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- Iskata Sadira - 10-29-2008 Iskata had somehow managed to find herway up into the hayloft, more out of hiding from her responsiblities than from the need to be alone. She knew of a few who would bicker and nag at the extremely pregnant female for having even attempted to scale the heights in her current state but right now she really didn't care. She'd flopped down into the warm hay, the crisp summer scent enveloping her as she sighed and let her mind wander towards broken memories of summers past, of fireflies and lightning storms, meadows filled with moonlight and the sound of the ocean in her ears with the rising sun. The smile seemed to linger on her lips while she fell into a world she couldn't return to with faces that were no more. It was heartache but no one could argue any different with the girl.. she couldn't let those figures from her past go.. no matter how long ago. The ivory pelt of her mother like a ghost in those dreams, the greyscale apothacary and her lost friends and family.. even the midnight pelt of a dear friend she'd never had the chance to apologize to.. She whimpered softly in her sleep, the sweet pain of those lost haunting her dreamworld wasn't enough to bring her to wake and she wouldn't have wanted it to. Where else would she have been able to see them all together again. - Jefferson Soul - 10-29-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 10-29-2008 She'd been wrapped up warm in her dreams, laughter and job enveloping her as she finally relaxed for once, forgetting the stress and worry of a mother, a packmate and a leader. There was nothing on her mind for once except the hazy world of pictures that lurked within her lucid dreams. The strained warth that crept through the doubledoors of the hayloft as the sunlight cut across her pelt was just enough for her to feel like summer was back again if only for a moment. Her coat had already begun the strange change for the winter months as it thickened and the silver and cream seemed to overtake the strands of gold in her pelt. She'd known few others who went through such a dramatic change in appearance with the seasons but it had never bothered her. She still blended well with the world outside, especially in the morning with the frost nipping at the gold bleached fields. A voice seemed to dance in her dreams, a memory of her puppyhood so long ago. She'd been older than them, nearing the time when she'd be able to take rank with the rest of the pack and not held back. The loud and happy cries of her brother's children scampering in the meadow had woken her up, she'd remembered a tiny Laruku and Maluki chasing one another in the tall grasses as she watched them with a slight annoyance in her eyes at having been woken, yet she just rolled over again and decided to ignore the boys, hoping sleep would come again. One of the boys had discovered her sunning on the alpha stone and suddenly she was out of breath and glaring face to face with Maluki. In her sleep she called out in annoyance. "Maluki! Get off me!" She might have been his aunt but she was not the aufpasser. Getting up and dumping the youngster in the dirt the older near yearling decided it was time to leave the meadow and move on... but the voice still followed her. Blinking at the sunshine that was shining through the open door she yawned and realized that the voice wasn't one from her dreams. She rolled over and peered down through the entrance from ground level, realizing who it was as the last words he spoke greeted her. Trouble filled her eyes as she found it more than passing strange that Jefferson had come looking for the owner of one of her dream's memories. She yawned wide and crossed her arms under her chin as she replied slightly sleepily. "Maluki was my newphew, who.. sent you?" she was slightly confused, she hadn't seen Maluki since she'd been a yearling, the last time she'd even really spoke of him was when she'd been bickering and arguing with Laruku about the truth of his past. She hadn't seen nor heard of hide nor hair of any of her brother's family except Colibri as of lately. "His mother was a member of Phoenix Valley, Colibri Soul, though she left not long past..." Iskata had been hurt by the disappearance of her friend but she realized that perhaps Laruku had been right once when he said packmembers came and went like the fogs and mists in the lands of Clouded Tears. Perhaps she'd been lucky that more stayed than drifted in their lands now. 563 - Jefferson Soul - 10-30-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 10-30-2008 The troubled look remained plasted across her face as Jefferson spoke on, she realized that there was no way she was going to distract him from the conversation and even though she had no real clue why he was so demanding on picking her mind the Matriarch sighed and rubbed her eyes before giving in. "Alright.. I don't know why it's so important to you Jefferson but give me a moment and we'll talk." She disappeared from view once more as she tried to gather herself and shake the sleep that had claimed her for the better part of the morning. Finally with a jaw cracking yawn she slowly made her way down the ladder, her breath coming in huffs and puffs as she settled down against the wall of the barn in a pile of hay that had been overflow from the loft above. Panting slightly as she turned back to the scarred male, slightly puzzled still as to who had sent the male thisway to pick at her mind about memories from so long ago. "Jefferson.. I know Maluki from a long time ago... I'm not certain if I can give you what you want to know.. but I can try." She studied his face, so serious from the gruff relaxed male