Spring Cleaning

Augustus · 04-03-2012, 04:14 PM

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OOC Thought I'd hop in to make up for my lack of posting. I just started work, and am exhausted, the others will come tomorrow. Sorry for the wait, deary and congratz!! <3 Others still feel free to join, one of the rare occurances that Augustus may show some semblance of happiness

He was being unfair to her. He was morose when he should have been exultant, constantly sulking about as if he were more alone than ever. In truth, he couldn’t be happier, but having a mate meant opening up a part of himself that he’d never revealed to anyone. It was not easy, despite how much he loved her, despite all of it. He’d never had anyone to confide in before, not since…The thought of his brother crossed his mind. He remembered their romps throughout their territory, tales told in the dark of night. Only death had been able to part them. A part of him still mourned his loss, yet so much had happened since then. So many things that should have made him happy. He had a new family now, a home, a distinguished rank, he had his duty, and he had her. He lay at night wrapped around her, and that was where he remained. His spot in the den had swiftly become theirs, and he had nothing of his own anymore, not that he had anything to possess. But a bone here, a mouse he’d killed for a snack, all shared. It wasn’t that he did not wish to share with her, but it was something new. Even his scent was not his own, but a mixture of earth and sea.. He was disappointed in himself. There she was excited, happy, and he could do nothing but threaten rain on a sunny day. She had accepted him after all, and that was all that mattered.

His black rimmed ear twitched at the feel of her tongue’s caress, but he did not awaken yet. Instead he grumbled and shifted only slightly in his sleep. He was dreaming of them, of that night under the moon. Never had she looked more beautiful than she did that night. It wasn’t just the call of her heat that beckoned him, but seeing her like that. She looked…different, changed somehow in a major way. Her fur seemed to glow, and her eyes were aflame. He’d found it hard to resist her that night, and all the other nights since. He still wanted her no less, but as the days passed his anxiety grew. The truth was, he’d never had a woman before, and Ciara, he wanted it to be special, for her more than himself. Just being with her was enough for him, but he had nothing to lose. It was different for a woman, bittersweet. He did not want to fall short of any expectations she had of him. He could sense her unease whenever his lower body brushed against her, be it by accident or on purpose. She was great at hiding it, but he knew, only it if was because of his own self-consciousness. He was no better than she.

These restless thoughts finally caused his lids to withdraw and the afternoon’s light greeted him cheerfully. It was then that he leapt to his feet, alarmed. Afternoon? No, this wasn’t right? What madness caused him to sleep so late? Even his mate was nowhere to be found. His heart raced in his chest from his sudden awakening, and then her call came to him. He took a moment to even his heart-rate before exiting the den. He was going to make up for what he’d lost, show her that he was honored to have her by his side, and to let her know how much he cared. He’d been too selfish of late, he knew that. It was time that was remedied. He urged his limbs into a trot, pausing after a while to scent the wind and raise his voice. He called to her briefly before continuing on his way, eyes yearning for her golden frame.

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