04-27-2009, 03:42 PM
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He didn't realize when Jasper came so close, didn't even register in his head that Jasper was right there next to him, right there in the room they had shared with all of their memories and times together. Even just lazy nights of telling stories, of exchanging sweet nothings and eventually falling asleep curled up together. It was all so easy to recall, but Laurent had purposely put it off, afraid of those feelings and afraid to face knowing that he had been too late to save Jasper. Fatin had known what to do, and if he had set out at the start of things, not waited until Jasper had been sick then maybe, just maybe, he could have saved them all. But when he came home, Jasper was gone, and he had lost everything.
When he heard his name again, he thought it a piece of his dream and rolled over, curling up into a ball as if to ward his mother off. "Five more...." And he was out again. He'd been asleep since yesterday, with really no intentions of waking up again. Colibri had been a kind friend to take care of him when she could visit, but the cripple didn't want to lean on people forever. He'd always imagined himself being strong enough to hold them all up, to save the world. But he hadn't been fast enough, and Fatin too tied down to make the trip herself. What had meant to be a few weeks turned in to a few months, and he felt all the guilt crash down on him, weighing him down.
He didn't realize when Jasper came so close, didn't even register in his head that Jasper was right there next to him, right there in the room they had shared with all of their memories and times together. Even just lazy nights of telling stories, of exchanging sweet nothings and eventually falling asleep curled up together. It was all so easy to recall, but Laurent had purposely put it off, afraid of those feelings and afraid to face knowing that he had been too late to save Jasper. Fatin had known what to do, and if he had set out at the start of things, not waited until Jasper had been sick then maybe, just maybe, he could have saved them all. But when he came home, Jasper was gone, and he had lost everything.
When he heard his name again, he thought it a piece of his dream and rolled over, curling up into a ball as if to ward his mother off. "Five more...." And he was out again. He'd been asleep since yesterday, with really no intentions of waking up again. Colibri had been a kind friend to take care of him when she could visit, but the cripple didn't want to lean on people forever. He'd always imagined himself being strong enough to hold them all up, to save the world. But he hadn't been fast enough, and Fatin too tied down to make the trip herself. What had meant to be a few weeks turned in to a few months, and he felt all the guilt crash down on him, weighing him down.
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