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Ascher

POSTED: Tue Feb 11, 2014 9:41 pm

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Family had been what she had hoped to find when she left Sangi'lak and what she had hoped to give her children by leaving them behind in Vinatta. Never had she been so wrong. Instead of gaining a family, a home and a life with one she loved - she had lost everything. Only now did she realize that she had already had all the things she had been chasing. The fantasy life she had been imagining had already existed and she had lost it all. Granted, it hadn't been perfect, but she had a family, love, friendship and belonging. She had found none of that among The Collective.

The closer she had gotten to Nova Scotia, the better she had felt. When she had first seen the peak of Mt. Oromocto looming in the distance she almost crumbled to her knees. Home, she had thought. She was finally home. Then and there she vowed that she would not live where she could not see the glorious mountain overshadowing the valleys below it ever again. This was where she belonged, this was her home.

Standing on the Vinatta border, though, she began to worry. She had not seen her pups since they had been born. They were three months old now. Old enough to be walking and talking, if they were even alive. Sequoia took in a shaky breath and adjusted the buckle on her fur half-cloak. She had to see them, had to know that they were okay. She lifted her chin and howled for Ascher.

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POSTED: Wed Feb 12, 2014 4:40 am

OOC: Also Optime :3 Feel free to have Bel and Orvar react <3

Ascher squinted as he lifted the quill from the page where it had left a perfect full stop. The Eljun Rikr was in a sombre mood, as he usually was when he was filling in the Almanac – though this particularly entry about the Ausa Vatni was a happy one to inscribe, the pages seemed to be full of loss and sadness. Solieri was the most recent Vinattan to fall prey to the dark forces which seemed to be amassed beyond the borders, and a dull pain throbbed in the copper male's chest as he thought of Saul and his pain. It had to be excruciating.

After the ink had dried and the Almanac had been closed and safely restored to its plinth, Ascher hurried home to see his own small family, hugging them especially tight and admiring their new Frithr beads for the thousandth time. Bel and Orvar were a little over three months old now, and though they remained slightly underdeveloped due to their rocky start in life they were growing quickly. With every fraction of length added to their legs came a broadening of their minds, too; the capacity for more questions, some of which frightened their quiet single parent.

Orvar opened his mouth as if to ask one of those very questions, but Ascher was saved by the howl which rang through the territory. Perhaps saved wasn't quite the right word for it – he certainly didn't appear relieved when he heard the voice. “Whosat Daddy?” inquired Orvar, obviously picking up on the fact that the call was for Ascher. “Someone who I think would like to see you very much,” was the shaky reply. Asch chivvied his children towards the front door and out into the frosty air, glancing at them more than was strictly necessary as they made their way towards the borders. Bel, as usual, danced out in front while Ascher and Orvar trudged through the snow at a steadier pace.

Ascher wore a look of deep thought and worry as they walked. Now he was the one full of questions – what had happened to the Nomad Collective to bring her back here? Would she be pleased with how Ascher had cared for her children whilst she had been gone? Was X'yrin with her and would all the troubles return with her? Or was this just a quick visit? The man's head buzzed uncomfortably. As usual, though, he would give Sequoia the chance to explain for herself. She had always made things seem simple.

Ascher did not expect the wealth of emotion which swelled in him when he saw his former lover standing there, looking worn from the journey but otherwise healthy. “Sequoia,” he breathed the name which had rarely been uttered since she had left. There was no golden figure beside her. “Go on, kids. Go to your Mother,” he urged Bel and Orvar in a strained voice, his eyes glued to his own feet as he tried to work out what he should say or do now.

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POSTED: Wed Feb 12, 2014 12:24 pm

Everyone needs something,
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She folded her arms in front of her stomach after she called for him and then immediately moved them again to readjust the fur draped around her shoulders. As the minutes passed she continued to fidget, one moment running a hand through her hair and the next smoothing out her fur. But when she could make out the approaching shapes across the land, she stopped. One hand clasped the opposite arm and a smile gently formed on her lips as she watched the two small shapes, accompanied by one larger one, make their way toward her. They were both alive and well.

A lump of emotion formed in her throat and she tried to swallow it down before they reached her. Her gaze went from one tiny body to the other until their father spoke and she looked up at him as he breathed out her name. "Ascher." She replied in the same breathless tone before he spoke to their pups and her attention again focused on them. She tried to smile reassuringly past the flood of emotion. Her hands dropped to her sides and she bent down, getting on one knee to be closer to their level.

"Bel." She spoke softly, as if talking loudly would shatter this precious moment. She reached a hand out toward the girl who looked so much like her father and Bel took a hesitant step forward before looking back at Ascher for reassurance. Sequoia's soft golden gaze then went to the darker pup who took after neither of his parents. "Orvar." The boy stayed next to his father but looked at her in awe. The mother that they had only ever heard about in stories was here, in the flesh, and they were not sure how to react. It was okay, she told herself, they would warm up. There were many days to come for them to get to know her and her to get to know them.

