I need my friends, family, everyone

Jace Wolfe · 03-10-2011, 08:50 PM

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She was walking unknowing or caring of where she was going, only holding enough sense of her surrounding environment that she didn't walk into any trees, her stance was slouched and depressed and her body language unhappy and filled with something akin to dread. She knew now that her feelings had been true and that what was done could not be undone, something she wished could be with every fiber of her being. She shivered as she walked the world seemed so cold to her now, even her love for the snow had dissipated into nothingness.

As the sad multi colored traveled across the landscape she wondered what she had done to displease the gods so thoroughly. She hadn't gone back to her and Temo's den for several days and no doubt the midnight black male would be worrying himself sick about her but it was not that she did not care about him it was that she couldn't bring herself to think about him. Somewhere inside she felt as though she had failed him and even though the rational part of her brain knew that it wasn't in any way her fault she still placed the blame upon herself.

Now she could no longer hide herself from it as the evidence showed, the stomach that bulged ever so slightly below her betraying the unmistakable fact that it held new life within it. New life that may or may not be fathered by the sick twisted demon that had raped her, there was no way to tell until they were born and she feared what Temo would do should they prove to belong to Lucifer, she wasn't even sure what she would do. She debated simply killing them now while they grew within her, it would not be too hard to force her body to miscarry or abort but she knew that she could never bring herself to harm a child much less a child of her own flesh and blood.

No. She shook her head, she would not kill them, she could not kill them. Even if they did belong to Lucifer, they would be innocent and not guilty of the crimes of their father. She continued on her lonely, lonesome walk. Taking herself ever further out of the way of the main part of Phoenix Valley. Her sadness was like a virulent disease taking over her entire body until it had a noticeable smell that clung to her and followed in her paw prints. With a sigh she settled herself into the snow, curling up into a ball of fur.

She circled her tail around herself, hiding her head from the world and the sky and the sun. It had no place in her dark life now, it did not belong. She wished it was raining with dark clouds to block out the cheery sun and lightning bolts, it would match her depressed mood. A soft whine came from her lips, The long claw marks that extended down her back stood out red against her white and tan fur. Not for the first time in her life she wished she was all white like her mother and birth pack, then she could blend into the snow instead of standing out like some half completed freak.

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Jace "talks", 'thinks', and walks.

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Falgar · 03-10-2011, 11:42 PM

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Dark clouds seemed to be the only thing that hovered over his head these days. Even if the sun was clearly shining through the almost bare trees he currently felt like he had the worst storm going through his head. He had just discovered his father alive and instead of bringing him the joy it should it only brought a heavy charge to his heart. Even though he was happy for the older grey wolf to be alive but it had only brought the shadows he had pushed back so long ago back into his back. The consuming sensation of guilt getting a vice grip on his gut, leaving him with a sickened and moody disposition. But still he was still too find him and talk as it was needed on both parts, no matter how hard it may get to be at the beginning.

And with that he found himself under the large shadow of a tree that was lucky enough to keep some of its leaves. He was finding it impossible to find his so needed sleep at the moment as each time he was to get deep into it there was some evil voice in his head that brought his conscience back to the present moment. He kept repeating the same action until he saw someone at the distance. He could pinpoint who it was quickly due to the unique coloration she carried. She seemed to be sulking but it was hard to tell at the distance he was currently at.

A debate was then taken into his mind as he decided either to approach her or not. The clinging sensation of the sadness she was carrying made him decided to carefully follow her for a short moment until he saw everything was ok as he didn’t want to disturb the female’s thoughts at a wrong moment. When he saw her lay down on the snow he sat down some distance away from her, still on the battle of approaching her or not. He had been at a close enough distance to hear her whimper and it was so full of sorrow that he had no other option that to approach and see what was wrong.

The dark grey mass of fur was carried forward until he had reached a respectful distance but that as well he could be heard. And there he stood for a while until he grew uncomfortable with the silence.

