Trials And Tribulations

Selene D'Angelo · 01-26-2011, 03:32 PM

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OOC here: Table & Coding © James; Since the AW got taken and I figured you might want them alone for the lil heart to heart I made this; 509 words

The ruptured flesh stood out with a slash of red beneath the white coat of the girl. There were multiple lacerations lacing her thighs. There were some that were a few days older than others that appeared fresher. How had this gone unnoticed? Because Sele had become something of a hermit. She hid out until she had healed up, though she never sought out a healer, and the marks were no longer quite as noticeable through her thick white pelt. Perhaps if she were a different color then it wouldn't be seen as easily. But being white it allowed the blood from the wounds to show easily in her coat as the wounds were torn open through movement. The way she would shift about in her sleep didn't help to make healing easier, especially when she reached down to scratch at the wounds as she slept.

Her abrasions weren't close to healing yet and still she itched to make more. Her mental state was gradually getting worse. She had started to cut more frequently. Of course this had flared up as Juju had grown independent and didn't want his mother tagging around all the time. The stress of feeling abandoned was the most likely trigger. She didn't do well with feeling abandoned and no longer needed. Her children were her entire life. If she didn't have them then she had nothing at all. So far watching over Juju, and Scorpius at times, had been her greatest contribution to the pack. Sure, she had met some members at the borders but they had already been set to join anyways. She didn't do anything but sit with them and wait for her sister to arrive.

She was feeling restless and so had gotten up to leave her cave and head out to the world above ground. She headed for the foothills, heading away from the cave system to go and sit within the hillocks. Rather than sitting on the top where she could be easily seen she had rested out in the valleys between them. She laid upon the frozen earth and stared up at the cloudy sky above. She figured that it would be storming again but she wasn't one to know how to read the weather. It was just a guess though. Picking up some of the fluffy snow from the ground she placed it upon her legs to soothe the burn in a couple of the cuts. While she might looked relaxed and at peace on the outside she was a tormented mess on the inside. All she could think that even though it was daylight out now she could stay out here all night long, become frozen to the ground, and no one would ever know or care. No one would come out looking for her because they didn't need her. Her children didn't want her around anymore so what use was she? She didn't have any purpose if they were busy taking care of themselves. She had no reason to live if they didn't need her.

Pontiac · 01-27-2011, 11:58 PM

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Pontiac needed to get to know the other white sister. Pontiac was starting to feel like she was alone, both of her sisters that lived here in the pack had snow white coat and matching green eyes. If it would not be for the age between them Pontiac would have wondered if they where twin. Yes her and Naniko had a bond that two sister had, but they were not super close. The tan and white female had always had her sister on her mind but it was not till almost two years ago that they had reconnected to be with each other. Pontiac wanted so badly to have a part of what both sisters had, she wanted a family someone to love her without string, someone to tell her how pretty she was. Well she had that, only issues was he was a part of a pack that if she joined she would never be accepted, and the odd of Naniko taking in one of ‘them’.

Pontiac knew that only one body in all of these lands could say they knew Naniko just as well as she did if not better. That was the white furred younger sister to the duo colored D’Angelo would have to gather her sisters idea on how to take this topic to the white coat leader. Pontiac went out in the chilly cold as her nerves where still raw and shot from admitting that she loved the male, from allowing the two of them to be closer than anyone could ever be while in one body. Pontiac hated to admit that he was her drug of choice, something about that hybrid male made her mind rush with new feelings every time she come around him.

One foot after another, the female moved though the den system; go to where her younger sister’s den was marked out. Picking up the stale sent of her sister, her eyes became clouded with confusion, after poking her head into her sister’s living quarter, finding her not there but speckles of blood upon the floor of her living area. A red flag was quickly put up in the tan and white female’s mind, what had happened to her younger sister that there was blood on the floor of her den. Panicking the female went out a searched for her sister. With no trace of the lady in the pack’s detailed living area the lady went out and searching for her. All around the pack lands the tan and white caretaker looked, till finally she found her lying in the snow. ”Selene? Is everything okay?” Her fingers brushed over one of the rocks as she pulled her-self up the rocky path.

