Don't want to lose what i loved about you

[Anu]

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What was this? And why did Anu even need to wonder? This had been so simple, but that was quite some time ago. It seemed like the first day they had met had been the last encounter with Geneva that didn’t rock her. Though, maybe it had. Maybe it had been the start of everything. To the very moment they were sharing, nothing had been right. Then again right was a relive term. What was right for her was so very different from what was right for Geneva, and what was right Naniko. Things weren’t clear to any of them, Anu certainly knew that she walked behind a fog, and what lay behind it was nothing more then a shadowy outline. Her right, felt like a pounding heart and a blazing electric touch. But maybe it was all a lie. Anu looked to her face, the aging words they had shared were miles away. The moment when they had come together was even further. Waiting patiently where she had pushed them, maybe now it was time for her to let them return. Anu reached for them, letting them rush to her. They came more quickly then she was prepared. That had felt right, watching them with a new hindsight. Yes, with the guilt lost and parted from her heart Anu could look at them differently. Her empty words brought her back. Anu looked away, taking the disappointment she had expected and burying it deep under her façade. Of course, Geneva had things that were too important to leave behind. Anu looked away, crushing the wishful feeling. She didn’t want to go anyways. Why was she still standing here? Her thoughts growing angry. If Geneva had such important things to retrieve, why had she stopped to see her? It was obvious that she didn’t want to lay eyes on her anyways. She was foolish, the thoughts blazing through her skull, to believe that Anu could ever be anything that Geneva was for her. She needed her, more then Anu wanted to admit. She had been why her heart had left, hiding in the shadows for no one else to claim. She had taken it from Naniko. Though Anu had always willingly given it. Anu had been a shell of herself since she had left, broken in a world that as nothing but gray. Things? Her face grew hard, and she turned from the other in fear of giving to much of her thoughts away. A deep exhale made her legs move, taking the sliced potatoes to the empty sink. She let them fall, clunking against the empty basin. Things too important to let go? She asked hastily. In all honesty she didn’t care what Geneva had come back to retrieve. She hadn’t come back for her, not even to see her. That was obvious. The words had been false, those few and small words Geneva had spoken. Never had Anu taken for her a liar, and in the recesses of her mind she didn’t believe she was, but with the new wounds she had self-inflicted anything felt like an attack. Even the memory of those long lost sweet words.

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