Time Won't Let Me Go

Anu · 05-25-2010, 08:26 PM

[html]

Big Grin

Anu had grown in a sort of traditional pack, were the alpha pair were all that were allowed to breed. It mattered little to the others, or so she remembered. For reasons that were and had always been far from her knowledge only one litter would be allowed. It was likely that resources were not as plentiful, not that it was simply forbidden. It stemmed from the non-luperci way of living, if they all bred then starvation and weakness would filtrate through their family, it was not always possible to support the ways of life Anu had come to know in the Dreaming lands. But that had been a long time ago, in a different lifetime. Still it resonated well within her, that Savina be the one to give the pack the joys of a new litter. It always felt right. This new brood brought no stronger feeling forward, and she smiled at the Commander as she spoke of Mati, and the little Artemis. Lets hope shes ready. Anu spoke with a bit a playful tone. It would be interesting if Mati could teach a few lessons, outside of things creative.

Unfortunately her uplifted tone and attitude could not remain intact for long. She did not like to feel so low when around the Commander, and did not like that someone she had thought she loved brought it upon her. Did the young ex-Dahlian want to do such a thing to her? Had she wanted to hurt the gentle spoken fey? Anu had welcomed her here, she had opened her heart, her life and her home to the woman and Coli’s warmth lasted only a short while. A candle that had been snuffed out far too early. But with the distance that she had given Anu, the older female had found something else to fill the gap. Even if it had only been brief. Savina’s words made Anu smile briefly, and she nodded. She always knew that to be true, always knew that she would have her friend at her side the moment she needed her. But the emotions were like a tidal wave. Rising and falling on her voice, and for a brief moment she drowned. Unable to speak without letting the floodgate open and her unhappiness wash over Savina as well Anu remained silent. Her thoughts would need to travel elsewhere.

Maybe it was that sadness that made her panic come so quickly and slip past her defenses so easily. Maybe it was because she was already wounded, and though she had thought that things would be better with each passing day, that for a moment in time she had forgotten completely and had been possessed by another in a way Colibri could have never had her, her heart still wept. Savina was at her side, her face touching the softness of her gray and tan neck. Anu leaned into her, shutting her eyes tight to keep the salty drops back. She was not going to fall apart now, she would not fail. Once Savi moved away Anu opened her eyes, catching the green orbs and feeling as if she had stifled the tears. Her words passed through Anu, and though said slowly she strained to repeat them, as if they had been missed. Blue gaze started at the Commander, as if what she had said was some joke. But her friend would never say such a thing in jest.

Her breathing quickened. And she looked at the other fey long and hard. She couldn’t be, such a thing as impossible. And yet, it wasn’t at all. Instead of feeling the panic return, and rather then scream the protest that had been her first initial reaction, the Dreamer watch her good friend with a loss for words that was more unique then she had ever felt. It was like there was so much inside, so many thing, good and bad that wanted rush out and be heard. Then, she blinked. The tears rolled gently from the corners of her bright cerulean gaze and the female gave one single question. Really? She would believe Savina, always, but she could not help but wonder how she knew. All of the what ifs and the fears had yet to hit her. She was merely in shock.

Login




Remember me Lost Password?