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- Anu - 03-28-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 03-28-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> The boy had smelled the rain gathering in the clouds. Hmmm, maybe he should have decided to spend the day in the mansion instead of outside. Right now he was sitting against a budding tree fiddling with his new guitar. He had been so excited finding it in the city but after running into Ehno he hadn't had time to look for much else. It had had a strap attached and he had found the case for it, but that was all he took home with him. But after playing around with it it appeared that was all he needed. The Aatte youth had only arrived back inside Crimson Dreams the night before and so had not searched out either of his mothers. He needed to find at least one of them. He wanted to know what was going on. Standing up the kid strapped the guitar to his back and made his way towards the mansion. He needed to get the instrument into cover before the rain started and he had stupidly not brought the protective case with him. Bi-colored ears twitched as he heard the droplets of water begin to fall around him. Crap! Being drenched with water would no doubt be hard on his new favorite possession so he moved it from his back to holding it in front of him, trying his best to shield it from the water with his lanky body. By the time he reached the porch of the mansion he was pretty well soaked. Luckily not much water had gotten on the guitar. Setting the wooden instrument against the side of the house he tried to shake off most of the water from his burnt orange pelt before entering. It only helped so much and he could still feel water dripping from his long snowy mane onto his back. Picking the guitar back up he opened the door to the house. So this was how doors were meant to be opened. The sound of scrubbing hit his ears and immediately he saw his tawny mother on her hands and knees cleaning the floor. "Oh no..." he said frowning. "Jeez, I'm sorry mom." Jade eyes looked where he was dripping all over the clean floorboards. - Anu - 03-28-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 03-30-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> It was good to see her. He felt bad for staying away for so long. Yet at the same time his stomach had worked itself into a knot at the knowledge that he needed to ask her some things. Things that would not be easy, probably for either of them. Still, he gave her a sheepish smile as she took in the sight of him. This was the first time she had seen him shifted so he imagined it was quite a bit for her to take in. Even he was aware how quickly his childhood had gone by and could only imagine how fast it must have gone for her. But as she was walking over to him and her face turned into a frown his jade eyes widened at her. What? What was she upset about? A second ago she had been perfectly happy and now she was glaring at him. Neither of his mothers had ever really been upset with him before; he had done nothing to warrant a scolding. So having her look at him in such a way was really unsettling to the Aatte youth. At her stern words his ears flicked back and he could feel the earring jumble around. That? That was what she was upset about? Haven gave his mother a puzzled look. What was the big deal? "What? It's just an earring." It had never crossed his mind that either of his mothers would be upset over the small, round piece of metal. It was just something he had wanted. He hadn't gotten it to upset anyone, and why would anyone be upset about it? It had nothing to do with anyone but him. He didn't see it as offensive in the least. - Anu - 03-31-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 04-01-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> Why was she upset? He didn't understand. And really, what right did she have to be upset? It was his body and his decision. He wasn't a baby anymore. He could make choices for himself without his mother's permission. He could feel a bit of resentment gather in his chest. To him the small hole in his ear was nothing compared to the things both she and Nani had never told him about. "My uncle, Nani's brother DaVinci. I was the one who asked him." He didn't want her getting mad at the older male. It had been his idea and his wish. DaVinci had just been willing to help him. "Well why not? It's not a big deal mom! It's just a little earring and I'm old enough to do things for myself!" The volume of his voice was growing. He wasn't yelling, but it was obvious he was upset. It was time for him to ask some questions. What Haven wanted to know was more important than some stupid little hole that was really pretty insignificant. "I'm also old enough to know things. Things I need to know. Things that neither you or Nani told me." While still loud his deepening voice grew softer. He didn't know why they hadn't told him. It hadn't been bad hearing it from Heath, but he knew that the older hybrid had some mixed up ideas about the whole thing. It would have been better coming from his mothers. "Why didn't you tell me about girls mom?" Ears drooped as his eyes looked deep into the blue ones of his parent. - Anu - 04-02-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 04-03-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> His ears flicked back in annoyance. He wished she wouldn't be so calm about this. It was almost maddening. He was upset! The youth was making that clear and yet she just stood there as if she had never done anything wrong before. Hell, this wasn't even wrong! There was absolutely nothing wrong with what he had done, he knew that much. If it were really bad he would have felt guilty and no such emotion was lingering in his heart. Jade eyes narrowed at his mother ever so slightly as she spoke again. "I know I don't have the right answers to everything, but this isn't about right or wrong," he stated firmly. More firmly than anything he had ever said to either of his parents before. "I don't need to come to you or Nani with something like this because it has nothing to do with you. It has nothing to do with anyone except for me!" The boy might have sounded a little selfish, but he didn't feel he was. He was only saying what he really believed. Finally at her surprise of his last question she wasn't just this stoic figure anymore. She was displaying some sort of emotion and that's what he really wanted right now. The hybrid was an adolescent and had so many new things and thoughts and feelings flooding his system he needed some reassurance. He needed to know why he had had to find out those important things from a stranger. "I wanna know why you guys didn't