As she continued to look them over, amazed at how much they had grown, she noticed the pendants around their necks. Ascher had told her about his own pendant once, the doe for his gentle nature and this strange symbol, that now adorned her children's necks too, for peace. A peace that had never existed between their packs. Now, though, things could be different. They could be together as a family.

"I am so sorry that I left you..." She whispered to them. "But I'm back now and I promise I won't leave you again." As she finished speaking her soft eyes went up to the tan male, wordlessly expressing that her promise and apology were meant for him as well.

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POSTED: Thu Feb 13, 2014 8:47 am

At first, when he saw one hand clutching her other arm, Ascher thought Sequoia had been wounded but as he neared the she-wolf he decided that maybe it was just her way of holding herself together in what had to be a bittersweet moment. The scholar's imagination failed to grasp how it must feel for the woman seeing her children for the first time in three months. Ascher's concern-laden gaze lowered to his son and daughter as Bel took hesitant steps forward before looking over her shoulder. Confused blue eyes met Ascher's and he nodded, conjuring up a weak smile of encouragement.

Secretly, the scholar was glad to have his quiet progeny remaining beside him, though it wasn't exactly fair on Orvar to use him as a security blanket. Bending down to Orvar's level, Ascher gave his son a gentle nudge. “Don't gawk, Orv',” he whispered. “It's all right.” Asch felt like a hypocrite as he straightened up and his eyes locked onto Sequoia, who was speaking softly to the children. Making promises.

Technically Sequoia had never made any promises to Ascher, nor to the children, so she hadn't broken any. That was what logic told him, but his heart told him that she shouldn't have left. Worse, it couldn't be changed – but Sequoia was back now. Back and looking less like the confident, powerful woman Ascher had known. “What changed?” he wondered aloud, not meaning to voice his confusion quite so directly and looking away apologetically afterwards.

Bel was at Sequoia's paws now, looking up at the cloak she wore with a tilted head. “You're stayin'?” the little girl inquired warily before looking back to Ascher again. The Eljun raised his brows helplessly. He felt for Sequoia, being pinned into answering like this, but these were the sort of bold questions which the Mother needed to answer. She had always been bolder than Ascher and in a way it was bold of her to return. Still, Ascher wanted to know what had happened to the Nomad who had left with X'yrin for The Collective. The copper and cream Stormbringer felt his heartbeat accelerate as the family collectively awaited a reply.

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POSTED: Thu Feb 13, 2014 9:04 pm

Everyone needs something,
everyone wants love

With the reassuring look and encouraging words from their father, the two children took a few more steps toward her. Her eyes continued to take them in, not wanting to miss a single detail. Blue and green stared right back at her, their eyes reflecting the gold of hers and gray of her pelt. There was so much that she wanted to ask them, about their lives here in Vinatta and everything that they had experienced and felt these past three months, but she did not know where to begin and the words stuck on her heavy tongue. She swallowed and looked up at Ascher when he started to speak again.

The question struck her heart like a blade and she choked out the answer immediately. "Everything," was her reply, delivered as a sharp whine. She lifted her hand to her face, not wanting him to see the rush of emotion there as everything came rushing back. Her joy at leaving with X'yrin to find a new home among the collective and begin their life together had been incredibly short-lived. The welcome they had received had not been what the ashen female had been expecting and each day after she had only felt more ostracized and alone. She pulled away from everyone, even from X'yrin, even from the wolf that she had once been. The golden queen had not taken kindly to her sudden lack of affection and had sought the attention she craved from others. But the real blow, the real catalyst for her return, had been the death of her mother. It had shattered her in ways she did not know were possible and in the aftermath she had craved the family she had left behind more than ever.

Her hand slipped slowly from her face when she felt the soft breath against her paws, followed by the bold question of the youth. Sequoia reached out toward her daughter and gently brushed her white cheek with the tips of her fingers. A sob rose in her, bending her at the waist as it forced itself out her mouth and she pulled her hand away, curling it into her chest. She took in a deep, shaky breath before she exhaled her answer. "Yes." The smile that crept unto her face did not match her watery eyes but she tried to maintain her composure for them. Falling apart now would only frighten them. "I may not stay here with you in Vinatta but, if I don't, I'll be staying with your neighbors in New Dawn and I will visit you every single week. Have you heard about New Dawn?" With her question she looked up at Ascher, wondering what he had told their pups about their neighbors and what he had told them about her old pack. She did not believe that he would speak badly about them, or about anyone, but she still waited expectantly for her daughter's answer.

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POSTED: Fri Feb 14, 2014 11:07 am

Sequoia had always managed to have a powerful effect on Ascher, from her strong stance to the way she spoke. He could feel a faint bubbling of anger in his stomach when the woman let out the single word reply to his question, and again he noted the lack of a golden-furred companion next to his ex-lover. Reading between the lines, rightly or not, X'yrin had changed. That was the root Ascher's anger stemmed from – not that Sequoia had left, but that the family she had left for had let her down. He had practically cowered in front of that Nomad female, begging to see his own children, and she wasn't even by Sequoia's side now. Ascher let out a long breath, watching Orvar take a few tottering steps forward before looking up to Sequoia's face and nodding. “Same here.”

