There were many parts to the timid male, despite his transparent appearance. To some Alder seemed simple minded, since he did not always speak at length and he did not look others in the eye often. But he thought about many things, more then one most of the time. He was complex, and that was part of his inner turmoil. He could hardly control the many different things that raced through his mind. They contradicted one another, they made things complicated and larger then they deserved. Each word that was spoken to him was tucked away to be analyzed and thought about again and again, taking up valuable space in the young male's mind.
Haven's words were not excluded from that, absorbed deeply and rolled over in his mind like one might a favorable dish over the tongue. He wanted to come and visit the pups, excited at the idea of being an uncle more then he figured his brothers Oak and Cypress were. He could hardly wait, and though the idea of this change was slightly scary Alder was more excited then anything. He looked to this brother, nodding at the thought that the puppies would need to be inside until the thaw of winter into spring. Yes, they would need to be protected from the cold world. Alder felt that he could help with that, watch over them and make sure none roamed or went astray. Momma will want to come, I'll accompany her. Anu would need an escort, since the trip was long and his mother was often indoors herself on frigid sort of days.
While his gaze fell to the floor he could feel the eyes of Haven on his form. It wasn't a comfortable feeling, but Alder needed it anyways. Yearning to express his confused and unhappy feelings, needing to uncork the bottled emotions before they burst and destroyed him. The question was a great relief, and excuse to let those feelings go. Of course there was hesitation, unsure if it was okay that he felt the way he did. But then he shook his head in reply, deciding that if he could not speak to Haven about this then there was no one in the world he could talk to. Alder began with a confession Momma sent me here. She said I needed to go out on my own. He thought of Cypress, when weeks ago he had spoken so harshly towards him, but he didn't blame the smaller brother of his. He blamed himself. I can not hunt, I can't keep trespassers out, I can't do much of anything. Not there. As much as he loved his mother, his brothers, sisters and home he didn't think he could do a single thing right there. When did you decided you had to live on your own? It was so frightening to think of leaving the area, simply because his brother had said mean things. But Haven had left, thought the reasons were such a mystery, and he had become something great.
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