09-22-2008, 07:04 PM
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He hoped to find just one place – somewhere cozy with a sense of security and belonging. That’s what he really needed. Though he had done a lot of growing up over the past two years, some things still hadn’t left him. Such as the sense of insecurity that remained tucked away behind his silver eyes – only he was the one who really knew the true extent of it.
Times with Dierdre had rolled away so fast. The last time he had seen her had been close to the beginning of the year. Fall was upon them now, and still thoughts of his old mate would surface. He missed the sense of carelessness that he felt when they were together. But now he felt almost as if he had lost that. Would he ever get it back? Or was that something old age had robbed him of?
Realistically Pilot knew he would be able to find that again – at least in some senses. It was closer than he happened to know. He was relieved that Crimson Dreams had finally established itself, but things still weren’t perfect yet. The ground beneath him wasn’t entirely home sweet home just yet.