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- Haku Soul - 01-28-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 01-28-2009 Firefly had heard the sounds of another moving in the house, she'd lifted her head to the sounds, half awake as the scent of her mate seemed to appear out of nowhere, then following said scent was the male himself. Her hazy eyes seemed to clear instantly as she couldn't help it as her heckles began to rise. Those jade jewels followed the frame of her mate as he stood in the doorway watching her. When he spoke her name she rose up slowly, her forelegs moving over the small forms of their children as she silently studied him. There was something different in the male, something she had rarely seen and yet there didn't seem to be any trickery to the way he was acting. She herself was unsure of how she could even possibly be a mother to these puppies, be a mother they deserved but she was going to try. She had no clue if he was willing to try and be a father to them or if he was just there to take away the life she'd brought forth into the world. When he asked if they had been given names yet she watched him quietly still for a moment before sighing and answering. "No.. I wasn't for certain if they'd live." She had already lost one of the puppies and she had no clue how to tell if a puppy was strong and healthy, all they did was squeak and whimper and eat and sleep. She'd spent hours studying the tiny tails and stubby noses and yet she still had no clue if they would live to see tomorrow. She lowered her body back down again as she curled up around the two crying babies as she waited, wondering if Haku was here to attempt end their lives. Would the question Coli had presented her with come into play over their own children. She was loyal to her mate but she would not watch him end the lives of her children without a fight.. though she was a little baffled on how that came to be at this moment. - Haku Soul - 01-29-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 01-29-2009 Firefly was slightly confused at the emotions that were surging through her body as she watched her mate with cold eyes. She had no clue why he was there besides the fact that he lived in the house but the room she was hiding in was in no way close to any room he normally occupied. She lowered her head down next to the children as she tried to hush their cries and nudge them closer to her belly where food and shelter were both available. Her eyes turned back to him as he spoke, she wasn't for certain if she believed him or not. "Can I trust you on that.." she asked as she watched the male, not moving from her position as the puppies were beating their little heads against her body before finally quieting down for the time. She looked down to them, the confusion showing in her eyes as she tried to understand how she'd wanted them dead when she realized they were to come and now that they were here she'd protect them with her own life. The way of things was strange. She just sighed softly and let it be at that. The sudden movement from Haku made her shift her gaze back towards the male as he seemed to be trying to look past her at the small figures she was protecting. She watched him until he finally broke down and spoke. She wasn't sure of what to say at first but after a moment she just nodded, she was tired of all the fighting and arguing. She was young and didn't want to feel alone in this. They would never be a perfect family or a happy home but she didn't want to be alone and if he wanted to try again she wasn't going to stop him. The two needed al lthe help they could get(from eachother) to make it through this. - Haku Soul - 01-31-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 02-01-2009 Her eyes flicked back and forth between the curious male and the small puppies at her side. She was unsure of her own emotions and now adding Haku's unreadable eyes and still figure to the mix wasn't helping the lady at all. She was tense and nerve wrecked as she waited to see just what her mate would do. She'd had slight hopes that after the children were brought into this world that perhaps once more they'd find some sort of forgiveness but she'd known that slight hope was far fetched and she'd probably do better to find a replacement father for the two budding lives at her side. Too bad she'd picked the biggest baddest bastard to be her mate and he'd probably take offence to that notion. She forgot about the children for a moment while her eyes moved to the male as he moved to settle in the room with her and their offspring. While he was arranging himself she felt her tail nervously flitting back and forth as she watched his every move. Once he'd found himself the perfect position she lowered her head, the sigh on her ears made her shift as she realized she was causing him more irritation at not showing him the small rats he so wanted to see. She kept herself close to their forms but let him get a closer glance while she stretched out her long limbs, her toes brushing his form before she relaxed again. Firefly stared down at the small children as Haku spoke of their health as she growled softly. "Did the third look heathy enough to you too?" She knew in the views of the pack that she was lucky enough to have had the two survive, but in her own eyes she'd failed. She had made the choice to place one life above another and in the end she had lost the gamble. She glanced back to Haku as she answered sharply. "Two boys, the girl died, lucky enough for you." she snapped as she stared at him. She hadn't brought up the subject of his oldest daughter but she would let him know that she knew the little dark secret he'd tried to hide for so long. - Haku Soul - 02-05-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 02-07-2009 Firefly felt a flash of guilt when She'd once more driven Haku away. She sat there a moment staring down at