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- Adelaida Koios - 02-09-2009 [html] It had been a little over a week since her big blow out with Alexey and since than she had not seen either her sister or brother and that was just fine with the Koios girl. In fact, for the past week she had not spent time in the pack lands at all, assuming that was where both Sankor and Alexey would stay, and perhaps Pickles too for the chinchilla had disappeared on her as well, he was the only one of the three she was concerned for. Whisper Beach provided a haven for the female in which she could get the time and silence need to think, and she had much to think about. In Alexey’s absence she had forgiven her sister, at least for becoming a luperci, even if Alexey had not asked for it. Ade realized that most likely it had not been on purpose, and even if it had… well Alexey would still love Ade when she learned the truth, wouldn’t she? Why shouldn’t it work the other way around? Yet she could not forgive Alexey for the hostile welcome she had given both her and Sankor when learning her siblings had come to stay in Dahlia. Perhaps Alexey had wanted her space, but she could have said as much. The coffee and chocolate female’s heart ached at the words Alexey had tossed so carelessly at her during their reunion. What are you doing here chicken shit? Ade should have guessed she was not welcome then, yet she had stayed on… at least she had not officially left Dahlia de Mai. The thought had crossed her mind more than once. Yet her paws once more brought her in Dahlia de Mai, heading towards Oberon’s spring. Perhaps she owed Alexey an apology, or even Sankor, but it was neither of them she sought out. By chance she had caught the male’s scent and begun to follow it, deeper and deeper into the forested area of Dahlia. When she arrived, his scent heavy in the air and his figure sprawled out none too far off, she swallowed inwardly, suddenly unsure of what, if anything, she had to say. "Ril’o?" [/html] - Ril'o - 02-09-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-11-2009 [html] The male sat up, his eyes caught hers and Adelaida hesitated, unsure of why she had come looking for him all of a sudden. Yet his body language was welcoming and warm, his tail thudding on the ground as her own quivered uncertainly. There was no reason for him to be pleased to see her, if anything Adelaida had been expecting a colder greeting, but she would just take it one step at a time. And right now Ril’o was happy enough to have her here. Adelaida came closer, her bright eyes keeping watch on the male, for any sudden change of behavior. "No… nothing’s been…" Nothing was okay, and nothing had been since she had set foot in Dahlia de Mai, but she couldn’t voice that out loud. Dahlia was his home, and he probably loved it in a way Ade never believed she could. It was best to keep her thoughts to herself, she had learned. Sharing normally got her in trouble, and so instead she quickly switched the subject. "Ril’o, I’m sorry… if I said anything to offend you, last time we talked…" There were so many others who she probably owed an apology to, so many others she flung insults at. She had fled Ril’o’s sight before anything too horrible could cross her lips. Yet she doubted that anyone else would hear an apology anytime soon, it just wasn’t her style. [/html] - Ril'o - 02-11-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-16-2009 [html]
Ade is so annoying and weak XD I love her!
His kind words and soft smile were almost too much to bear. Having grown use to the harsh realities of the world, Adelaida was not apt to taking kindness from anyone but Sankor and Alexey when she was willing to give it. Yet Ril’o seemed to genuinely be trying, and she didn’t deserve his efforts. Adelaida knew it to be true she didn’t deserve anyone’s kindness, she was a tainted wolf, and what more she was a hypocrite to boot. If anything, he deserved more than her apologies, which was all she had to offer him and he turned aside as if they were misplaced. Clearing her throat, her shaky, soft voice found it’s way out again. "No... you see... I really must apologize.. You don’t understand... I am a luperci..." So she had admitted it, out loud, to a pack mate. Only one two other beings knew her secret, Pickles, and Savina. It felt monumental and liberating to tell Ril’o this which she kept from most everyone. Drawing closer she settled back on her haunches, her bright eyes still keeping watch on Ril’o. It was that he wasn’t trustworthy, it was only that Adelaida hadn’t a clue on how to trust anyone but her own family. Her eyes swept the area Ril’o had claimed as his personal haven and she had an overwhelming urge to weep. Knowing that it would only stress out the male, whom, despite her neuroticism, was still showing her kindness. "I-I can’t get away from my worries... My sister... she... she’s a luperci too now... she’s here and... and... " And I hate her... and I hate me the words wouldn’t form themselves, her lips refused to comply with her thoughts so she would only have to make due with a phrase she was well versed in. "and I’m sorry!" Adelaida could only hope that Ril’o could somehow read minds and know what she truly meant. [/html] - Ril'o - 02-16-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-16-2009 [html]
The male was so accommodating, it was a new feeling to the female. The only other wolf who was so lenient with Ade was her own brother, Sankor. Yet it wasn’t the same, not at all. Sankor was expected to protect her, comfort her, give in to her, Katanka and Fyodor had raised the Koios male to think of his sisters first and foremost, to take their places when they could no longer watch over their children. To mediate the fights of the sisters. The role had come naturally to Sankor and yet Ril’o... Ril’o had no reason to be so kind of Adelaida and the chocolate colored female couldn’t quite understand why he acted so. Yet she stayed, she liked the way he treated her, made her felt. He was worth sticking around for.
