Anu nodded at Savina’s words, her emotions had made her something that she never wanted to be. But they were also an addiction. They blended so naturally with the rest of her that they were becoming less and less foreign. They filled each cell that formed her body, completing who she was so perfectly.
Again, the mention of everything that she had. It was shameful that Anu needed to be reminded so often of the family that she loved. Of course, Anu would never forget her responsibility to them. But the pain that had pierced her soul was blinding. It was her love for them that poured salt on the fresh wound.
It was a constant battle. At first she had wanted to let them grow and give them the room to do so. If Naniko trusted them to know who their father was, then Anu would have to let them learn. But, as she was reminded again and again that they needed her Anu wanted to protect them. They were Naniko’s children, and once Anu had gotten that idea in her head she was suddenly faced with the realization that they were connected to her too. Agreeing, Anu blinked tears from her eye and hoped that they would stop.
I want to be that for them. A deep exhale rid her of the overbearing grief, though her face still held sadness. It just shouldn’t have to be this way. Geneva shouldn’t have to leave, and the pack shouldn’t have to live without her.
Its not going to be the same. her words were stronger, and flowed without stuttering over her crying. Nothing would be the way it was, and Anu was starting to understand all the things that needed to change. |