the two children as she could hear his paws carrying him away and into the kitchen. She swallowed and closed her eyes a moment before removing herself from around the puppies before carfully pulling the deerskin over their small forms to keep them warm. The emerald eyed woman looked back at them a moment before following her mate into the kitchen. She sat there watching him from the doorway before she spoke up softly. "What are we doing Haku?" she asked. All they ever seemed to do was fight and bicker anymore. There was reason of course but it just seemed to be cascading into a waterfall that they would never be able to get out from unless they started swimming for shore soon. Her eyes glanced away as she seemed to have found herself uncomfortable for once in the presence of the male. She couldn't deny him access to his children and they did need to be named but she just felt so out of place at the moment. - Haku Soul - 02-09-2009 Once he was there, he realized that there was no way he would be able to keep anything down if he tried to eat something. This was not only about Firefly either. He knew that all in all, they had all had their reasons to doubt him. Yet, it had shook the male to the core those days ago when he had entered the birth scene and seen the Dahlia members' reactions to his presence. He was so fucking disappointed that he could not shake it away like he did with most things. More and more often he got the fact that he was unwanted confirmed straight in his face. If he had not begun to create ties and friendships in the pack, it would have been much easier to handle, but Haku had grown roots all over Souls, especially in Dahlia. The fact that the pack still disapproved of him and saw him as a threat to the pack's own members, that stung more than anything. When had he ever let Dahlia de Mai down? Maybe he had done some things to certain pack members, but in the majority of the cases it had been mental pain. All in all, he had not intended to hurt Firefly. It had just happened, and now it was all lost. He could understand it, but he did not want to. The male turned around as the female's voice sounded from the kitchen entrance. He suppressed a sigh before it could announce its own existence. He did not know what they were doing. Firefly had been loyal to him as far as he was aware of, and he knew too well that this was the result of his fuck ups. He had never wanted it to be this way, had never intended anything. Haku was a simple animal, and he had never trained himself up to resist natural urges as they came up, because he had never needed to do such a thing as a loner. I know I have done so much wrong, but I honestly don't know how to fix it. Could their mateship ever become even close to normal again? There was no point in keeping the title as one half of a whole if they kept going like this. The thought itself should have been able to fill Haku up with the incoming taste of delicious freedom again, but it was not as sweet as he had imagined all these months. The two boys were his as well, and even though they were still unwanted in his heart, it did not mean that he would discard them in any way. Haku was not a purebred monster. He too had been small and filled with innocence. It was age and corruption that had made him choose the path and in the end made him into what he was today. - Firefly Sadira - 02-14-2009 She didn't want to be the one to say I told you so but he'd created this whole mess, he'd dug his grave and now that he was being forced to lay in it he ddin't seem to like the feeling. Her emerald eyes watched him as he just stood there. She wasn't exactly certain what was going through his head but she'd seen the look slapped across his maw earlier that week when the puppies had arrived into the world. Perhaps in some small way he hadn't deserved the attitude the women of the pack had met him with but there were things in this world that males would never understand.. what he'd walked into was just one of those many scenes in life. She wasn't going to be the one to try and explain the workings of the woman's ways to the disappointed Lillium. When his words hit her she couldn't help the flare of emotions that sparked in her heart as she took a step back from her mate. She was silent a moment longer before she spoke frankly. "You can stop while you're ahead, before you lose everything.." she felt like spatting the words in his face but she only spoke the truth, not nasty overture or anger added this time. "Unless you feel there's nothing left to lose." The words she spoke hurt but she wasn't going to let the man she called her mate see that. She wouldn't let him see how he hurt her so, though he already knew he'd repeatedly burned her. Her eyes turned away from Haku as she just shook her head and walked back through the door and to where their children waited helplessly for her return. She didn't even want to start to think about the male she'd left behind to seemed to be having trouble figuring out just what he was going to do or not do with everything he'd already screwed up. She just shook her head and curled up around the two nameless boys before she laid her head down, her normally walled up heart heavy. She was through fighting for him, if this was what their lives were going to be like she would make it easier for him if he wasn't going to fight his own battle for once. - Haku Soul - 02-16-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 02-17-2009 She was weary in more ways than one. The male who was so much every part of her, every passion and dark spark had torn her to bits emotionally and mentally, if he meant it or not she wasn't for certain on some parts. She didn't turn back again to look to see what might be lurking in those orbs as she turned circles around the two tiny forms before settling down next to them. Almost as soon as she'd dropped down beside them the small boys had woken