Princess had left both of her previously for what could be considered selfish and selfless reasons, both at the same time. She had left Dahlia de Mai with no regard for whether or not she could have been happy in that pack, simply to be with her brother. It had been selfless in that, because she had only wanted to make him happy, but it was selfish as well. She had not said goodbye to her mother (though she had hardly deserved such a courtesy) and she had done it so that she could be happy with her brother, selfish acts indeed. Leaving Crimson Dreams had been much more difficult, but she did not think it had been selfish, as she had said good bye to both of her leaders and she had done it so that her lover would not have to make such a difficult decision. He had not asked her to do it, but she was willing to do it so that they could be together. She would not change it.
Perhaps it was selfish of J’Adore to not want to join his future mate’s pack, but Princess could understand his reasoning. It seemed sad, though, because his future mate had not yet joined him. If he had not specified that she would be at some point, Princess would have felt saddened for him in that she would worry about whether or not his future mate actually wanted to leave her pack. “Sometimes being selfish is okay,” she said. It would have been hypocritical of her not to think so, as she had once been extremely selfish and focused entirely upon herself. Things had changed, and so much for the better for herself and her mate and family, but she could not deny how she had once been.
She leaned against the shelves of books, thinking of her own past. There was nowhere that she would rather be than in Cour des Miracles with her mate and their three beautiful children. She did not miss any of her past homes before Crimson Dreams, and she did not miss anyone all that much, though she would admit to missing her brother some. What would it be like, to miss a place so much to want to return to it and give up everything one had? Spain must have been a nice place, though she had not been there. She was not well-versed in geography and she did not travel much, and never had. “What do you miss most about Spain?”
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