Selene D'Angelo · 02-03-2011, 06:06 PM

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OOC here: Table & Coding © James; 361 words

Sele knew just what it was like to have a forbidden love. To have to sneak around and hide her affections. It was all worth it for those moments that they could have together. Those times that he would hold her and she knew that everything would be okay again. That she wouldn't have to worry. She had felt safe and secure when she was in his arms. But that wasn't to happen again. She had lost her mate. And no one even knew about the losses that she had suffered. No one had even known that she had a mate. Just as no one knew about the still birth. Sele had plenty of secrets. There were many things about her that none would ever guess. Like how the happiness she displayed was always faked. That she had problems and issues that she refused to let anyone know about. There was plenty wrong with her. She just didn't say anything about any of it though.

She closed her eyes as she remained stretched out in the snow. She allowed her mind to wander. To speculate how long it would be before someone would ever notice her missing. She doubted that would ever happen. No one ever came looking for her. No one cared. She was fine with this, or such is what she told herself. It was okay that nobody cared about her. She didn't contribute anything. All she did was take up space. Everyone would be better off without her.

At least that was the conclusion that she had come to before she heard her name. She opened her eyes, surprised to find her other sister there. Her mind wondered what could possibly be wanted, was she being kicked out perhaps, while a soft and sweet smile spread to her lips. "Everything is fine, Ponti. Just enjoying some fresh air." She gave usual words. She never allowed any to know that there was something wrong with her. No, everything had to always be fine so that she didn't burden the others even more than she already was. "You look tired. Maybe you should sit and rest for a little bit?"

Pontiac · 02-07-2011, 03:09 AM

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Pontiac loved that her family was all here, other than her mother who passed away and Roman who no one really knew what happened to him. Pontiac still would not complain she had her sister here; it was just like she felt like it should be one happy family. Expect really was everyone happy? Naniko had all the pressure of being a leader on her shoulders, as well as being a best friend and sister to two girls. Selene…Well Pontiac did not really know her other then what she had meet her at the borders. She seemed cheerful enough, but just like Pontiac and she was sure Naniko had that side, well she was sure that the D’Angelo sister was hurting on the inside over something. Pontiac worried and stress and was easy to be tipped over the edge of panic when most of the time there was nothing to stress over.

Seeing her sister sitting there to what seemed like enjoying the weather the tan and white female sighed knowing that one wrong word, one wrong move could start a fight, and if her and Selene got into a fight it would make Naniko upset, and Pontiac knew that her sister had enough on her plate without worrying about what happened between her and her sisters. Smiling as she sat down like her sister offered her, Pontiac sat down upon her legs as she shifted rolling her hips to the side as her feet moved to the side also. ”You know it’s funny. We don’t really know each other, and yet I feel like my life is almost full with you..With us here.” She looked down to her white fingers as she had them folded in her lap and she rubbed the palms together. She looked back up to her sister, with a sigh.”I need to talk to someone…I can’t tell Naniko…I think I found him..My prince charming. No…Not think…I know. He’s wonderful. Far younger than either of us, but he’s the one…” She sighed softly she was utterly head over heels in love with that black male. ”But…uh…Yeah..back to the funny thing. Your den…I saw blood in it. Not a lot but droplets and small amounts here and there. Is Juju okay?” Pontiac knew it wasn’t Juju’s she just did not want to push her luck with her sister already.

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Selene D'Angelo · 02-27-2011, 05:00 AM

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OOC here: Table & Coding © James; 535 words

And there was also Helios, Sele's littermate, that wasn't present either. It seemed the males in their family were the ones that weren't to be found. Sele hadn't seen Helios since she had left Taceli to find Roman. Not that she ever really did. There was a brief encounter, though it hadn't really been Roman as she had assumed the male to be, but then he was gone again. And she had left to try and find him again. She never did though. Instead she found a life that she could actually be happy in. At least she had been happy until it had all come crashing down. Even though she wasn't related to most in the cult by blood she had felt the closest to them then when she had been in a pack in the old Souls territories.