“Jace? Are you alright?”

seeing a friend in such a depressed mood made his stomach twist up in a knot, it was simply the way he did not like seeing them and specially on someone that sued to be such a bright piece on sunshine on the gloomy days that had been going for quite some time. So swallowing his own pain and misery he pulled the most cheery smile he could so when the female where to raise her sight from her furry shelter she was not to see his gloomy and depressed face, instead he would receive her with his characteristic cheery disposition in an attempt to make her feel better.

Noah · 03-11-2011, 02:11 AM

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Noah was still bitter that he lost his leg, he was bitter that he did not react quick enough to save Tala’s house. He hated him-self he was proving that he could not be trusted with protecting the pack members let alone keep him-self safe from harm, he had to be saved by Yuki, and it was a damaging blow to his ego having to be saved. The silver male would not admit that his ego was in question by none other than him-self. Noah would keep playing this happy card while around other, he had to be happy, everyone expected him to be that happy go lucky male that always wanted every around him to be happy. He knew for the pack that he needed to be that, every one counted on him for that.

Moving though the lands the male was getting better at moving with three legs better and better each day, he still sometime would forget that he was missing a leg and fall down flat on his face, he was working on that while he moved today though taking more thoughts into his moves. Counting each move before he jumped forward, his other legs where getting stronger with the lack on the one leg missing. The male knew that in time his body would work out the kinks, or so he hoped.

Picking up the scent of the female that had always joined him on the border with rouges. The silver tripod looked at the two wolves, Jace and one that Noah was not able to re-call. However Jace was not looking happy like she normally was. Lucifer would not touch her, she was not pure white, and surely he had not sunk that low….surely… He gave a nod to the silver male stopping near him. ”Jace?” His heart sunk, he did not want to be faced with this, he did not want to know that his father had raped someone again.

Jace Wolfe · 03-11-2011, 08:59 PM

of course he is, Jace <3 him Big Grin

she thinks hes her son ^^ hahahah

She did not hear or notice the approaching black male until he spoke to her. It took her a few seconds to raise her head out from under her tail. Her ears remained pressed against her head even though she was somewhat happy to see him, neither did her tail wag. She looked his fake smile that he tried to trick her with, she wasn't buying it but his attempt was received with gratitude.

"You're not fooling anyone with that smile Falgar. Come and sit with me?" She nodded her head at him, inviting him to come and lay down next to her. A friend was what she needed right now, someone to talk to.

"To answer your question. No, I'm not OK and I don't think i will be for a long while." She shifted in the snow and stared down at her pas while she waited for the black male to accept or reject her offer of him laying with her. Her attention was taken by more footsteps in he snow that did not come from the direction that Falgar was stood. She was the sable battered male she had mt the newcomer Roran at the borders, she remembered what Jefferson had called him,

"Hello Noah." She watched as the three legged male came closer

Falgar · 03-12-2011, 12:52 AM

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The once firm mask of fake happiness shattered to the ground, leaving only the desolate and sad expression he had been carrying for some time now. His ears fell from their advantaged position from up high as he noticed his attempt to be cheerful has been so easy to see through as if it had been made of glass. Green eyes were taken away from the hybrid female’s form as he took a short while to collect his thoughts. Even if his mask had already fallen off he wouldn’t let the rest of what he was feeling pour though so even if he wasn’t to cheer up the situation he was not to make it worse with his own share of sorrow either as if would be of no help at all to increases the invisible dark cloud that seemed to be floating over them.

When he was invited to move closer he was more than happy to comply. He would normally not intrude the personal space of someone else without some convincing or with some kind of danger but this was entirely different. The next steps where slow and almost too calculated, careful not due trip or something clumsy like that as it seemed to follow him around like his own curse. At his successful arrival on Jace’s side his body plopped down on the snowy ground, lifting small particles of the same material on the process. He was careful to keep a comfortable distance, no near enough to actually make contact with the stray strands of fur from her multicolored pelt but close enough to keep company.

Her answer worried him. He was well aware of what had happened to her not so long ago, heck his stomach still turned around on his belly with anger every time he thought about it but she just seemed so depressed, it made him though what would he give just to get back in time and tear the offending wolf’s throat before the thought of his atrocious plans where even to cross that crooked and corrupted mind of his. But thinking about it was of no use right now as what was past should stay like that.

