08-12-2009, 05:40 AM
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There was bitterness evident in the grizzled canine, and she could hide it no longer, displaying roughly on her face for a moment before she again grasped for the bottle. It made little difference to her now whether she was drunk or sober around this wolf—the sable female had awakened things inside of Kaena the woman thought she'd stabbed and buried long ago. Ahren had ceased to love her a long time ago, if one could ever call the tenuous strings connecting them love. Children were not that, but the children had made Kaena love him more. His litter was strong and lovely, and oh, Ahren had given her Gabriel. Lovely, wonderful Gabriel—the golden son in as many ways as the phrase might be intended.
She unscrewed the cap and took a short swig, grimacing at the stuff's bitterness as it welled over her tongue. She did not replace the cap, instead setting it between herself and the other female who had sank down beside her, the metaphorical distance between them closing just as the proximity did. Kaena saw the crow's wing woman for what she was, now—a remnant. Her clan had passed along, died with the woman in that church. Kaena's golden eye glittered as she remembered how gingerly she'd stepped over those bones, their smell and the smell of old death coating the entire hall of that once-revered church. She did not think Lillith would drink, but she had been surprised, and the offer was there should the shadowy female chose to take it.
She was taken to another night on that burned beach, another long night with the tingling in her bones which would not allow her to sleep. She had found him then, waiting for her—it had been strange even then. She had once been a rogue of Inferni beckoning on Chimera's border for their king, but by then he was a stranger to their lands, long forgotten, and she had been the queen of Inferni. It was then that she had realized what she had lost, what had slipped away from her—it was then that the real pain set it. The hybrid woman sighed heavily. "What we had was accidental. Our children were the connection we shared, for the most part," the woman said, coldness creeping into her voice. She had never been able to let him in completely, maybe because he was a wolf, maybe because she knew they were fated to brevity.. She had loved Zulifer because he thought he was a coyote, because in his madness he believed he was a coyote in wolf's skin.
Kaena wondered if he would have referred to her by that name, still—kindlich. Thinking it sent a shiver down her spine; it was a dead word from a dead man, a name she had not thought in years suddenly in her head. "He left me for Chimera's crown, you know." There was that sourness in her tone. She understood duty but it made her no less bitter that it had happened, that he had left her and the children in Inferni for the wolf pack. But maybe that was her fault, too—how could a wolf ever feel at home in Inferni? "I didn't understand what I had until it was already gone," the woman added, sighing heavily. "If I ever did."
She unscrewed the cap and took a short swig, grimacing at the stuff's bitterness as it welled over her tongue. She did not replace the cap, instead setting it between herself and the other female who had sank down beside her, the metaphorical distance between them closing just as the proximity did. Kaena saw the crow's wing woman for what she was, now—a remnant. Her clan had passed along, died with the woman in that church. Kaena's golden eye glittered as she remembered how gingerly she'd stepped over those bones, their smell and the smell of old death coating the entire hall of that once-revered church. She did not think Lillith would drink, but she had been surprised, and the offer was there should the shadowy female chose to take it.
She was taken to another night on that burned beach, another long night with the tingling in her bones which would not allow her to sleep. She had found him then, waiting for her—it had been strange even then. She had once been a rogue of Inferni beckoning on Chimera's border for their king, but by then he was a stranger to their lands, long forgotten, and she had been the queen of Inferni. It was then that she had realized what she had lost, what had slipped away from her—it was then that the real pain set it. The hybrid woman sighed heavily. "What we had was accidental. Our children were the connection we shared, for the most part," the woman said, coldness creeping into her voice. She had never been able to let him in completely, maybe because he was a wolf, maybe because she knew they were fated to brevity.. She had loved Zulifer because he thought he was a coyote, because in his madness he believed he was a coyote in wolf's skin.
Kaena wondered if he would have referred to her by that name, still—kindlich. Thinking it sent a shiver down her spine; it was a dead word from a dead man, a name she had not thought in years suddenly in her head. "He left me for Chimera's crown, you know." There was that sourness in her tone. She understood duty but it made her no less bitter that it had happened, that he had left her and the children in Inferni for the wolf pack. But maybe that was her fault, too—how could a wolf ever feel at home in Inferni? "I didn't understand what I had until it was already gone," the woman added, sighing heavily. "If I ever did."
OOC ENDING:
Kae and Lillith continue to talk vaguely about Ahren for a few more minutes, and then Lillith leaves to go do her thing, and Kae keeps drinking and goes to sleep.
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