Actually Sele wasn't prone to fighting. She believed the good in everyone but herself. She was kind to everyone but herself. She blamed herself for everything that went wrong. Everything bad had to all be her fault. Because of that she needed to be punished and so she took the measures to punish herself. She had her own inner demons that she didn't let anyone know about. She had darkness contained inside that she only took out on herself. With everyone else she was sweet and kind and caring.

She smiled at what Ponti said. "You have stronger ties to Nani then I could ever have. But I think because we both have developed deep bonds with her it is only natural to feel like that. We are family and we both have been looking for family so to find family brings about that sense of completion." Or at least those were her rambling thoughts on the subject. She didn't find it so strange to feel that way. But then again Sele was just happy to meet the sister that Nani had told her about before.

"That is really good Ponti. I'm glad that you are happy." And she really was. While she felt that herself didn't deserve that she firmly believed that others did. She reached out a hand to try and gently squeeze her sister's. She was trying to offer a bit of comfort and encouragement. "The heart can't tell an age as much as it can't tell a gender. You love who you love." It was one of the things that she had picked up in the cult. Pleasure, like love, knew no bounds. And you were really lucky when you could find that and have it returned.

She frowned a bit as Ponti mentioned finding blood in her den. She had no idea how exactly to go about explaining that. But she was given an out when Juju was brought up. "Yeah, he is fine. It might have been from a rabbit he had." It was a really lame excuse and she knew it. She wasn't good at thinking on her feet and coming up with excuses at a moment's notice. And well, she didn't really like lying but it wasn't like she could admit to what she was doing because, plain and simple, she did not want to be stopped.

Pontiac · 03-01-2011, 10:21 PM

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Pontiac was not stupid, she had an idea of who blood she saw on the ground she had hoped that by playing stupid that she could finally come down to catching her sister with a fresh cut of two upon her body. Pontiac knew that the family was cursed with issues; lord knew that she had her own issues and she believed it was up to her to make everyone around her happy. She knew that though everyone being happy she could in turn be happy and could just lay back and rest and not worry about other’s needs and wants so much. She sat up rolling over her feet looking down as her finger sunk down into the bitterly cold snow with a nod.”Hmmm maybe…maybe not. I don’t know” When the chill got too much for the tan and white female shut her eye and pulling them out. They throbbed the lady opened her eyes as she looked down to her hand She sighed, here came the kicker she bit down on her lip till she could taste the blood. ”Yeah…I know it’s great…I just hope that Naniko will accept him, since he’s from Inferni and all.” Her ears rolled back against her head waiting on something said that was not going to be nice.

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Selene D'Angelo · 03-03-2011, 07:24 PM

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Her freshest cut was about a day old or so. It wasn't brand new by any means but still hadn't healed up just yet either. Actually that had been the one that she had been piling snow on. So right now it was hidden beneath the cold. And well she didn't seem able to notice the cold either way. Then again she had been laying in it long enough to allow her body to go numb to the cold. Perhaps that wasn't the smartest thing to do but no one had ever said that Selene was particularly smart. And well, she would quickly deny such charges herself. But it wasn't like Sele could see anything good in herself anyways.

Inferni? She wasn't certain how Nani felt about them honestly. Not that Sele had ever really had experiences with them to know either. "Oh, I'm not sure how she will feel about that. But if she sees how happy you are there is no way that she could deny it, right?" She smiled, trying to be as encouraging as possible. She wasn't really able to predict how Nani would react to this bit of news. And all she really could do would be to wish her sister luck. But maybe if they sat down together with Nani and Nani saw just how happy Ponti was then that would be enough. Who could really stand in the way of love?

"I really hope everything works out for you. But maybe if you and your guy sit down and talk with Nani, let her see just how happy you are, then maybe you can sway her to accept him." She knew that her sister was big on family in the least. And she would imagine that she would want Ponti to be happy. After all she had agreed to let Sele tag along because it had made Sele happy rather than Sele being a true asset or anything.

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