“Do you want to talk about it?"

and after that he had no more words as he would wait for when she wanted to speak about it but he still pressed his half frozen nose into her shoulder in an attempt to show support. He was right now not the best option to be cheering someone up as he was sinking on his own ocean of depression but he could swallow it up for a while.

The coming steps made him almost jump up from his actual position in shock but he was able to control himself enough to make it seem as if he had just shifted his weight in order to get comfy. The unknown silver wolf had nodded to him and so he returned it, taking a few moments to examine the three legged wolf before turning back to Jace. His expression was pulled back in a pained expression as he switched his gaze between the powdery snow and her face, seeing her so down like this only increased his saddened mood.

Almost as if the imminent arrival of spring was mocking them the sun shone brighter and some birds where actually singing on the background, distracted with their own chatter and being oblivious of what was just happening below their feet. How could such a gloomy situation bring such a pretty day? But still Falgar had nor the time nor the mood to sit and watch as the battered earth received the warmer days to come with open arms.

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Noah · 03-12-2011, 08:51 PM

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The silver male had not been overly close with the calico she wolf, but he knew that the two worked well as a team. The male watched the black youth move closer to the mostly white female finding it to be a rather… rather cozy feeling around her, she invited the younger black male to come down and lay near her. The silver male smiled as he drew his tail into his sitting down as he listen to what the female was saying, about how things where not good and might not be good for a while. The silver male had a sickening gut feeling, but he did not want to admit to these feelings. Noah did not want to admit to being able to know who the rapist was running lose being his father.

”Jace? Tell us? Puh…puh…puhle…eaze….please tell us?” Noah did not want to push his luck with the female but a part of being in this pack was learning to trust the others in your pack. Noah had hoped that the scent of the black male Temo was the male that was the father that had planted the seed to make her stomach swollen. Noah hopped and hopped so bad that was the case of the matter was, she just was not ready to be with children.

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Jace Wolfe · 03-13-2011, 08:52 AM

Yay cooookies 500+ 5 points

The look of complete unhappiness and lack of hope on his face made her heart clench for him. Whatever was wrong in her life was nothing compared to what he was going through, her wrong she could right with time, were his problems right-able? It did not look like it in the male's body language and she whimpered inside for him. She opened her mouth to speak to him, to comfort and stopped. What would she say? Don't worry it will all be over soon. Ack! She shook her head slightly.

Her mind wandered back to her pack, specifically the elders who knew the language of the north unlike most of them who could only speak English and tiny bits of the northern languages. The language had an almost magical ability to sooth, she had picked up on some and now she used it with whispers that were barely audible.

"Come young child, sit with me now. Tell me, what is wrong with your world." As the charcoal hued male laid next to her but not touching, she smiled slightly. Ever the gentleman. She shifted her body sideways so that her side was pressing against his. Her ears flicked back when he asked if he wanted to talk about it, though his digging his cold nose into the warm fur of her shoulder brought a small giggle from her and she butted his head back with her own gently. But now both Falgar and the three legged, sable male known as Noah wanted to know. And she conceded the information to a higher up, after all he was one more person to look out for her attacker and make sure he didn't attack again.

She opened her mouth to speak and for a few seconds nothing came out so she cleared her throat and tried again. " I.. I was raped. And now I might be carrying my rapist's offspring." Her paws twitched as phantom pain flashed through her body. At the time she had been too fueled with adrenalin to take much notice of it but now she knew that it had really fucking hurt. Her ears stayed down against her head, the only thing she had taken away from the encounter with Lucifer had been the wounds, the pain and his seed. None of his evil words had stuck in her head. She did not believe herself a slut or anything else he had spewed at her, Temo still loved her, wanted to stay with her despite everything and that she might carry the other male's spawn.

She placed her head down to rest upon her paws, her blue and amber eyes looking out sadly at the world that they captured within their gaze. She was quieter now, less outgoing. Not that she had been enormously outgoing in the first place but now she was less so, now she walked with even more caution although today that had been forgotten in her overwhelming depressive mood. She sighed soundlessly and a small tear overflowed and traveled down her furred cheek.