Yet how much longer he could listen to her go on, moaning and whining she wasn’t sure, but she would take advantage of it while she could. Someone was listening to her, and he seemed to care. As he bid, she lowered herself into the grass, her body curling in on it’s self to keep out the cold that still clung to the earth, winter hadn’t gone completely yet. "I... I wasn’t born a Luperci... they turned me into one." Adelaida couldn’t help it, she was near sobbing now, recalling the horrid experience. And her last feud with Alexey. "But she chose it! She knew how I felt and she left me to become one of them..." She was babbling, ignoring his kind attempts to get her food and distract her, but she couldn’t help it. With a start she stopped and swallowed, remembering that he was a Luperci too and he might have chosen the lifestyle for himself. She did not want to unintentionally insult the male anymore than she had the last time. [/html] - Ril'o - 02-16-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-23-2009 [html]
He understood. Or so he seemed to. It was more than she had ever gotten out of Alexey lately, and Sankor still did not know the whole story. Ade knew that her brother, protector and guardian, would be outraged if he had known of the attack on his sister, and yet she couldn’t bring herself to tell him. Or Alexey. Or anyone. Accidentally, once, she had told a stranger she had come across, but the female had not cared to hear the story any further, had not accepted her apologies. The incident with the Luperci, like many of the incidents, had left a sour taste in her mouth. She remembered the other female, the one who had threatened her with a knife in the forest. Yet, perhaps not all shifters were so… she knew she wasn’t, and Ril’o and Mew did not seem so either. Having the virus was not likely to change Alexey, yet Ade couldn’t help but feel angry. She knew she shouldn’t, but all the same the emotions overcame her.
"There were three of them… c-coyotes… and they held me down…" She chocked on the words and then stopped. It had been so long ago, the physically wounds had healed, Adelaida did know if the mental or emotional ones would as well. "I haven’t told anyone... I haven’t told Alexey or my brother yet…" She sighed, turning to Ril’o apologetically. The female knew she was talking only of herself, she knew once again she was being selfish and egocentric, but the male made it so easy to confide in him. Made her feel like someone really cared. She could easily get addicted to this kind of attention, this type of devotion, if only the other did not get tired of her first. "I just wanted to let you know… you just seem like… I can talk with you…" Trust you maybe. [/html] - Ril'o - 02-24-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-28-2009 [html]
The sobs and shallow breaths subsided, she had said everything that made her so hypocritical, everything that made so many others chase her away with harsh words and snarling faces. Yet Ril’o was still here and he seemed not to mind any of it. Furthermore he seemed to even understand, which was something no one else had been able to do for Adelaida. Grateful she smiled to him, taking a moment of silence to regroup once more. She had confided what was perhaps her biggest secret and while perhaps to others, those who had been Luperci their whole lives, it was not such an earth shattered announcement, it meant a lot to her to get it off her chest.
"Thank you." It was awkward now, now that she was not hysterical with grief and fear, now that she could speak calmly. She knew she had made a fool out of herself, but she did not care and it seemed Ril’o did not either. "They need to know... I wouldn’t mind if you told Sankor.." Sankor would take it all in, internalize it and come up with some solution for his sister. Alexey was another story. She needed to know too, but Adelaida knew that no matter who told her or how, the outcome would not be pretty. And she was not looking forward to it. "Alexey’s gonna hate me..." Her words were muttered and mumbled, not really intended for Ril’o but just her own thoughts spoken out loud. Chasing her own siblings out of her thoughts she turned to the male, realizing that for all that she had told him, she knew very little about him herself. "Do you have brothers and sisters, Ril’o?" [/html] - Ril'o - 02-28-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-28-2009 [html]
Adelaida’s ears perked forward at the male’s response, he too had siblings. Yet his voice and face did not seem to indicate that he cared all too deeply for them or at least Adelaida guessed. Of course, she loved her siblings, more than most anything, but the strife between the three of them would make onlookers think twice that they were ever a happy family or would be again. Perhaps there was more to the story with Ril’o family than it seemed, perhaps it was worse than it was in the Koios family. Adelaida had always been surprised when others spoke of their family and it lacked the warmth and security she had grown up with. Now she could understand them a little better.