she'd come to know. The silvery gold woman wanted to know what had changed him so quickly to this mess of a beast before her but if talking to him of the past which she'd once belonged to brought back the fellow she knew then she would. Picking at the hay she had plopped down into she spoke softly, trying to recall everything she could that would help her friend out. "Maluki Soul was born to Acid, my older half brother and Colibri Soul. He was born into the same pack I was, Clouded Tears. Over the mountain where the wildfire devistated the lands.. there was once a place where the fogs and mists seemed to hang all the time, haunting and yet at the same time it was a comforting place.. like arms were always enveloped around you.. protecting you. Everyone always returned at one point or another.. I don't know how many times I had." She laughed sadly as she thought of Clouded Tears and her past that was no more than memories. ""I think I was about three moons old when I first learned I was an aunt. Our alpha Kiriska had passed on after giving birth. Siondaite, our Aufpasser was dragging my sorry ass back to the packlands after I'd snuck after her visiting her old clan. I wasn't exactly sure what was going on except everyone was upset." She shook her head at the thought. "My older brother Acid and his mate had taken the only surviving puppy, Laruku, on as one of their own..." Her ears were pinned back in discomfort as she struggled to remember her fuzzy fading memories of so long ago. She raised her blue sun shot orbs up to protest the whole thing. "Jefferson, I don't understand.. Why do you care?" She didn't like reliving these memories from a land she could never return to. Laruku banning her from the pack once before had hurt enough, the fact that their world no longer existed now was far worse than the banishment from before. Her ears were cloudy with pain as she sighed. She already had a feeling who'd sent her own packmember this way and she'd figured she probably deserved it but it didn't hurt none the less. She picked apart the grains from the grass as she shook her head. "Laruku did it didn't he, told you to ask me.." She couldn't figure out why Laruku had told him to come ask her, but when she raised her face back up to look at him it suddenly clicked into place. Why she'd been so distracted by his scent at the borders, why she'd felt like she'd known him before, the damn green that gazed at her said it all as she looked beyond his eyes at the face. "Maluki?" She said with disbelief in her voice. It couldn't be true, things like this just didn't happen did they. A voice in the back of her head laughed at her. She knew they did, she knew she'd taken another name once.. why couldn't Maluki have.. 729 - Jefferson Soul - 10-31-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 11-03-2008 Iskata wasn't for certain what exactly to think of this ghost that had appeared on her doorstep, no, that she'd invited into her own home without realizing. Laruku must be laughing so, she realized as the thoughts and memories of her own past tumbled around in her mind. She wasnt' really certain where to start. She flicked her ears forward though as the scarred member of her pack seemed to laugh suddenly, a short and worn sound. The words that he granted her made her frown suddenly. Jefferson, no, his name was Maluki, and he was her nephew, almost had the story right.. even if he was being sarcastic. "Laruku isn't your brother. He's my cousin, Kiriska's son. She was my father's sister." She paused a moment before correcting herself. "Well, he's not your blood brother, but he might as well be a brother just the same.. he was raised as your sibling." She went quiet for a moment, forgetting just how tried and twisted their family relations really were. When he cleared his throat to break off the moment she raised her sun shot eyes up to gaze into his face, one that had seem more troubles that he probably deserved, but one she wished she knew. "Acid.. had risen to become Cere's beta.. one day he just disappeared with Laruku.. and even then he walked out of everyone's life. He left Laruku alone in the middle of nowhere. How he survived I'm not certain, but Acid hasn't shown his face since." She wasn't for certain how she'd even feel if her half brother did appear again. Hell, she'd hate to know how Maluki and Laruku would feel.. though she highly doubted that Laruku would feel a damn thing anymore. She turned her eyes off to the side as she thought about the other parent in the relationship that had been the start to Maluki's life. "Colibri Soul..." she chuckled softly at the thought of it all, how it was almost funny, yet she doubted in his eyes it would seem thatway. "Colibri actually lived here in Phoenix Valley.. she departed barely a moon's time before you arrived. She's probably still here roaming these lands. She had another litter after yours.. Mew, Melisadra and Haku.. Two of them are alive.. they live in Dahlia de Mai with my daughter Firefly and neice Cercelee." She let her eyes travel off in a somewhat guilty manner as she watched her fingers twist the little pieces of hay into shapeless blobs. "You probably don't even want to think about how you fit into this whole picture.. our family is farspread but quite large." She lifted those sorrowfilled eyes up to gaze at Maluki as she was faced with the final question, the one she really didn't have an answer for. "Like everyone else, Maluki disappeared into the mist and fog.. you're the only one who can tell us where he's been.." She said softly, her voice filled with apology that she didn't have the real answer to the question that was probably the most important. - Jefferson Soul - 