Perhaps that wasn't the best way to let Sequoia know that Ascher had moved on; it was vague and perhaps she wouldn't read into the words that much. The copper-coated male was struggling to say anything else. He listened as the familiar voice addressed their daughter, tried to let it wash over him in the comforting way it once had, but it now felt ever so slightly jarring after the heavy sob which felt to the Stormbringer man like a jolt to his heart. Ascher wouldn't dream of turning Sequoia away, but he had finally stepped away from his bitterness over her leaving, only for her to show up again. He forced himself to think of their children. They needed their Mother as well as their Viking family.

New Dawn was mentioned and Asch thought of Zalen, a wolf whom he had found likeable – who had sired children with X'yrin, no less. Not that that was of great note to Ascher. For the first time he pitied Sequoia and he was near horrified to feel that he was lucky in comparison, with his multitudes of siblings and cousins. He should never have blamed her for leaving and he was trying his best not to blame her for coming back. But when Ascher looked upon the ashen woman with the sunlit eyes he no longer felt that flame in his chest rearing up. He felt nervous and he fidgeted with his Frithr beads.

“Noo Dawn had a party wiv Vinatta,” Orvar piped up, his voice slow and shy. Ascher nodded – confirmation and encouragement. “I had the pleasure of meeting Zalen not long after you.. well, he was a very likeable fellow. New Dawn, Vinatta and Casa had a little get together recently - trying to forge bonds, I think. Of course, Colibri's daughter lives there and Palaydrian is a former member.. it would be good to have you around, Sequoia.”

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POSTED: Sat Feb 15, 2014 11:56 am

Everyone needs something,
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His reply baffled her. Perplexed, she looked up at him briefly, wondering what he meant. Leaving him with the pups had surely changed everything and maybe that was all he meant. But for a moment she wondered if it was more than that. She thought about how it must have been for him when she left with another and dumped their pups on him. It must have felt awful. Their tryst had been brief and intense and she wondered for the first time if his feelings for her had faded in the time that she was gone. She was not entirely sure how she felt about him so it shouldn't have been surprising that his own feelings were muddled. But they would both have to wait to find out what the other wanted now that she had returned. It was not something she wanted to discuss in front of their children.

So, she pushed the thoughts aside as Orvar spoke up, telling her that the two packs had recently had a party. Again, she was confused. She looked back up to Ascher for clarification just as he started to speak. Her heart jumped as he skipped over the phrase neither of them wanted to hear out loud - after you left. There were three months of after you left's to hear about, not just from him but from New Dawn as well. It would not be the last time, she thought, that the phrase would be skipped over and implied. And there was no one to blame but herself.

She tried to push back the guilt as Ascher explained about the party but it was only the last words that she heard clearly. A shaky smile lifted her lips and she nodded, not sure what to say in reply. Instead, she rose to her feet, adjusting her cloak as she did. "Would it be okay if I...?" She hesitated and gestured toward the invisible border line, asking wordlessly if she could cross. Normally, she wouldn't have asked to be invited into another's territory without an invitation but she figured that the pups would be more comfortable in their own territory. "We... have a lot to talk about."

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POSTED: Sun Feb 16, 2014 10:38 am

OOC: We could end this one here or you could post once more? Lemme know ^^

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Ascher's fingers wrapped loosely around the Frithr beads which hung against his chest. He could feel his own heartbeat through his fist, pounding away as though trying to run from the situation. He was able to look into Sequoia's golden eyes, but not without pangs of guilt racking his bones, causing his fingers to clench against the small wooden carvings. He needed to say more, to properly explain the mixed feelings he had, but he wanted to give Sequoia a chance to properly see her children; she had laid eyes upon them, yes, but if she felt anything as strong for them as Ascher did then she would have been overwhelmed at their faces. It would take a little longer to get used to their voices, their way of moving – everything that Sequoia had missed.

In order for her to properly catch up with Bel and Orvar Sequoia would need to cross the invisible line into the Viking territory. Although Sangi'lak was no more, several members of Ascher's family held bad memories of the pack, which couldn't have been sweetened by Sequoia leaving the pups to be with X'yrin. To Ascher it was pointless laying blame now – Sequoia had made a choice, and the fact that it had gone wrong for her was punishment enough. But he had sworn to himself not to turn his back on his pack or his family as he might have once done for her.

“Y-yes. I just need to call someone.. to give the official say-so.” A pained expression pulled at the copper Eljun's face as he scented the air, making sure he didn't have to disturb anyone needlessly if Saul was already out and about. Having someone beyond parents and children there seemed as if it would make things feel more real. “I hope you understand,” he murmured, his ears folding back as he let his gaze drop to the children, sat at their Mother's feet, once more.

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