04-01-2009, 09:47 AM
Brennt's yellow eyes stayed on Sankor's, as if trying to read something there. The big wolf wasn't very smart, but he could usually smell a lie, as his mother had said. It was a shame, too, as people lied to him a lot, and it made him feel alone and slow, in a world that only had time for those on the fast track. The brown wolf said that not everyone was the same...he knew that, he knew that very well, his mother had made sure of it, because she had wanted to give him a way to see himself that wasn't simply inferior to everyone around him.
"Oh," he said, looking down at the ground between his feet, as if that might somehow help him to understand. Cwmfen had liked him until she hadn't. Then again, she was a warrior, maybe she liked fighting? Maybe he had actually given her what she wanted? It was too much to make sense of right away, how she had turned what was supposed to be sex into violence, but maybe that was just her doing what she had wanted and not what he had wanted? He thought that everyone understood about sex, and that it was a good thing that a boy and girl wolf did when they liked each other...maybe Cwmfen was different? Maybe she didn't like it? Maybe she didn't understand it.
"So I should go find out what they do like, then they can like me?" His logic was certainly oversimplified, but he was trying, and trying much harder than most wolves would give him credit for. If what Sankor said was true, he should probably go back and find Cwmfen the next time he got the chance. Fighting was bad to him, his mother had taught him it was bad, but maybe Cwmfen was different that way, too?
"Oh," he said, looking down at the ground between his feet, as if that might somehow help him to understand. Cwmfen had liked him until she hadn't. Then again, she was a warrior, maybe she liked fighting? Maybe he had actually given her what she wanted? It was too much to make sense of right away, how she had turned what was supposed to be sex into violence, but maybe that was just her doing what she had wanted and not what he had wanted? He thought that everyone understood about sex, and that it was a good thing that a boy and girl wolf did when they liked each other...maybe Cwmfen was different? Maybe she didn't like it? Maybe she didn't understand it.
"So I should go find out what they do like, then they can like me?" His logic was certainly oversimplified, but he was trying, and trying much harder than most wolves would give him credit for. If what Sankor said was true, he should probably go back and find Cwmfen the next time he got the chance. Fighting was bad to him, his mother had taught him it was bad, but maybe Cwmfen was different that way, too?