Falgar · 03-15-2011, 08:21 PM

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The once wide open eyes now felt as heavy as each had tied a pair of rocks on their lids, the only thing he wanted right now was to find some comfy spot that was devoid of the white blanket that was covering the entire area and just get some repairing sleep. But this was not the time that he could do that or even think about it as there was someone he had to help. He didn’t quite know if it was his tired like trance but he swore he had heard something, too low to understand what it was but audible enough to be on his ear’s reach. Well if it had been on a whisper it would definitely not be for him so he ignored it for the time being.

A playful smile pushed through the gloomy cover that had been covering him for days as Jace gave a soft giggle. He was more than overjoyed to be able to feel her better, even if only for a small span of time it was more than enough to help some of the heavy load sadness normally brought with it and made you carry. It even was helping him as an involuntary snort came from him when his head was pushed back by the multicolored one from the hybrid.

Of course the sudden burst of almost childish glee was swiftly brought down by the problem at hand. The mentioning of her rape made his lips pull back ever slightly in deep disgust. Not for her but for the one that had the gut to even try doing something like that. Dark green eyes flashed quickly towards Jace’s belly, not noticing until now that it was an actual change he hadn’t noticed until now. The almost ghostly twitch of the grey paw that was right now at his side did not escaped him, even if she looked depressed right now she was definitely not letting it all go. Sadly he was lost at how making someone feel better as he was not doing well at the moment, something told him that trying may actually worsen it up in some way.

When the black snouted head went down on her paws his ears only went lower, he definitely missed the old Jace that you could find jumping on the snow just for the fun of it, now replaced by one that only seemed to sink deeper into the pain she might be feeling as of now. His neck was swiftly located on top of hers, and then taken away as fast as he could but not without trying to show his support first. it was his own version of a hug but he also didn’t wanted to step on her personal space. Blamed be his manners on this kind of situations as they sometimes didn’t let him act as he should out of fear of angering them. His back suddenly got itchy as a tear flowed through Jace’s cheek, it was the overwhelming want of removing it but again his manners told him against it, this was maybe the first time of his life that he actually hated them for making him feel oh so useless.

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Temo Wolfe · 03-17-2011, 01:02 AM

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Temo Wolfe

A lone, black wolf sat atop a log staring off into the trees but not seeing them. The wolf peered under the log at the empty den there. Sadness seemed to radiate from the wolf as he sat there deep in thought, back to staring out at the forest, his tail still and ears held at half mast showing something was troubling and saddening him.

She had told him that she needed him and told him why, told him what had happened. He was angry, angry that someone would do that, angry that it was done to her. He was angry with himself that he wasn't there to protect her when she most needed him. It also saddened him that she went though it. It saddened him even more that even though he told her he still wanted to stay with her, be with her, have her at his side as they walked through the valley of life, she seemed to keep going off alone. He knew there would be emotional issues and he wanted to help. He wanted to be there at her side for support, but he couldn't do that when she keeps wandering off by herself.

Temo stood up and jumped down off the log and sniffed around for a minute. Finding her most recent trail leading off, he looks in the direction she had taken. His walk heavy, his ears drooped and tail hanging, he began to follow her. The rabbit he had gotten for her in hopes she would eat to keep her strength up and heal faster, forgotten at the entrance to the den.

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Noah · 03-23-2011, 11:22 AM

The male did not move to close; it was with all respect that a male left the female the room that she needed to breathe as well as to feel comfortable around him. Noah was not his father, who took what he wanted plus more even if he had no right have what he wanted. Noah felt sickened with the hate that he felt when he thought of that black male that he knew to be his father, the man was one half of the team that had given him life, it was not a rape, it was not forced, this was something that both had made the choice to go into with a clear mind and body. Noah would like to think of him-self as a gentle man, never able to hurt anyone, at least he would like to think that about him-self.
Watching over the female like she was a hurt member of the sheep flock that he was entrusted to watch the male did not want to odd her out by watching her so closely with the one good eye, his father’s eye. He listened to what happened to her, and Noah felt horrid! It was like she had just told the world that he was the one that had rapped her, and had assaulted her body. He gulped as he felt like the rabbit he had for his late meal was going to be coming up.

