07-16-2011, 01:50 PM
Her nightmares were getting stronger and as she lay asleep she couldn't fight off the nightmares. The fire that burned so brightly that Shiloh still cringed from the pain. She still tried to reach for Anya, still called her name. She still cried in the dream but as it shifted to her rape she snarled and lashed out at an attacker only seen in her mind. She would fight him and she would be broken by him over and over but for some reason her nightmares changed to Saxif, her close and trusted friend. When she was around her she found herself calm and understood. She found peace from the demons that plagued her mind. There was something in Saxif's touch that made her feel like less of a monster, something in that glint in her eye that made her heart race and her body grow hot. She didn't understand why Saxif made her feel that way but she longed for someone to see her like Saxif did. She longed for a mate she would never find. She longed to love someone with everything she had and she thought that person would have been Leon but now that she knew he couldn't and wouldn't love her where did that leave her?
She dreamed of the ivory huntress loving her, caring for her and seeing past what others were too scared to see, too scared to understand. She found she was happier with Saxif and she valued her friendship with her but in the back of her mind she knew they were more then just friends. They had feelings for each other feelings Shiloh longed for but also feared because it would hurt her as much as Leon did. "I love you....Sax...if" she whispered softly in her sleep as she dreamed of a better day, of a better life.
She dreamed of the ivory huntress loving her, caring for her and seeing past what others were too scared to see, too scared to understand. She found she was happier with Saxif and she valued her friendship with her but in the back of her mind she knew they were more then just friends. They had feelings for each other feelings Shiloh longed for but also feared because it would hurt her as much as Leon did. "I love you....Sax...if" she whispered softly in her sleep as she dreamed of a better day, of a better life.