Don't want to lose what i loved about you

[Anu]

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As her own words passed her lips Anu became certain of one thing. She wasn’t ready. Even though the relationship between she and Naniko had faded into a black void, Anu didn’t know how to express the fact. There was still a connection, something that held she and white wolfess together. It was seen in the four faces of Naniko’s children, as well as in the sound of her voice and the image of her face. But such a wrong feeling that they both shared and express only gave them pain. A pain neither of them could manage. But the things that she saw in Geneva’s face. They blinded her. Sent her to the brink and made her cling to anything that kept her grounded. It was so different; it was as if she had found anther way to breath, new air. New life. Even though her features were that of confusion and surprise, Anu still searched for everything that kept her whole. Though bright emerald eyes wouldn’t’ lift to meet her own, Anu found pieces of what she searched for. Scattered remnants of her kindred soul. The gap between them was gone in an instant, and Anu held her breath. Still she wouldn’t look, the eyes that held her heart hid from Anu. It was a blazing sensation, the moment they touched. But her new skin held it inside and kept their connection cold. Inside she felt the thunder of her heart, it made her smile. Breaking the mask the held her form together and portrayed her fake strength, her lips curled. The sound and beat were long lost friends returning. Her mind embraced it, and her chest felt whole. Of course she had been wrong. But as Anu looked, she found it was written over her body, Geneva wasn’t pleased to see her. The smile faded, as blue eyes looked downward. Her finger stung, and her wrist felt light without the weight of the knife. As much as she wanted, Anu wouldn’t ask. To save herself from being ultimately disappointed she wouldn’t ask if the gray fey was back, for good. Instead she took hold of the hand that covered her finger and peeled it back gently and quite slowly. Holding her hand Anu let it linger in her own before letting go. Her cut would fine, they had other wounds to heal. Why are you here? her tone held everything her face wouldn’t show. The wonder, the excitement as well as the anticipated disappointment and sadness. Eyes searched for hers, and Anu stopped herself from touching the other's face. To lift her chin in hopes of finding what she looked for. Instead she rested them against the counter, holding herself in place. In the past her emotions had always been in control, or once her mind wanted to be the one at the wheel.

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