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There was no immediate escape from this situation. A long time coming and it was here staring her mercilessly in the face with something akin to disgust in his eyes. It pained her, but she could not look away. A Nomad knew when to accept their punishment even when it was a kind they were not used to. The crimes, the embarrassment to a family was dealt within them, hardly outside the eyes of their kin. But this perversion was overlooked now. Regardless of their families, she reacted with the posture of one taking their punishment. Still and shamed, ears forward though they twitched in pain.
She would only look to him when he cursed her beloved and dared speak of Thana. The surprise on her muzzle was too pure to be feigned. True alarm for what she heard...what he sought to poison her ears with. She had known of the love between Jaden and Thana. She had accepted it then just as she had accepted that their love was for the time not meant to be. But she had made herself blind to the extent of that love. In a childlike way, she blanked the reality, the possibilities of copulation from her mind for the sake of her heart and mind. To even hear it implied turned her stomach and contorted her lips to grimace. Like a child fearful of some terrifying thing she closed her eyes as if to will the mental image away. These were just assumptions...not truths. He did not know the relationship shared between herself and Jaden. This was his jealousy talking and she had to believe that.
But the captive did not call her conqueror wrong. Instead she shut her eyes tighter and pressed her ears against her autumn crown, forcing her head away to such an angle that the slightest pressure would steal her away from the merciless world. Though what kept her clinging...what pulled her from the self-made darkness was the recount of the yellow dog. The story that sounded all too familiar. She had silenced her suspicion before, believed it was nothing more than her friend seeking to stir trouble. But hearing this again alongside what was learned of Thana and Jaden... a creeping feeling worked along her spine, seeping into her fur and flesh to touch her heart.
'You dont know this for certain...' words rarely used outside of her own Family were spoken in defiance without her muzzle needing to part. They were sounds joined with the gestures of her face and nothing more. It was doubtful he would understand, but how the vulnerable part of her wished he could 'hear' her to keep her broken spirit from sounding. She could forgive her beloved for his love of Thana...but for the love of a dog. Was she cruel for not believing her love was strong enough to pardon him for that? And if it were true.... Sheer terror shown in her eyes. He had touched her. He had loved her. He had held her in his arms and taken her... perhaps as he had done the dog.
No. He couldn't have. She would have known. She would have smelled it on him. These were the words of a wolf that lied.
But when had she even known for X'ies to? Taunt her, be cruel to her...but never lie. And if these words were true; from this contamination, how was she ever to be clean again? Stained permanently by whom she loved. The disgust was beyond belief that all the Golden Queen could do was smile.
"You would take a bitch contaminated by a male that ruts with dogs...?"
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