It wasn't that she didn't miss Conri on occasion...because she did. But at the same time she wanted to know what it would be like to live a life without him. She was afraid of his coming back, afraid that he might attack her again and that she wouldn't be able to get away again. He was able to shift...she wasn't. It gave him a huge advantage. That was how he'd been able to hold her down when he'd taken her the last time, against her will.
She liked having friends outside the pack. It was refreshing to get to leave every once in a while and not have to think about things for a couple of hours. Was there enough food in the food cache for her patients to be able to eat? How was Apollo doing? Was Noah's eye getting any better? And what about Savina's scratches? She had to mark the border at least every other day to make up for the fact that Conri wasn't there and to reinforce that she was the leader of the pack, as well.
"He was crazy." She answered.
"Or...he went crazy. He beat two of our pack members...and raped one." Of course, she didn't mention that she had been one of them. Instead she glanced to Anu, then forward again.
It was almost like the other girl was reading her mind, though. Just when she had her head forward she felt the bump, a light pressure just beneath her chin, and it brought a smile to her face. Anu was very sweet. She did remind her of Conri, in a way...back before he'd been kidnapped and tortured. When he'd been kind and gentle.
