Was she always asking for so much? Inside she knew she always did. Parts of her wanted the world, every second of time and it left her ashamed. Then the rest was ready to give up, ready to forget, fall into a dark hole and just let the rest live while she only watched. When they were apart, Anu was left on the sidelines, a bystander while the rest moved on. It was too hard to try, the effort so great it was so easy to give up. So much of her wanted ever inch, greedy and selfish they clung to the very small idea she held in her mind. It always felt so right, the new electric air, the loud beat of her heart, the sweet song that her soul sang as they touched.
It didn’t need to work, because it never would. They would always be left with nothing, but as Geneva closed the gap her face in a permanent state of confusion Anu knew that she would move mountains to prove the statement wrong. Her body shook, and Anu fought not to cradle her shaking form. The air between their two bodies changed, and Geneva took hold of her face. Hands held her cheeks, and Anu looked up with round eyes searching for would happen next. It was always a surprise, a mystery. There was never a hint to what could happen. She feared she would scream, growl and push her away as she had before. But she only drew closer.
The words took her by surprise, and in a moment she couldn’t read her voice. Was it pain? Displeasure? Anu couldn’t tell and before she could determine it their lips were touching. Anu grabbed her fore arm, her breath lost as the other woman’s lips touch hers with more intensity, more fierceness then she had ever know. Yes.., spoke loudly in her mind as she pushed back, moved her hand swiftly to the others face. She held it, though the hands on her own were forceful Anu cradled the jaw she touched. Her heart raged, beating in her chest so loudly so hard that her entire body began to pulse with it’s rhythm.
The feels drained from her, and she searched for the same in their kiss. If it was meant to be meaningless, meant to prove her wrong it wouldn’t work. If the jade eyed wolf had hoped that they would find nothing as they touched, find emptiness as Geneva gave her what she so greedily asked for she would be disappointed. To disprove the feelings that had burned through every fiber of their bodies was an impossible task. As much as it was impossible to make what they had between them work in some ordinary way, it was impossible to ignore it, to forget it and to run from it. Geneva might try, but she couldn’t and Anu wasn’t about to let her push her away. If it was all just to make her feel like the whore she was, she would let her. Anu knew it wasn’t the whiling gentle kiss she had secretly imagined they would share, but it was the same distorted passion that they had always felt.
Soft lips against the roughness of the other female, Anu gave everything she had only in the hopes that she would get the smallest bit in return. |