"You aren’t close with either of them?" She titled her head at the male, and then let it rest on her front paws, shifting her weight unsteadily where she lay. Now that she was calm she realized how closely they were to one another, and while normally such distance would cause panic in her, Adelaida found that she really did not mind too much. In fact, as she shifted she allowed herself to move just the tiniest bit closer to the male. For the first time she felt secure in the presence of someone besides Sankor. Secure and oddly excited. "I want to know about your family." [/html] - Ril'o - 02-28-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 02-28-2009 [html]
The story Ril’o shared with her made the petty and childish fights between her and Alexey seem so pathetic. While it certainly weighed heavy on her heart when her and her sister were at odds, which lately seemed more often than not, Adelaida truly missed and loved her sister. And deep down, underneath the careless and cruel words they flung at one another, she knew Alexey still loved her too. Had their father been alive he could have easily dispersed their fight, breaking it up and causing them both to see their errors and wrong doings. Yet he was gone and Sankor, while able to smooth most of their crisis over, was over his head in this one. Still, she could not imagine true dislike or even hatred between a family. The thought made her stomach turn.
"I’m so sorry Ril’o." And she was at a loss for words, knowing nothing she could say would make it better. " At least you’re here now, away from them." And what were the chances of him seeing any of them again? Of course, that meant too he would probably not see his sister or mother again, which was unfair but that was life. "It is depressing, but I wanted to know. Thank you for telling me." All the while she kept her chin rested on her paws, looking straight ahead though listening very attentively. "Would you tell me about something wonderful?" It was a silly request, but for some reason she thought the male would comply. [/html] - Ril'o - 03-01-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 03-01-2009 [html]
Eyes closed, she opened her ears to the male’s word, letting them lull her and pacify her even further. Mentally she could see Ril’o there, in the field, catching that first glimpse of the snow covered mountain. It was as if she were there with him then, bathing in the cascading colors. Waking to find such a beautiful sight, as if the world was always so lovely. Adelaida imagined she was sharing his memory, although what she pictures and what he remember were probably not the same image, it was good enough. It was indeed wonderful and it made her feel at peace. If only she could stay inside his memory forever.
Then Adelaida heard her own name spoken, and eyes opened she turned to him. Averting her eyes so they did not make contact with his own, she silently considered his words. They were words she would expect to hear from Sankor, Alexey when Adelaida was feeling her worse and needed some cheering up... words she imagined she could remember her parents saying when she was only a small child. Yet they were bound by blood, it was also a requirement they say such phrases to her. Ril’o, he had no reason to. Despite the pleasant way that her heart beat faster, she couldn’t believe or accepted such words. "You don’t even know me Ril’o, how can I be wonderful?" It would be nice if he meant them, but Adelaida was she he did not. [/html] - Ril'o - 03-01-2009 [html]
[/html] - Adelaida Koios - 03-06-2009 [html]
Adelaida narrowed her eyes, merely trying to decide if the male was sincere. She decided he was and nodded as if his explanation was enough, but even if he thought her to be a decent being, nice to speak with, that did not make it so. Adelaida knew that she had many strikes against her with many other creatures. Ril’o might have forgiven her for her anxiety, her social ignorance, her awkward and insulting words, but he was one of few.
"I am horrible though, just ask my sister." Adelaiada remembered all the words Alexey spoke too well, and they weighed heavily on her. Even when Sankor and Alexey were absent in her life, their voices, normally judging, spoke to her. It was how she knew she was about to make a fool of herself, mentally she could hear Alexey snicker or make some snide remark. It hadn’t always been that way. Alexey’s voice use to fill her head with kind, warm words. They had fit together so well with the confidence Sankor tried to instill in her, but lately it had just not been so. Ril’o didn’t know who he was getting himself entangled with. "If you want to think I’m wonderful, you can... but I’m just not." She hadn’t felt wonderful in a long time. [/html] - Ril'o - 03-12-2009 [html]
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