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There was relief when Anu reassured her that she was not resentful at having the blindfold taking off of her eyes. It would have been an easy thing for the older fey to feel and Savina would have hated for that to happen. She didn't think she could afford to have any more rifts occur between herself and the people she loved and depended on the most in her life. If that were to happen she would truly be lost. Silently she nodded her head in response, though the apology was still in her bleary emerald orbs. She didn't any turmoil on her dear friend, and was sorry to have been the cause of it, even if inadvertently. For really, the one who had caused all of their pain had been the D'Angelo woman. It was unbelievable now that she stood back and really looked at everything she had caused and how many people she had hurt. For someone who seemed on the surface to be a compassionate and kind-hearted person, what her actions left behind was ugly and disturbing. She was like a black widow, poisoning everything she touched.
She hoped that Anu was right. She wanted to believe those words and not question them. The fear gripped her though and she could not shake it. Savina had tried to tell him what she had just told Anu. She had tried to tell him why the pain that Naniko had caused her went so deep, that it went beyond what had occurred most recently even if that was the most grievous incident. He hadn't listened though. He hadn't even given her the chance. It was so unlike him. Ehno had never been so callous to her before. Had he been seduced so far that his heart was truly turning against her? No. No, it couldn't possibly happen so quickly, could it? After all they meant to one another he couldn't turn against her so easily. He just couldn't. She breathed deeply, trying to calm her rapidly beating heart. It was so hard, all of this was so hard, and she felt so weak. How was it that she had the position she did when she was so quickly taken to her knees?
"I hope he stays. Gods...I hope he stays. It makes me feel selfish but...I don't know...I don't know what I'd do if he...he..." She couldn't say it. Her breaths came shakily and her body shivered. The despair closed in around her, clawing at her already ragged edges.
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Anu placed herself into the mind of the male they spoke of, as much as she could. The turmoil that he must be in, for that was the first thing Anu felt as she imagined. The pain that was already spread through out, the unknowing, the impossibility of such a decision. It was dark and clouded, and Anu did not even try to think she could understand. She would never want to know or to understand what either of them where feeling. She had already been through her own betrayal and abandonment. It was too hard, to sharp a pain. Anu placed a hand on the fey’s shaking shoulder. But there were no words for her to express, only a presence that was needed. They both knew the possibilities; they both knew the odds and what the outcomes could be. Why try to say she knew what Savina was going through? It was hard to imagine what it would be like to have such a bond with her brothers. She had been sure long ago that she would never see them again, and she had been the one to leave in the first place.
Her light and gentle touch smoothed the fur along the dark hued female’s shoulder. Blue eyes held her own threatening tears, fighting them back with a strength that she did not know she possessed. Anu would miss Ehno if he left, but her fear, her sadness would never touch that of the male’s sister. She had loved him their entire lives. Through all the deep-rooted anger, Anu could still see the power that would be forged between Naniko and the Marino male with the birth of the litter and it was something she feared would poison them all. Why did they continuously suffer? If Savina was broken by this, there would be nothing Anu could do for her. At this moment she didn’t even have words left to comfort her, what would she do then? The Commander shivered, as if a cold had suddenly taken hold of her water soaked coat.
The older woman looked down at the fallen leader. Her heart was sore, her voice running from her and unlikely to be caught. Anu moved forward, and as she would one of the wolves she loved and called her own she pressed her nose against the dark females fore head. Her voice could run no more and she spoke softly the only thought that could come. “Don’t think it. You know he loves you” He won’t go, he won’t abandon the family that would never abandon him.
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It was too much to contemplate. Too much to imagine. Already she was unraveling and if he left she would be undone. She would cease to be the person she was and become something else. Something less, something broken and hollow. Savina never wanted to be anything like that, but she didn't have the power to stop it. Her fate was in her brother's hands, and while that never would have caused her pause before, now she quaked with fear at the prospect. It wasn't because she thought he wanted her to suffer, but simply because she understood the power of the love that you had for your children. How it could overpower anything else...even your love for a sister. She didn't want him to not love his children that way, she only hoped that he would find a way and not burn her down to ashes.
The small fey felt that light touch on her shoulders and she leaned into it, scooting closer to her friend, needing the comfort. Savina had never been so lost and afraid before. The only time that even compared had been after her mother's death, and even then she had been in shock and unable to comprehend what the ramifications really were. In this case she was painfully aware of what could happen. She knew what each path could lead to and yet right now everything was encased in the black shadows of doubt. She didn't know what would happen or even when it would. It could be months. Could she go on like this for months? The woman doubted it. Already she felt like her molecules might simply unbind and scatter to the winds. There were too many unknowns and she could not find her way.
Anu's nose pressed against her head and she whimpered, feeling so much like a lost and scared pup. She clung to that contact though, that connection, knowing it was the only thing keeping her together in this moment. Savina tried to nod her head and tried to speak, but the sorrow overwhelmed her again and her eyes poured tears, her body shuddering and shaking with sobs again. She had to try and be hopeful she knew, but she just couldn't find the light.
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