think to tell me. I had to hear it from someone I didn't know...he acted like it was something I should have been aware of..." Haven swallowed as his eyes left her for a moment before returning. "He was right though...if I'm old enough to feel those things I'm old enough to know how to deal with them...I had no idea what those feelings meant." While the pain was small, he was hurt at not being taught that by his parents. They should have, shouldn't they? - Anu - 04-03-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 04-05-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> He was happy that she let the argument about his piercing drop. It was petty compared to this. It was good that he had gotten that off his chest and they were talking about it now, but there were even bigger matters that he had questions for. He would wait until he had heard what he wanted to about this before asking that though. It was going to be difficult and he had a feeling he wasn't going to like the answer. He just hoped that she would be open and honest with him. Haven had no idea if his other siblings had sensed the tension, but he certainly had. Something was going on between their parents and he didn't want to be left in the dark anymore. Jade eyes stared at the puddle he had made on the floor as she spoke. His mother was really sorry, he could tell. Still, he just couldn't get over all the muddled feelings that were filling his chest right now. Suddenly the adult world was surrounding the Aatte youth and he was losing sight of his happy fantasy world. Why did things have to be so complicated? He had always been looking forward to growing up, but now he was finding it may have been more than he bargained for. "Yeah, I guess they have..." One hand scratched at his arm, unsure of what to do with himself. Uncertainly his gaze locked with her's again. Suddenly the embarrassment of the subject was washing over him. It was awkward to talk about this with her. But he knew that Heath had had some skewed ideas about the subject and he needed a more stable view. His mother would have that. "Well, ummm...I think some of the ideas he had were kind of...not right. What are you supposed to do? I...like this girl and I saw her the other day and I tried to...kiss her. But things got kind of weird afterwards..." - Anu - 04-05-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 04-06-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> The youth allowed his mother to guide him further into the house. The guitar was held slackly in one hand as they walked together into the warmth of the mansion, away from the dampness he had brought in with him. Not all of what Heath had said had sounded wrong. It was mostly the last part, about telling girls that you loved them even if you didn't. While he had gotten some education, sex was still something he didn't quite comprehend, so the "saying whatever it takes to get it" mentality was lost on him. Even if he had understood that, it wouldn't be what he would do. He wasn't that type of person. He would only say something like that if he meant it. "He said it was good to compliment them, and give them gifts..." It wasn't really rejection that he felt. She hadn't rejected him, or at least he didn't think she had. Things had just become awkward. He was worried that he had really messed things up. He didn't want to lose her as a friend, even if she didn't feel the same way that he did. "Yeah...I just hope I didn't scare her away or anything. I don't want that." Haven swallowed. There was more than just kissing...and he wanted to know what that was. As uncomfortable as it was to ask, knowing was better than not. "What...is the other stuff that people who like each other do? You know...more than kissing..." Jade eyes darted to different spots, unable to make eye contact after asking such a question. A small smile cracked his face as his mother asked about Siobhan. "She's really nice. Her life hasn't been that great, her mother was really mean to her. But now that she lives here she seems happy. We have a lot of fun doing things together. She seems so fragile at times, I...I just want to be able to protect her and make her happy." Haven wanted to make sure that nobody ever abused the girl again. She was too sweet, she didn't deserve that treatment from anyone. - Anu - 04-08-2009 [html]
[/html] - Haven Aatte - 04-08-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> As his mother lead him down the hall and to a seat, it felt like he was floating. Like they were walking in some kind of thick mist. It was all so awkward and uncomfortable, but he wanted to know. Needed to know. Or at least have some idea of what he would be facing in the future. Already he was learning how so many things were uncertain, he wanted to at least be prepared for some of it. When he sat down he gently sat his guitar on the floor, laying both his hands in his lap and picking nervously at his knuckles. When she started talking he did his best to look at her. He wasn't able to hold eye contact for long, but at least he was looking at her. The young male took his mother's words to heart about waiting until she was ready. He had never imagine trying to push her into anything, but it was good advice all the same. "Why would anyone try to push someone into that? That just sounds...wrong." Haven had no idea about his sire's past. What the real reason was for him being such a mystery to his children. His head nodded as she talked about compliments. Of course he would only give them if he meant them. The whole issue about the "love" topic was what had split him and Heath. Lying wasn't okay. His hand reached out to squeeze her's in a silent thanks for knowing that he was honest. When she started to explain the important stuff, the really important stuff, his jade eyes locked into her's. He wanted his mom to know that he was listening, really taking everything she told him in. He knew that she wouldn't lead him astray on the matter. Maybe it was best that she wasn't going into explicit detail. When the time came he could figure that out. The things she were saying were what he really needed to hear. "I see. I understand. You're making sense." A small smile lifted the corners of his mouth. "Thanks mom." Now his last question was hanging in his head like a dead weight. Haven really didn't want to ask it, afraid it might upset her, but he needed to know. He couldn't keep knowing that something was wrong without knowing what it really was. "Mom...what's going on? With you and momma Nani? I know something's not right..." The boy wasn't going to let her shrug the question off. He could feel the tension clear as day. - Anu - 04-10-2009 [html] omg the wait! Sorry about that.