Jace Wolfe · 03-24-2011, 08:18 PM

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She felt Falgar's neck lay down on top of hers and then almost as quickly removed again and felt a flush of gratitude warm her veins. He was sad, enormously so yet he still found it within himself to try and comfort her and for that she was thankful to him. She tilted her head and wiped the tear away with her paw, tears would get her nowhere and fast. They were useless. She lifted her head up and brought her ears forwards so that they weren't placed flat against her skull but instead hung to each side with the curled over tips dangling limply.

She watched as the sable scarred male pointedly stayed a short distance away from them...her, giving her space. He had his good eye turned towards her as though keeping a protective guard over her. She looked back at Falgar and though they the two males were like her personal guard, a thought that made her smile a bit. Now that she really looked and took notice she realized that one of Noah's eyes was the exact color that Lucifer's were although they were nothing alike in content. Where Lucifer's contained only hate, lust and selfishness, the Phoenix Valley male's was filled with caring and worry for her.

She looked at Noah with her head tilted to the side and then looked up at the sun that was shining brightly in the blue sky. This would be her first summer away from the arctic and she silently mourned for the loss, summers in the arctic were brief but glorious times, where everything exploded into life and feverishly tried to reproduce as fast as it could. Down south here life was slower and more at ease, the snowstorm proving it. In the arctic the snowstorm that had devastated the lands wouldn't have even made people blink. As the silence stretched out between the three Jace sighed and again looked to Noah,

"You can come and sit with us Noah, if you want?" Her voice was soft and quiet, she didn't want to annoy the man.

Falgar · 04-06-2011, 09:01 PM

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As attention left his person he lowered his head to his paws, being partially grateful of the fact as it left his time to think, not letting it affect his mask of calm. He had an inner turmoil going inside of him but it was not time to let it take him, not that any actually was but this was maybe the worst scenario to being sinking on self-loathing. Sight was briefly directed towards Jace as the corner of his eye caught motion, calming again as he found no immediate danger.

Over the time he had been keeping company to both wolves his body had been tensing up in discomfort. The ever growing amount of sunlight was not the best of friends for someone that carried around a dark hued coat of fur and the only thing he wanted to do was jump from his place and run around until his body was once more at a bearable temperature, but even with that he kept his place, taking some comfort on the scarce snow that rested below him. Why haven’t the thick coat of fur began to fall with the change of seasons was yet to be seen.

In a try to dismiss the annoying sensation he began doodling with his left forepaw, stopping briefly as Jace talked to Noah, resting his sight on the fellow grey wolf trying to hide the fact that he had detached himself from the current situation. His gaze lingered until he deemed it enough and went back to his little bored mind, tracing senseless doodles only his weird mind could even make out.

He lifted his eyes from his work in short intervals, once again trying to hide his sudden lack of interest on both wolves. It was not intentionally but if he left his mind alone too much time it would most likely try to sink itself on the now semi dormant frustration of his heart. Seeing that what he was doing had finished up in nothing more than a large patch of darkened earth he sighted, resting his head on dirtied paws and cheek in contact with the patchwork coat that belonged to Jace in silent support.

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Temo Wolfe · 04-18-2011, 12:27 AM

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Sorry for my lateness. Sad

Temo Wolfe

After a while of wandering and following Jace's trail through the forest. His ears drooping as his tail drooped with the increasing sadness that his thoughts have brought along with the slow flowing tears that periodically dripped to the ground. With Jace continuing to wander off and now having been gone for days he had begun to feel that she was no longer wanting to be with him any more. As if his not being there when she most needed him, he had failed her.

