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No matter how hard she'd tried, Alexey simply could not make sense of her thoughts. And her indecisiveness was pulling them apart, tugging at the invisible elastic banding them together, stretching it until it could go no further. They had reached a breaking point. What they had was long gone, she knew that much. But it did not discourage her from trying to create a better, stronger relationship. One much different from the one they'd shared over the last year. This time, she would treat him as an equal, a mature young adult, as opposed to the helpless child he'd once been. Making this transition would take a lot of work on her part, but she was willing to put in proper effort if it meant salvaging the bond they shared. She wanted the pain to go away. What was the solution? Investigating the source of her feelings would only bring forth a new kind of pain. The Koios femme had spent quite some time weighing the pros and cons. In the end, it all narrowed down to two things; her reputation versus the unexplainable excitement she felt in his presence.
Her breath caught when the boy slowed his pace a little, her stomach involuntarily tightening with concern. At least he was acknowledging her existence, and Alexey took advantage of this opportunity to fuel what little confidence she had left. Needless to say, said relief did not last very long. His vocal chords activated, making way for a crushing statement. "W-what?" she choked out, the words barely escaping her throat. The Caregiver's face dropped, her forehead wrinkling into a frown of unusual severity. Did he really think they were better off this way? "You don't really mean that, do you?" she continued, mostly trying to convince herself that he was indeed lying. Her paws pressed forward, circling him out of impulse, until she found his lavender orbs. Evidently, the boy was avoiding all eye contact, but Lexey did not care. She would make him look at her. "Please come home. I need you." Begging was unlike her, but she didn't know what else to do at this point.
No matter how hard she'd tried, Alexey simply could not make sense of her thoughts. And her indecisiveness was pulling them apart, tugging at the invisible elastic banding them together, stretching it until it could go no further. They had reached a breaking point. What they had was long gone, she knew that much. But it did not discourage her from trying to create a better, stronger relationship. One much different from the one they'd shared over the last year. This time, she would treat him as an equal, a mature young adult, as opposed to the helpless child he'd once been. Making this transition would take a lot of work on her part, but she was willing to put in proper effort if it meant salvaging the bond they shared. She wanted the pain to go away. What was the solution? Investigating the source of her feelings would only bring forth a new kind of pain. The Koios femme had spent quite some time weighing the pros and cons. In the end, it all narrowed down to two things; her reputation versus the unexplainable excitement she felt in his presence.
Her breath caught when the boy slowed his pace a little, her stomach involuntarily tightening with concern. At least he was acknowledging her existence, and Alexey took advantage of this opportunity to fuel what little confidence she had left. Needless to say, said relief did not last very long. His vocal chords activated, making way for a crushing statement. "W-what?" she choked out, the words barely escaping her throat. The Caregiver's face dropped, her forehead wrinkling into a frown of unusual severity. Did he really think they were better off this way? "You don't really mean that, do you?" she continued, mostly trying to convince herself that he was indeed lying. Her paws pressed forward, circling him out of impulse, until she found his lavender orbs. Evidently, the boy was avoiding all eye contact, but Lexey did not care. She would make him look at her. "Please come home. I need you." Begging was unlike her, but she didn't know what else to do at this point.