12-02-2008, 01:58 PM
She had hear him wrong, she had to have, the numbness that had taken hold had suddenly dissolved as she felt like she'd been shot through. Her ears flicked back against her skull as she raised those doubter's eyes back up. "You? You have a son?" she blurted, realizing her mistake once more. "Had..." She really felt like she'd been detatched from the world around her since the birth of her last litter. When had Laruku had children, what all had she missed since she'd been forced from Clouded Tears. The silver and gold woman knew now that there was nothing of the male before her she'd ever known, except their relation to eachother through blood.. and that wasn't much even then.
She lowered her eyes again as quietly she asked, almost not expecting him to answer, "When?" Even now she had never thought.. hadn't the hybrid cousin before her been some sort of devoted to Tsunami. She wasn't sure of anything anymore, it had been a long time and time was still moving past them too fast. Her eyes glanced towards the hills where Anaz was buried. "He would have belonged more to Inferni than here with me.. if he'd lived." she said finally. She doubted that Inferni would even want the boy if they'd ever known who had birthed him. There were some things in her past before this last litter was born that she wished she could erase but now was too late for wishing.
She lowered her eyes again as quietly she asked, almost not expecting him to answer, "When?" Even now she had never thought.. hadn't the hybrid cousin before her been some sort of devoted to Tsunami. She wasn't sure of anything anymore, it had been a long time and time was still moving past them too fast. Her eyes glanced towards the hills where Anaz was buried. "He would have belonged more to Inferni than here with me.. if he'd lived." she said finally. She doubted that Inferni would even want the boy if they'd ever known who had birthed him. There were some things in her past before this last litter was born that she wished she could erase but now was too late for wishing.