be much more lingering of which she knew and did not know) her first response came, unbidden, and harsh. All she could think of replying with was: ‘so you abandoned your brother when he needed you most?’ But she couldn’t say that. She knew he felt guilty for abandoning the Sequoia Plot and she knew that guilt would continue to punish him. He didn’t need his mother doing the same.

“Why’s it getting worse, sweetie? What’s wrong?” She hoped that perhaps if he explained a bit more, she’d understand the situation better and he would be able to get some of his concerns off his chest. If anything, she only wanted to help. She only ever wanted to help.
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POSTED: Fri Dec 06, 2013 8:32 pm

'How should I know' he said bitterly, but his voice was not aggressive. He lowered his head and shook it softly, 'Everything's wrong'. He couldn't even muster specifics. 'I'm alone, spending all my time drinking. I'm miserable'. He fought to keep curse words out of his mouth. 'I have no status in AniWaya, I try to do my job. But I can't make myself. I have no friends, I don't want to socialise'. He shrugged and let out a soft whine, 'I'm not helping myself and I can't rely on you and Claudius...'

'I want to start over. I want to be a different goddamn person sometimes...'
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POSTED: Thu Dec 12, 2013 7:34 pm

Tayui’s expression hardened. She didn’t like that kind of whining tone, particularly not from her own children. She had raised them better than that. Although her gaze softened when he admitted what was really going on, she wondered if now might be a time for some tough love. She had been patient with him, loving, and forgiving; as every mother should—but she was also here to guide him, not coddle him. And of her children, perhaps he was the one who needed coddling the least—or the most; sometimes, it was hard to tell.

“Sweetie, this isn’t going to be easy. The conflict with Salsola hurt you and I wish it hadn’t, but you’ve been gone from AniWaya and from your family for some time. You’ve been in AniWaya for a few months and that’s going to take time. It’ll hurt for a long time. I’m sorry sweetie.” She couldn’t pretend it just went away or got better. If anything, Attila would have to be the one to fix this. This was his problem and it was a very personal one. Even though she wanted to help, she might not be able to.
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POSTED: Tue Dec 31, 2013 12:23 pm

can't wait for the new year, Attila's gonna grow up for realsies <3 new year, new 'Til

He saw his mother's expression harden, and responded with a slight narrowing of his eyes. A small flash of anger filled him, what reason did she have to be angry? But soon enough it was replaced with self loathing again. Attila lowered himself to the ground and sighed. 'I don't think I can shovel through this crap...' he admitted softly, it wasn't even that he didn't want to, but all in all he didn't want to either. 'I want to run away, again, but that won't solve anything...'

The giant creature rolled his head sideways to regard his mother, 'I don't even know if there is a way to get around this. Because I don't even know what's wrong...'.
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POSTED: Wed Jan 08, 2014 11:35 pm

Tayui had never liked it when Attila picked on his brother, but now, it seemed that he was just as determined to pick on himself. He was a critical boy with a sharp eye and an even sharper tongue, but sadly, these latter two traits were dulled with sadness. His sharpness was a part of who he was and she didn’t enjoy seeing him waste away like this. Even if she scolded him, she still wanted him to be who he was.

“Well, maybe you can and maybe you can’t,” she said, surprising herself by agreeing with him. “Some things you can never really move past. But realizing that you can’t run anymore is a step—and an important one. It took me a year in Jaded Shadows, my first pack over the mountains, before I realized it. Even when I was in the pack, I was still running. I didn’t think anything was wrong, so it took me ages to figure out how to fix it,” she explained. “I don’t know if that helps, but know that I’ll always try to do what I can, in any fashion. I love you, sweetie.”
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POSTED: Fri Feb 07, 2014 7:23 pm

shall we wrap it up? we need to have a thread where Orleans tags along sometime ^^

Attila nodded, 'I'm sorry' though in reality he didn't know what he was sorry for. It just felt appropriate to apologize for whatever reason. He was sure Tayui hadn't banked on having a flop for a son either way. And she was right, he couldn't run. The white creature sighed heavily, 'I suppose' he agree, pulling himself onto his haunches instead of the undignified slump he was in previously. 'I'm in Anathema now, just for a while...' He shrugged, 'I just need a break. It doesn't matter so much if I screw up there, it's not home. I don't care about anyone there...' The reason why he didn't hightail it Vinatta.

'I love you too...' Attila responded softly, he lent in and rested his head against her, an ersatz hug. 'I'll come back when I'm not falling apart' he smiled.
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POSTED: Sun Feb 23, 2014 10:48 pm

Yes, for sure! :D

Tayui nodded, accepting the apology. By now, she wasn’t sure if this was the first or the fifth time he’d apologized to her. Did he normally do that? She honestly couldn’t remember. But what mattered was that he cared enough to say it. Though, that was the thing: he had always cared, but along the lines, something always seemed to get jumbled up. Perhaps she hadn’t been the best role model assembling a motley crew of loners to attack a freaking pack, but she would be best not to judge him for the sins of his mother.

“Well, you always know that you can find a home in AniWaya or here in Vinátta if you need a change of pace,” she said, caution creeping into her tone. She didn’t have anything against Anathema, really, but she knew the sorts that lived there. After all, she had called it her home during one of her darker hours, so she could guess what types he would encounter. Maybe it would help him, but it certainly hadn’t helped her.

“You can come back any time, especially when you’re falling apart. I’ll always help you.” If anything, that was the one thing he could really count on: knowing that no matter what, she’d be there for him.
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