11-11-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 11-13-2008 Iskata wasn't sure how she felt at being the one to be doing all the question answering, it was almost like a repeat of having to explain why someone had to die to a young pup who didn't understand, or where puppies come from. The conversation wasn't embarassing or heart wrenching for her like the others could be, but the aftermath one normally was stuck with felt the same. She raised her eyes up as Jefferson spoke, the questions coming again as she tried to find answered in the middle of what little she actually knew. "Colibri was alive and well last I saw her, a little sad, but she's somewhere around here." She missed his mother, she didn't want to admit it to him, but Colibri had been one of the few wolves that were really left from their old pack that she'd spent time around.. the rest were just as scattered as leaves on an autumn day. The reaction Jefferson had to his father though made her eyes flash for a moment. She didn't feel like the scarred up newly rediscovered nephew was a threat to her, but it still showed that she didn't know everything. She sighed softly and admitted. "Yes, your father just.. left. He wasn't the first and he wouldn't be the last though." She knew she sounded bitter, but it was the truth. She couldn't really think of many of the youth she'd known that had had a real father figure around for long. She shook her head and smirked at what Jefferson had revealed. "Well, you're not the first with blood on their hands either... If he's alive he'll find hisway back.." She tried to sound reassuringly, she knew the way things had been for those from Clouded Tears. They always come back.. but this wasn't Clouded Tears and she wasn't sure if the same would apply here. Iskata couldn't help but smile as her nephew tried to explain who he'd met from their family and who he hadn't. Sorrow flashed in her eyes as she thought of her mother, whom Cercelee was like a ghostly image of. She lowered her head a moment as her fingers ran across her belly, trying to push away the pain of losing her mother, the guilt of not even being there.. everything was too much for her.. just when she'd thought she'd buried it all it would returned. In a moment's time she raised her eyes back up to look at Jeffers, his state seemed to reflect how she felt somehow as she spoke softly. "There's more of us around.. if you wanted to meet them. Most weren't around to remember or know of Clouded Tears and our past lives.. but you do have a large family.. even if you don't want us.. we're still around." She ran her fingers through her mane as she tried to answer the last question, though she knew she wasn't the best to answer that. "You left.. shortly after mother died. I was already gone before she'd passed on.. if I'd had a choice I wouldn't have been.." she said wistfully. Of all the things she'd regretted the day she'd approached Ahren on the beach had been the one that had turned her life on end and she wished there was a way to rewrite it all.. but that was then and now.. was too late to think of such. She smiled though, thinking back on who Maluki was as she answered. "You were.. one of those few.. good guys." She knew it sounded pathedic but it was the truth, then again when you were that young.. there wasn't really much choice.. no one was ever born cruel or evil.. time just changed people. Obviously her nephew had been changed through the times, but so had she. "The question is.. who do you want to be?" she asked honestly as she gazed at the man before her. - Jefferson Soul - 11-15-2008 [html]
- Iskata Sadira - 11-16-2008 Iskata didn't reply when he spoke up, both their worlds seemed to have crashed to a hault here in this moment and it would take time for them to be rebuilt. She was thinking of what he'd said and who he was and yet she came to no new conclusion of the whole situation. She just shook her head She didn't want his apology and she didn't want him to believe he had to get to know any of them.. or even admit to them who he was or if he was relative or not. She smiled weakly as he granted her his decision and what she already knew. "Everybody changes.. what's happened between then and now.. it doesn't matter." She reenforced the words he'd already said. "Jefferson is who you are now.. no sense changing the world because of something that can't be rewritten anyways." She knew she was a hypocrite eve saying that, so many times she'd wished to rewrite her world.. but it wasn't her life being discussed at the moment so it didn't matter in the long run. She raised her eyes to look at him as she slowly drew a breath through her teeth. "Sooo..am I allowed to go back to sleep.." she teased. "Or do I have duties and responsiblites you're going to remind me to attend to." She wasn't ending the discussion, but he'd came to the conclusion of what he wanted from this world it seemed and she was fine with his choice. She didn't believe that it really mattered either way.. atleast she knew now what had happened to the nephew from so long ago.. "I'll keep this our secret.. if you want it to remain that." She didn't think that anyone would really care, but there was always a bad seed in every bunch and she didn't feel the need to raise fuss unless it was needed. Right now it wasn't and if Jefferson wanted the world to know who he once was, that was his business not hers. She wasn't even awake enough to want to shout it from the rooftops anyways. There was a warn dry nest of hay calling her name and she wanted to find herway back to it as soon as possible.. until someone else came to gawk at her massive belly atleast. - Jefferson Soul - 11-16-2008 [html]
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