and snuggled up close to her belly for another feeding. Her emerald eyes studied the two figures as finally the paws of her mate sounded on the floor. She lifted her head as his voice called out, a name was given to her, for one of the boys it seemed. She flicked an ear to the side as she thought about the name. She'd known a fellow named Conor when she'd lived among the clan in Eire, he'd been a bard and a grand singer. She'd liked him well enough when he sang and spoke of the tales of the dark ones. She had never been sure if the stories were real or not but that was the secrets of legends. She smiled slightly, knowing the male was trying to wiggle back into her good graces but she didn't care, it was easier with him there than the friction and anger that ran between them lately. "I like that.." She glanced at him a moment before turning to look back to the boys. Firefly was quiet a moment before finally deciding. "What about Emwe.." She wasn't even certain where she'd heard the name before but it had stuck in her mind. She ran her nose over the backs of the boys before looking back to Haku "Which one do you want to be named Conor.." she asked quietly. She didn't want either of them to hold the Sadira name, she was being selfish but she'd wanted the small girl who'd never made it to be the only Sadira, even when Haku hadn't wanted the puppies the boys still would have held his surname.. Now though it was painful that she'd lost the little girl she still didn't want the boys to have the name. - Haku Soul - 02-17-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 02-20-2009 Firefly stared down at the small forms as Haku seemed to come to accept the small bodies laying beside her. She studied their markings, so similar and yet so different all to her. When Haku came over to decide which would bare the names she kept her eyes half closed until the small form he touched with his nose squeaked. Her eyes flashed open a moment but quickly it was resolved as the childen went back to feeding and this time it seemed with a name all his own. Conor, his father had decided to call him as Firefly smiled down at the two boys who were hogging away at the constant supply of food they had right before their noses. She shook her head down at the two little piglets and made a face at their feeding. "Ok you carefree little piggies. One day you'll have to live up to your names now that you belong to this pack.. and to our clan." She glanced at Haku as she smiled slightly before leaning her head on her paws. When the words of her mate met her ears she couldn't help but flick one back in doubt. She wasn't for certain yet if she could believe her mate, knowing now that he'd had a chance to be a father before, even if she didn't know the whole story she would hold judgement for another time. Her eyes looked to his again as he grinned in such a silly manner down at the two boys. It entered her mind that perhaps he was excited for the fact of having sons, males seemed to always want their own miniture shadows, but she hoped for a second that the two figures weren't to be miniture anythings of any blood relative. She nodded quietly as she admitted. "I hope you can.." She still wasn't sure of her own thoughts of motherhood but it seemed that a lot of them didn't require thinking so she didn't have to worry as much, instead it seemed that she was gifted with the joys of worrying twice as much over how her mate would feel and act around the small new bundles. - Haku Soul - 02-21-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 02-25-2009 Firefly was quiet as the children beat their tiny heads against her belly in a race to get to their dinner. She tried to keep from smiling at the stubborn energetic forms next to her as Haku's body joined her once more next to the puppies. She wouldn't admit to him that once when she'd wanted the children gone just like he had over time her view had changed and with the arrival of the welps she could never go back to feeling the same, or atleast for the moment. She flicked her eyes back to Haku's form as she studied his face for a moment but was quiet. She hasn't meant her words to sound as sharp as they had but still she had been wronged way too many times by her mate and she was short tempered and short of patience with him. When he turned those words to her she could keep a firm gaze on Haku without growing angry. She just lowered her gaze and shook her head softly. "How long til you change your mind.." she asked, the bitterness in her voice as she turned her face away from her mate, not wanting him to see just how much his words hurt her. She wanted this to work, but there was little faith left for the Lilium. - Haku Soul - 03-03-2009 [html]
- Firefly Sadira - 03-04-2009 end? She knew she'd set him on edge and her emerald eyes met his full force when the answer was granted. There was no sharp reply she could give him without turning this into a fight again, all she could do was truth him and hope that she would not prove him wrong. She hated to admit it but she wanted him to prove her wrong for once and actually do what was right. The golden goddess knew that there was little chance of that so she just sighed softly and lay beside her mate, there two small boys, strong and spirited, already showing the world that they would be a force to be reckoned with. She turned her eyes to the two and just watched the silently, unaware of the small smile that had begun t play across her lips as she thought of the future the two might etch across the stars in making the world theres. She had big hopes and plans for two so small but as she'd learned over the seasons, size didn't matter. She was small of frame but quick and her fierce spirit was enough for two grown wolves. She just hoped that the world was ready for the two Souls that had been brought into this strange universe. She knew she hadn't been.. but she was trying. |