Her trail seemed fresher now as he followed it around the trees and bushes and got closer to where she had stopped. Temo stopped his search, still in the shadows of the forest where his dark fur hides him, as 3 wolves came into sight in the near distance. He recognized Jace and Falgar, but not the third one. He stood there watching and pondered if he should approach or not. Thoughts were going round and round in his head. About what happened to Jace and how it had changed her.

He cleaned up his face getting rid of the tear stains and slowly walked to the others wondering if Jace would be happy to see him or not, or if the others would be happy with his intrusion. Turning his emotions inward and not letting them show, he sat down after he approached and said "Hi everyone, how are you all doing?"

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Noah · 04-20-2011, 10:12 AM

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The silver male was not sure how to take the ever so kind invite from the female to come sit beside her, he wasn’t sure if he would be welcomed if she knew that she might be carrying his brother’s and sister’s. The feeling that he had that was laying and churning away in his stomach. His two toned blue eyes looked at her stomach and then back up to her, he was utterly sickened knowing what had happened to her and knowing that he was not able to prevent it. ”Lucifer….” He growled out the voice in a low pitched tone, he was going to pay one day for hurting all these pack members. He stood up as he moved closer to watch over the female and the silver lad.

The smaller grey male did not move, however it was more than clear to Noah that there was something on his mind, whether or not it was related to what was going on with Jace that was a different topic, he would have to make a note that later he was going to meet up with him and get to know him and see what was bothering him so much, Noah wanted nothing more than the lands to live in peace and harmony , he hated knowing that every step that any one made was have to be made with a careful step and looking back making sure that that shadow wasn’t stepping into view.

Watching the black wolf come into view Noah shifted keeping his good eye upon him, he smelled like the Valley and of Jace, however Noah knew that she was on edge with everything that just happened to her, so the male would let her call the shots if he wanted this black male that was clearly by scent something to her.

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Jace Wolfe · 04-22-2011, 10:28 PM

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The female was sad, Falgar was sad, Noah was sad. It seemed to her that she was draining the life and soul out of everyone she met with her depression and sickness. Jace had no doubt that there was ill growing inside her mind, she could feel it when she had quiet time alone which was a lot of the time. It gnawed at the well of her sanity, niggling little voices that she couldn't shake off no matter how hard she tried. She hadn't told anyone about it, she hadn't really spoken to anyone much besides Temo, Jace was worried for her adopted son that she couldn't seem to find anywhere despite how much she looked about for him, not daring to howl in case the demon monster was hiding nearby waiting to pounce upon her now fragile body.

Her attention was pulled by a softly growled word from Noah, and blinked at him surprised. Noah had growled Lucifer's name but how had he known it had been the black demon male from Anathema that had invaded her most private of places with his unyielding non existence of mercy? Unless.... Jace felt her blood run cold, had others besides herself been attacked too? Was this an invasion upon their land by their neighboring pack. The She wolf shook her head to clear it, this was matters for the Alphas to work out, political debates and such were not a strength she had within her, Jace was an upfront person, if she didn't like someone she would tell them, her mind did not work in the ways of politicians.

A frown adorned her muzzle as she noted Falgar's strange behavior, the male seemed unusually melancholy and she sighed as he placed his head on the ground with his cheek pressed against her. She smiled as Noah accepted her request and moved himself closer to them so it didn't seem as though he were an outsider looking in.Still the silence stretched and Jace didn't see any reason to break it, idle chit chat, like thinking politically was not her style. The pregnant woman was content to simply sit with her friends. Footfalls had her head turning and her tail wagged excitedly as Temo approached, brown tipped white blurring, the woman sat up onto her haunches with an easy and slightly apologetic smile, her pregnant stomach once again becoming glaringly obvious to all with eyes who looked at the scarred hybrid female.

"Temo!" The single word that came from her mouth was filled with all kinds of love and happiness and trust. Jace could see Noah was eyeing Temo and smiled at the three legged sable male to let him know everything was okay. She turned back to face Temo again and had the grace to look embarrassed about her actions,

"I'm sorry I left the den but I just really wanted to stretch my legs and get away from it for a while, didn't mean to worry you." She glanced over at Noah again,

"Noah this is Temo, my mate." She said it with pride in her voice.

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