- Haven Aatte - 04-13-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> The Aatte child had been well sheltered from the darker parts of life. A thought about rape or murder had never even crossed his mind. However now was a time when he needed to know that such things happened, so he could guard against them. Even if he stayed ignorant of these events, he would never commit such atrocities. Still, being ignorant wasn't necessarily a good thing. Or at least so he thought right now. He couldn't have guessed that there were some things that he would rather not know. Like the fact that that exact crime had been committed against his own mother while he was still in her womb. Her prolonged silence at the question only confirmed his fears. Something was wrong. Something had happened. He could feel his stomach tighten and the tip of his tail twitched nervously. What was about to happen? Was it something that could be fixed? Had they just had a little bump and things would return to normal? All these questions ran through his mind but as his tawny mother began to speak they all came to a startling crash. The words "drifted apart" and "we aren't together anymore" stabbed into his chest like freezing knives. Suddenly he felt sick, nauseous. He closed his eyes, willing the moisture that was already beginning to come to go away. They were broken up? His mothers were no longer mates? How had this happened? How? Not only that, but where did they go from here? Haven didn't know what to say in response to her. Didn't know if there even was anything to say. He just sat there with his eyes closed feeling so alone, cold, and lost. - Anu - 04-14-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... lliban.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;">
for us? Yes it is… -teases!-
Would the guilt, the regret, the indecision ever fade? They were the only emotions that seemed to run through her. They chose her so selfishly, and plagued her heart and danced over her soul with iron shoes. It made her head ache, and even if she fled to the realm of sleep, the hurt remained when she woke. Tears were too frequent, the impending disaster that she knew waited for her hung above her head and cast a shadow longer then the brightest sun could ever make.
Haven didn’t speak, but his face said all that Anu needed to know. What did she expect? The orange boy wasn’t going to shrug his shoulders and say it would ok. He wasn’t going to comfort her, or say that it wouldn’t affect him in the ways she hoped it wouldn’t. He was hurt, and all Anu could manage to do was watch the disappointment write itself on his face while she drew an arm around him. Bringing his form close to her own, she fought the tears that were always inches from her eyes. Please don’t The request was silent, because she couldn't ask him not to care, to be indifferent as she had so horribly tried to do herself. No matter what she said to herself, her heart was in too deep and the regret and guilt that plagued her were too controlling. She was forever powerless against them.
" Haven. Anu spoke, his name holding the apology that she feared to say aloud. The words were hard to find, leaving the silence to fill the room and air around them. Then, to her surprise they came. Though few and brief they were all Anu could manage as she looked to the hurt boy. " We’ll always be family. And they would, no matter how deep she got in the disaster that she had created. She would always claw her way out, find the light and air… Find her way back to them.
- Haven Aatte - 04-16-2009 [html] http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v515/ ... banner.jpg); background-position: bottom center; background-repeat: no-repeat;"> It felt as though his whole world had just collapsed around him. What he thought would always be there, his family, was gone. It could have been worse, someone could have have died. But in a way it felt like someone had. His perfect little family was now broken. It might not have looked perfect to someone on the outside. Having no father and two mothers. It had been for him though. It had been all he knew. He had been happy. The boy found himself wishing he hadn't asked. That he would have just continued to turn a blind eye to the problem. As his mother drew him close he let out a soft sob, his shoulders shuddering. This wasn't a truth he could run from though. No matter how much he wanted to. Somewhere he knew that he actually had no blood relation to Anu. That Naniko was his only true mother. Still, he would never look at it that way. Would never cherish one over the other. They were both his parents. Anu had raised him just as much as Naniko had. When it came down to it, blood meant very little. It was actions that made a real family. While he knew her words were true, they were little consolation at the moment. Things would never be the same. Suddenly he truly had been thrown into the world of adulthood, and now all he wanted to do was to go backwards. Turn back the clock and try and fix this. Prevent it from happening. Or at least go back and relive those times when they were the perfect family. The youth hugged his mother tightly, wanting nothing more than to curl up against her as he would when he had been a babe. That wasn't possible now though. It was as far from his reach as the rest of childhood was becoming. "You'll always be my momma..." he voiced shakily. He wasn't mad at her. He wasn't mad at Naniko. Not mad at anyone. All he felt was the grief of their loss. |