For Daisuke. Can we date this to the 25th? 570 words.
#####She still had not returned to the pack she called home, enjoying her time alone in her house in the city. After she had retrieved her things, she had not seen a need to return immediately to Dahlia, and she was not very interested in participating in the war. There were people on both sides that she did not want to see hurt, and she did not know how to keep herself out of it completely. If she fought for Dahlia, then she would be fighting against Kaena and Anselm, but she would be helping to protect those in her own pack that she liked. But if she chose not to fight, she was not fighting against her friends in Inferni, but she was not helping to protect those in Dahlia, where her loyalties lay. It was a very sticky situation, and she did not consider herself much of a fan of all of this. There was really no way for her to win, and either way she acted, there was the potential for her to be seen as some sort of traitor. If she fought against Inferni, her friends there would hate her for sure. If she did not fight for Dahlia, she would be considered a traitor to the pack, and that would not go over well for her, either. She just could not win, it seemed.
#####The packed bowl was in her hands, but she had not lit it yet, unsure of whether or not she even wanted to smoke right now. There was too much on her mind, and she was craving company, for some bizarre reason. She had enjoyed her time with the man from Crimson Dreams, even if she could not convince him to have sex with her. It was no matter, though; she’d gotten some recently from the young Dreamer, Cambria, and she could not really begrudge Kansas for not wanting to have sex with her. He had smelled like he had a mate, but she had wanted to try anyway. There was no harm in trying, right? Lolita had met many who were not faithful to their mates, and she did not understand why someone would bother tying themselves down to having sex with only one other person. Or rather, this was what she told herself, even if she knew in the back of her mind that it was untrue. If a pair of individuals loved each other as much as she and Pippa had loved each other, then she could completely understand their desire to only be with each other. She did not like be refused, but she understood the concept and thought behind it all.
#####There was too much going through her mind, and because of this, her mood was a bit glum. If there was something to take her mind off of all of the problems surrounding the Inferni-Dahlia war, it was not going to be smoking. She smoked far too much for it to work as a form of distraction, and she suspected it would actually only make things worse for her. If she could find something or someone else to distract her, though. . . Well, that would be a different story, but she certainly did not plan on putting that effort out there. She was going to sit on her front stoop, bowl in one hand and lighter in the other, until a distraction found her.
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